i know i'm supposed to stay away from kaka, but

Real Madrid Prepared To Sweeten Ashley Cole Deal By Offering Kaka To Chelsea - Report

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

Davi: Hi, Kaka. I’m Davi and I like peanuts. My question is: How much do you want to hit Dunga in the face with a shovel right now?
Kaka: Oh, no — I would never do that, Davi! Why, uh, why would I want to hit him with a shovel? It’s unfortunate things didn’t work out better with Dunga, but he was a great manager and I’m sure he will have a lot of success in whatever he does next.

Leonardo: Hi, Kaka. My name is Leonardo and I’m 10. If you could push Dunga or Felipe Melo down the stairs and then set the building on fire and then laugh at their skeletons, which would you choose?
Kaka: Oh my. I — I wouldn’t do that to either of them. Laugh at their skeletons? That’s terrible. How, uh, how did you even think of that, Leonardo?

i'm off now to watch

when i hear this i feel so sad now. NO ONE MORE MONTH PLEASE. LA LIGA LA LIGA LA LIGA.




oh god it's all kaka.

fucking world cup withdrawal syndrome. i'm feeling it, definitely.

random stuff.

grr angry.

what am i going to do with my music?

Best of luck Deebie for the A level run! Keep your head clear, and passionate!

The fabric of your flesh, pure as a wedding dress
Until I wrap myself inside your arms I cannot rest
The saints can't help me now, the ropes have been unbound
I hunt for you with bloodied feet across the hollow ground

for Edwin! your palette is diverse, and i thought i'd share this amazing piece of music with you. she's an English-born Pakistani, who can create incredible sounds and atmosphere. This track is a classic and i fell in love with it the first time i listened to it. critics have also hailed it as one of the greatest tracks of her career. haunting yet kinetic, i hope you'll like it! enjoy! =) Bat For Lashes - Daniel

Bat For Lashes - Daniel (HD) from Peter Pan on Vimeo.

EXAMS ARE OVERRR!!!

GO BRAZIL!!!!!!

(okay, and maybe portugal, but they better not win brazil at any time in this world cup. =))

i'm so happy, it's time for video dedications!

This is for Adeeb! trust you like the vibe of the music! fucking fantastic song that reminds me of Amy Winehouse, but a less frantic, more chillaxed one, with freaking good lyrics. Santigold - I'm A Lady

This is for Gabriel! more pretty girls with good music for you to stare at! Rai Knight - New New

This is for Kiron! atas title, still great music nonetheless by one of the nominees for Best Artist for the Mercury Prize last year! feels groovy and pulsating. I LOVE HIS MOVES, SEXY HIP SHAKING! Friendly Fires - Paris

if anyone feels bored and just wants something to their taste (that i think they'll be happy with, or just feeling adventurous), just tag and i'll have a song video recommendation up for you! =))))

there is no music.

when you truly love humankind, you accept everyone.

who are you accepting?

holy shit.

later with Jools Holland has some really really good shit.

i just rediscovered my love with Arcade Fire. argh.

any of you who are performers or want to perform, this is your inspiration. FUCKING FUCKING FUCKING RAD I WANT TO EXPLODE AND TELL THE WORLD EVERY TIME I WATCH THEM LIVE ON YOUTUBE.


Arcade Fire - Neighbourhood #3 (Power Out) + Rebellion (Lies)



imagine being there. their live performances just have this different texture and sound to them every performance, as compared to the equivalent songs on the studio albums. incredible. this is the meaning of live performance.

what sets bjork completely apart from other performances is her ideas and the ideas you can sense are just barely held back onto the stage. she interacts with the other performers, makes them feel necessary, and gives them space to show that they are part of the song and the music. she explained volta to me, it's the fusion of earthly and industrial sounds. what we humans are. it explains everything on the album. especially the brass.

for you adventurous enough, here is

Bjork - Earth Intruders

This is my face
I've got a thousand opinions
And not the time to explain

And this is my body
And no matter how you try and disable it
Yes I'll still be here

And, this, is my mind
And although you try to infringe
You cannot confine

And, this, is my brain
And even if you try and hold me back
There's nothing that you can gain

'Cause I use mouthwash
Sometimes I floss
I've got a family
And I drink cups of tea

I've got nostalgic pavements
I've got familiar faces
I've got a mixed-up memory
And I've got favourite places

- Kate Nash, "Mouthwash"

no matter what, you can't change me. accept me, or be done with it.

i'm stronger now. i will still try to love you.
i've got nothing against you.

haha.

"akward laugh"

FUCK I NEED TO GET THESE ALBUMS.

THE CONCRETES - THE CONCRETES

ANNIE - DON'T STOP

FOALS - TOTAL LIFE FOREVER

ROBYN - BODY TALK PT. 1

will update if i remember more. sigh my old phone...why did you have to leave me like that?

hello world.

i feel like the luckiest, happiest guy on earth.

=)

really, even as i'm sitting here in front of the computer.

omgomgomgomg i need to blog about this.

don't you think personalised ads on the internet are scary? like, they know what your hobbies are, and then they generate advertisements to your screen based on them. HOW THE HELL DO THEY CALCULATE THEM? how do you know i'm in dance? take gmail for instance, i feel so terrified when they flash appropriate ads at me. YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW ME!! ahhhhhh!

hello world.

i've changed my desktop wallpaper, my game, and my phone.

i feel changed, like i just pivoted or something.

hello!

All at once, not a whisper, nor word.
Then all at once...
Let me have it all, let me have a battle on,
Easy target,
Look can we just...just get it over with.
It's getting worse, against all the odds...
It's getting worse.
(Guard down, floor's yours, last man standing can we, just get it over with.)

Been one of those days...
Safety first, don't push...don't push me...what's the hurry?
Cause there's One nerve remaining, waiting on one look,
One look now...have you got it?
Have you got it in you?
Have you got it in you?

adeeb! adeeb! adeeb!

Robyn - Dancing On My Own



fucking new album!!! will be released in three separate cds over a year, this one's from her first disc! coolios!

it's really good!

what the fuck. Twilight doesn't deserve Florence.

Florence + The Machine - Heavy In Your Arms



that being said, she probably revels in the gothic part of the story.

i'm getting to know what i want.

AND NOW, i'm going to sit my ass down soon and get my head in the game. not really a game, just a morass of suffering and confusion.

@THE CONCRETES - VICTORIA BERGSMAN, COME BACK!!!

i've been so fucking infatuated with The Concretes recently, that means for about 3 or 4 days.

their songs are so fucking GORGEOUS (thank you youtube) i just can't stop thinking about having their album argh. MUST. GET. THE CONCRETES.

hahaha. scandinavian plaintiveness. and purity.

The Concretes - Say Something New



lovelovelove.







thank you for reminding me, alvin.

Kate Nash - Doo-Wah-Doo

i'm in love with human beings.

they can just juggle so many things. whether the things are aimless, pointless, or significant, it's not for me to judge right now, but i'm amazed at the things that the people around me can handle and go through, EVERY DAY.

i'm not talking about consolation shit. i'm talking about real, difficult things that they face. and the emotion well-kept when doing these things.
and the amount of things that they make themselves do, at the same time, while doing other things, it's incredible and you feel so intimidated but powerful, like you could be doing them too. and the truth is, you could.

i'm in love with human beings.

This. Is Control. Control feeds off you like a drug. Control covers your bases with shit and waits for it to harden. Control destroys, destroys.

i had a freakout moment today.

i can't think about it, because if i do, i'll start freaking out again. =(

uh-oh.

it just centres on the amount of revision i just realised i had in front of me, it just occurred to me that there's LAST YEAR'S work to think about and to revise and to remember FOR THE FRIGGING A LEVELS.

okay. okay.

one step at a time, yes?

thank you kiron!

=)

how apt, i just opened this album.

people who know how to use a semi-colon appropriately are so sexy.

Emmy Rossum - Slow Me Down

i got a clear version! i love it!!! =)



been glued to the computer screen watching vjc choir videos and can't get myself unglued. then the only other thing my mind keeps flickering to is the ps3 where i got defeated by the stupid retarded final boss SIGH. i think i need to change my paradigms. like the paradigm in the game, not my mindset. that one's doing okay.

eek h3 consultation tmr it's so nerve wracking!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
IT'S HERE!

Florence + The Machine - Cosmic Love



i got the atmosphere and the last collapsing part right. =)

girls are such strange and difficult creatures to understand.

why do you keep such secrets?
why do you avoid confrontations?
how do you keep living like this?

uniqlo is just getting better and better.
check out the designs on their website...good prices, and great block designs!

it's almost the end of the day where my parents are going to be at home for the last time in nearly a week.

and i still feel strange.

Florence and the Machine - Dog Days Are Over

new video!
"In “Dog Days Are Over”, directed by Georgie Greville and Geremy Jasper of LEGS, and edited by Paul Snyder at Lost Planet, Florence is the shamanic leader of a surreal orchestra where spiritual elation explodes into smokey psychedelic anarchy. Each musical element of the song is personified by a group of colorful characters that combine 60’s girl groups, Hinduism, gospel choirs, drum circles, paganism and pyrotechnics. Florence is a painted primal force of nature that whips a religious experience into a riot." - LEGS media
i absolutely love it, grows on you.

Florence and the Machine "DOG DAYS ARE OVER" Music Video from LEGS MEDIA on Vimeo.

i breathe the refreshing cold air as it slides down my throat.

after staring at the computer since 12pm, it's a soothing change.

the computer doesn't allow you much space for creativity. its lines and neat structure is incompatible with the trembling of your hand as it brushes down the page.

and now, out of habit, i press control+s every time my mind gets stuck. it's annoying and breaks the flow of thought. who needs it, in this new world of ideas?

i've been reading alot of confessional poetry today, and getting my thoughts down. i feel so professional, at the desk typing and looking at professional-looking documents and just having the whole day stretch ahead of me.

it helps that i've turned off the vibration in my mobile phone and put it aside. nothing to distract me, and it's almost like being on an island beach with my clear laptop and curing myself, rehabilitating myself, out of this mundane cycle. without actually going anywhere or doing anything spectacular.

yeah. so "The blood jet is poetry,/ there is no stopping it."

Sylvia Plath's world is one that is black and white, and the intrusion of red is combated to its maximum. although whether this intrusion is beneficial or harmful, that's kinda what i'm looking at in my h3 essay.

the seniors' essays are so intimidating. it's like being at the foot of mount everest while having the rare opportunity to see the flags at the top, and the people on their way down from there.

too many words. time for some pictures.

i knew it.

once you get on a computer with internet access, you don't feel like starting to do any work. the colours and lights are just so amazing, they blind and mesmerise you to no end.

well i've been really focused tonight, and want to get this essay done, so that the guilt with my h3 can stop and i can start on it.

lol i just can't resist the computer keypad. =P microsoft word!

oh. now i'm getting to understand "friends with benefits" more.

Listen to my story. This may be our last chance.

Wild Geese

You do not have to be good.
You do not have to walk on your knees
for a hundred miles through the desert, repenting.
You only have to let the soft animal of your body
love what it loves.
Tell me about despair, yours, and I will tell you mine.
Meanwhile the world goes on.
Meanwhile the sun and the clear pebbles of the rain
are moving across the landscapes,
over the prairies and the deep trees,
the mountains and the rivers.
Meanwhile the wild geese, high in the clean blue air,
are heading home again.
Whoever you are, no matter how lonely,
the world offers itself to your imagination,
calls to you like the wild geese, harsh and exciting--
over and over announcing your place
in the family of things.

Mary Oliver

I can show you the world
Shining, shimmering, splendid
Tell me, princess, now when did
You last let your heart decide?

I can open your eyes
Take you wonder by wonder
Over, sideways and under
On a magic carpet ride

A whole new world
A new fantastic point of view
No one to tell us no
Or where to go
Or say we're only dreaming

A whole new world
A dazzling place I never knew
But when I'm way up here
It's crystal clear
That now I'm in a whole new world with you
Now I'm in a whole new world with you

Unbelievable sights
Indescribable feeling
Soaring, tumbling, freewheeling
Through an endless diamond sky

A whole new world
Don't you dare close your eyes
A hundred thousand things to see
Hold your breath - it gets better
I'm like a shooting star
I've come so far
I can't go back to where I used to be

A whole new world
Every turn a surprise
With new horizons to pursue
Every moment red-letter
I'll chase them anywhere
There's time to spare
Let me share this whole new world with you

A whole new world
That's where we'll be
A thrilling chase
A wondrous place
For you and me

it's intermission time!

mad rush again? i think so.

i'm doing it!

i hope you see that.

i'm so tired at 11.33am.

am i taking care of my life?

respect me!

post number 600.

lol. this blog has come a long way.

Dramanite 2010 was awesome. don't think i'll forget this experience for a long, long time.

next: Estrellas.

hey, waitaminute, it's not even the end of the month yet, why're you being such a bitch?

my mom has an inability to control her ridiculous, illogical crankiness.

just pray that she suffers a near-death experience that'll change her.

one way i can think of is that the blood doesn't stop coming out for three weeks or something.

poetic justice.

hello everyone.

everything but the girl.

everything you want.

omg i just got hit by this fantastic terrible wave of regret and panic, because i wasted my afternoon trying to do work and just couldn't. i don't know what to do anymore!

k and d have blogs but they don't want me spreading. HELLO K AND D!

You're my cocoon.

You're my cocoon.

i finally understand why songs repeat lines.

insecure, that's what you are.

i don't know what to think about you.

had a very interesting, and simultaneously terrifying, one-on-one session with two teachers - Ms Chia and Mr Ho.

it was amazing how the conversation went. i'm surprised i managed to find things to talk about, and things that really interested me.

also, i found out that teachers are human after all. after all, i'm human, and thus so will teachers be regarded by me.

meetings with Ms Goh and Mr Ho as well about my subjects. they were really good discussions, very fruitful and effective.

i'm beginning to love, not like, math. classes are such a joy that i look forward to them. same as gp, although the novelty's wearing off.

well tmr i'm planning to use my free afternoon/evening to shop. i'd much like to go by myself, but i don't have the experience to know where to go. so i need to find someone at least to go with, otherwise...i'll be panicking all the way inside till night.

saturday - dance day. kinda looking forward to it.

as much as last night's session intimidated me, i thought what minli did, on hindsight, was pretty cool. is this what it's like to be a true dancer?

i had this evening to myself. and i didn't waste it really, because i relaxed (finally and healthily) with Plants VS Zombies. no hint of regret.

btw, locking up the hall at night is quite unnerving, especially with the upper floor's light flickering on and off in the background. on hindsight, i should've left the lights on till the last moment. i kept looking around and having the feeling that something was watching me, or was watching me through the solid wooden doors, as i went down the rows to check if each pair was locked.

nerding out in front of the computer again. this post has been rambling but i feel so natural typing this, as if the stress was all gone. and in a way, it temporarily has, fully.

it's 10.05. will not spend too much time on the computer. was thinking about changing my blogskin, but i guess with much reluctance that now is not the time. i've got a valuable opportunity of sleeping early, so might as well take it.

see you tmr, and i hope i have fun. please come along.

you're never wrong.

you're always better than me.

i am close to hating you.

i'm up at 11.58pm. my desktop wallpaper's changing every 20 minutes so that's okay. =)

i love the aesthetic of the ting tings. they do not shout at you. don't take it so personally. XD

alright. up at 11.58pm, feeling sleepy but love touching this computer so much that i don't wanna tear myself away from it. the keyboard's so clicky XP

oh yeah.

my new love, really. this will last for 1 or 2 weeks. ecstasy.

Two Door Cinema Club - Undercover Martyn

it's that time of the year again.

when my blog is not updated before the dance blog.

it feels weird inside, i don't know how i feel.

holy motherfucking shit i have 35 unread vj mails.

dance club is rocking on at a fantastic pace. i'm reminded of the Ariel poems from Plath.

i might be taking things for granted.

i might be too caught up with myself and us.

here are lyrics to hide behind!

And my running feet could fly
Each breath screaming: "We are all too young to die!"

Between two lungs it was released
The breath that passed from you to me
That flew between us as we slept
That slipped from your mouth into mine
It crept

Because it was trapped
Tapped between two lungs
It was trapped between two lungs

Now all the days of begging
The days of theft
No more gasping for a breath
The air has filled me head-to-toe
And I can see the ground far below
I have this breath and I hold it tight
And I keep it in my chest with all my mgiht
I pray to god this breath will last
As it pushes past my lips
As I...

aizah, thank you for opening my eyes to the things i was avoiding.

i see them more clearly now, but i'll keep them inside for now.

because maybe they'll go away after i stop feeling offbeat, and everything's back to normal.

now's not really normal.

how did easter turn into this?

Happy Easter.

Just wrap me round, wrap me round, wrap me round, wrap me round your finger,
Coz when you say it's 'Kay doesn't matter if I believe you.

holy. freaking. crud.

haha i didn't expect facebook to be so popular for HAPPY BIRTHDAY wishing.

here's a song for everyone who wished me.

Fool's Garden - Lemon Tree

"No."

"But...listen, you've just been saying life is meaningless, so how can...?"

"I changed my mind."

"But...why?"

"Thermodynamic miracles...events with odds against so astronomical they're effectively impossible, like oxygen spontaneously becoming gold. I long to observe such a thing."

"And yet, in each human coupling, a thousand million sperm vie for a single egg. Multiply those odds by countless generations, against the odds of your ancestors being alive; meeting; siring this precise son; that exact daughter..."

"...until your mother loves a man she has every reason to hate, and of that union, of the thousand million children competing for fertilization, it was you, only you, that emerged."

"To distill so specific a form from that chaos of improbability, like turning air to gold...

that is the crowning unlikelihood."

"The thermodynamic miracle."

"But...if me, my birth, if that's a thermodynamic miracle...I mean, you could say that about anybody in the world!"

"Yes."

"Anybody in the world."

"But the world is so full of people, so crowded with these miracles that they become commonplace and we forget...

I forget."

"We gaze continually at the world and it grows dull in our perceptions. Yet seen from another's vantage point, as if new, it may still take the breath away."

"Come...dry your eyes, for you are life, rarer than a quark and unpredictable beyond the dreams of Heisenberg; the clay in which the forces that shape all things leave their fingerprints most clearly."

"Dry your eyes..."

"...and let's go home."

conversation between Doctor Manhattan and Laurie Juspeczyk, from "Watchmen".

I just wanna scream and lose control
Throw my hands up and let it go
Forget about everything and run away, yeah
I just wanna fall and lose myself
Laughing so hard it hurts like hell
Forget about everything and run away, yeah

wow.

the first couple of days of school are over.

and i'm NOT looking forward to the stress.

i can already feel it in my bones, the things that're gonna come that'll make my mind rattle and my brain ache and my heart dead.

wow so melodramatic.

yeah but something like that lah, i just know how to put it in words because that's probably what i'll feel soon. sigh.

yeah but we'll look back and think "wow, what amazing times we had. the fun of this stress."

or maybe not. married adults i know still have nightmares about their A levels. coupled with concert in term 2, i don't know how to juggle my priorities any more.

well the main dampener tonight is that i just found out that i'll have to not sleep in on weekends (saturdays) in order to attend practice. gah 8.30 to 10.30 is really early. blame it on me on not planning my steps well, but the small, very small comfort is that it's only for 6 weeks or so. which is a month and a half. after that...well it's all over. one focus and one focus only, which can really take its toll.

i mean, being older sucks. what fun is growing old, when you don't have the increased amount of happiness to deal with the increased amount of stress? whatever we have, we have to work for it. and maybe sometimes, just sometimes, it can be abit too much.

yeah. so that's my two cents on what occurred to me today in the bus in the morning. it's 10.45pm on the computer clock. waking up early tmr to attend yet another meeting.

six weeks, six weeks. somehow it just seems so far away. and then time will pull the rug from under you once again, like how it did for almost the whole of last year.

i'll move forward, we all have to. it's just the thought of leaving things behind that's terrifying. just sometimes.

don't you sometimes wish you could disappear into that world of your wallpaper?

it's the fucking last night.

go down with a bang!

timo~

today's birthday celebration was fantastic. =)

sorry to those who didn't come.

for those who did, we were brilliant.

thank you all.

=)

(two smileys! wow!)

i've been bumming around doing absolutely nothing, just on the com and the ps3. =)

Are you satisfied?

With an average life?

Do I need to lie to make my way in life?

Are you satisfied?

With an easy ride?

Once you cross the line will you be satisfied?

my new sudden obsession.

Kate Havnevik - Unlike Me

this is a terrifying song. not for the faint hearted who listen to black metal.

okay, so just an update about my day.

i spent the last two days almost completely at home. haha. even the dog went out more often than me. hmm i went out for tuition today, the path to the bus stop seemed so quaint and unfamiliar. maybe because i was super spaced out on the computer and ps non stop, ever since i got FINAL FANTASY XIII omg it's superb, the battle sequences are really smooth. for those players out there, USE THE PARADIGM SHIFTS. learn how to use them well and transition and understand how to use them, and they'll definitely reward you. one of the most entertaining battle systems i've seen close to beating kingdom hearts. hard to tell right now.

anyway, yeah. i went through some extra dance stuff (not even completing what i had to do, and besides, totally forgetting about my studies, which have been nagging me especially that h3 that i promised i'd spend some of the hols to do. i'll get to that soon enough, maybe on thursday with my free day and a friend studying to give me that extra push), and i found that the ticketing had quite a few screwups! lucky i went through them because this is an outlet that we're dealing with the public in, and because we're handling their money, this area we have to be extra careful. plus, i reorganised the whole sheet and now i think it'll be ready for mass ticketing release soon. thank god when the pre-orders are finally settled. it's such a headache, i must admit ashes gave me a really good idea, but it was abit too late in using it. thanks ashes!

hmm. okay i had alot to say. it's just fun typing on the keyboard, i like the springy clicky feeling HAHAHA really. oh yeah, i'm really upset and i'm seriously still reeling from a couple days ago, when i finished watching Season 4 Episode 7 of Skins, which featured Effy. omg i won't spoil it for those of you who haven't watched it yet, but i'm really upset! i mean, the ending was fucking shocking, i still can't believe it happened! i can't believe it! it seemed so unreal but as i think about it, it kinda was expected. i just didn't expect it! and i still can't accept the fact. i'll wait till the next episode's out on the internet next week...before that, i can't say for certain. not till i see it. gosh. RIP Chris Miles.

on a happier note, i picked up 4 albums within two weeks. i bought Taylor Swift's "Fearless" first, followed by Florence and the Machine's "Lungs". oh, a couple weeks before that i bought Owl City's "Ocean Eyes", and Mew's "No More Stories". still haven't finished listening to those two properly yet, like sit down or lie down and close/open my eyes and really hear the music. how often do you do that?

yeah, anyway, this week i picked up "The Family Jewels" by up-and-coming star Marina and the Diamonds, and also Fleet Foxes' self-titled album. they're fantastic. the thing that really bugs me though, is that Singapore is so slow in importing interesting albums like The Concretes and especially, Joanna Newsom's new 3-cd LP, "Have One On Me". sigh. still waiting, i asked the sales person at hmv (HMV, FOR CHRIST'S SAKE!) and she said the import date wasn't even listed in the database. =(

i guess more waiting. but right now, new things to do and new things to see and feel.

listening to the Fleet Foxes' album backwards. how strange, you think. well, going to watch alice in wonderland soon enough. soon.

it's the first time i'm using my new com to post a blogpost!

hmm. i don't have a mouse.

but the com's brilliant. it's fat, it's big, and it's expansive.

not to mention the colours are sweet, and the clarity. i don't think i've seen or so personally touched a computer so vibrant before.

=)

happy world.

love the bargaining. i felt so powerful.

5 adjectives to describe each song:

Wondrous
Grooving
Thunderous
Electronic
Pulsating

Dan Black - U + Me =



Walk a million invisible lines!

Sombre
Upbeat
Tantalizing
Inward
Mesmerizing

The Courteeners - You Overdid It Doll



Heartfelt
Lyrical
Soulful
Uplifting
Sensual

Jon McLaughlin - Beautiful Disaster



jon mclaughlin oozes sex appeal. be it in his voice, or his looks.

breathe.

it's here.







I've been driving for an hour
Just talking to the rain

MUSIC VIDEO ALERT.

Chris Wallace from The White Tie Affair is ridiculously good looking.

The White Tie Affair - Candle (Sick And Tired)



to better music now. something i caught on Channel V. love the title, but that's their only good song i think, i listened to a couple of others and got sidetracked. =P

The Courteeners - You Overdid It Doll

I swear, if I receive one more bloody SMS I will scream. It's just so difficult right now. there are so many things to handle and so few, nobody.

my week hasn't been so bad, after all.

i'm going to suffer tmr because i am supposed to sleep but fuck yeah the computer is so good at keeping me glued.
ah i've got homework but am not looking at them or i'll get depressed so HELLO WORLD!

this next woman has the potential to change things in my life.

i'm just waiting to see how it's going to go with her.
i was gonna post a different video, but youtube disabled embedding or something. so here. enjoy.

V V Brown - Shark In The Water

i have been so busy with work, pure work, the past couple of days.

my weekend has been the worst in a very long time. even longer if you look at it, strictly speaking, with the work-is-making-it-suck point of view not taking in any other factors.

chinese new year, on hindsight, wasn't exactly very good in the long term. like, mountains and endless mountains of work that are so frustrating to handle. they never seem to stop coming. my takings for these few years isn't even that awesome with so many relatives passing away.

illustration: first period of the day, i got handed homework. what a fantastic start to the week.

ah, at least i've got the tutorials for the week mostly covered.
just essays and more essays to go. to the point that i'm getting very very sick of words.

especially seen in history.

i don't seem unhappy, but i really am feeling the pinch getting more and more painful this year.
i'm just not in the right frame of mind to express it to you.

"What a million filaments.
The peanut-crunching crowd
Shoves in to see

Them unwrap me hand and foot
The big strip tease.
Gentlemen, ladies

These are my hands
My knees."

a question that i've taken to think about- if you had to choose, which one would you pick:
1) keeping your 18 years' worth of memories, and not having any more, or
2) keeping your memories that you'll get in the future, but not having your previous 18 years' worth of memories?

leave your answers or comments to the question on the tagboard, i'd really like to know your views.

typing my essay out.

as i type my thoughts get more convoluted and more seemingly intelligent but sometimes i wonder if there's any real thought behind them as compared to writing.

i have never seen a person really having a "role model", only knowing people who they DON'T, secretly DON'T, wanna become or be in their situation. it's a terrible thing, that. it's a kind of self-threatening and instilling of fear. which is terrible because i think people should not live with that kind of fear in their lives so constantly.

Demotivational posters! to make this 3-day week drag on.

really tired after cny stuff.

just wanted to share this with you guys. =)

Marina And The Diamonds - Mowgli's Road

I AM SO FUCKING FUCKING SICK OF DOING WORK. staring at the same old layouts and the same old junk that's not going to be useful to me much in life later. who the hell am i kidding. it's true. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

(it's the skills, it's the skills, it's the skills.)

it's THAT time of year again. the time where everyone's falling sick and it's messing with peoples' brains and everyone's sick of working.
i wonder, if we had london's weather, would there be more suicides?

Econs, History.

i am so sick of looking at nuances of language and things done and not real. i want to see things NOW.

i shall listen to Adam Lambert. pure adulterous pop.

hello!

i'm in a sleepy and interested mood.

need to force myself to sleep so that i can stay awake and alive tmr. the day's ending at 9.30, unwinding will finish at 10 or so.
with no work done, sigh.

can't even go home to sleep. gahhh.

times like these when i appreciate the fact that people can live so close to school. because i want to!

Florence + The Machine - Dog Days Are Over (Live @ Mercury Prize Awards 2009)




ah well at least i did some thinking and short but sweet studying. should've slept at home today though. sigh. things got in the way, symmetry included. maybe i shall rush home and have a good doze before setting off tonight. i just wish we didn't have stuff tmr afternoon, after that PE. maybe i'll just skip it (my throat! hooray!)

this is a very wordy post. so i am posting a video to break it up.

my H3's doing fine, thank you. the worry's piling on but it's okay right now.

how do i find interesting music, indeed.

it's over! =( i don't know if there was any truth in what i said.

anyway, i'm blogging because i feel the stress coming back SIGH.

yesterday night was kiron's birthday party, it was cool. HAPPY SUPER EARLY BIRTHDAY KIRON. very warm and happy and comfortable party.

the night before was orientation night. stayed back after that like tradition dictated and had swensen's ice cream. was a really bittersweet moment. i think i'm worrying too much about kinda silly things.

gahhhh. the attack of the unsinkable rubber ducks. even though your problems are not as cute!

My mind's not right.

i shall blog when i am in a better frame of thought.

i'm in a happy mood.

this is because i've got the motivation to check facebook for new friend updates which i am actually looking forward to. =) hooray!

it's a pseudo-rest and work period tonight for me. tomorrow's going to be a late-out night so i need my energy.
thursday too, and then friday some. haha.
i don't want lessons to start just yet. please let wednesday and thursday STOP SCHOOL PLEASE.

a couple of songs that i've been listening to recently.

Friendly Fires - Kiss Of Life



Ellie Goulding - Starry Eyed

crazy, crazy woman and a crazy, crazy world.

it's not usually that mid/downtempo songs catch me and hook on. but this one has. just to share,
here's
Marina and the Diamonds
with I Am Not A Robot



You're vulnerable, you're vulnerable
You are not a robot
You're loveable, so loveable
But you're just troubled

Guess what? I'm not a robot, a robot
Guess what? I'm not a robot, a robot

on another note, this post goes out to you, readers of my humble blog. yes, this 569th post. you who's ever read my entries or listened to my music or tagged on my tagboard. thank you for listening and just being here. =)

"What else is love but understanding and rejoicing in the fact that another person lives, acts and experiences otherwise than we do?" - Friedrich Nietzche

"Today, I was watching Jaws. If you watch Jaws backwards, it's a movie about a shark that keeps throwing up people until they have to open a beach. MLIA."

LOL.

it isn't even friday night. it's saturday morning. where the hell did friday night get to?

ah well at least i still remember it quite clearly.

i had a shower. just.

watched skins season 3. two episodes, great.

yeah well.

i haven't posted in very long?

well it seems like it.

hmm there's nothing much i can say. orientation is going to be fun, i'm going to make sure of it. this week's ogl training is something interesting, although the turnout rate wasn't fantastic. we have fantastic og heads and it's something i'm really appreciative of =)

okay. set a good example, keep the nastiness to a minimum. especially your inane sharp tongue.

cheer, like WOOO HOOO and etc. oh and remember your og cheers, it's so paiseh when you actually forget them.

and live up and give your juniors the best (or close enough) that you can. think your first ogls. fantastic people. admittedly, one of them was an og head lol. Joel.

buhbye.

hey world, i've decided to share my joy with you!

i've finished one essay. just one. but it's like 4 pages long in arial size 12. quite long, i'll say. i'm not one for many redundant words. let me give you a quote about poetry adapted from Sylvia Plath.

"It is a moment of contact, of impact, 'a closed fist' to use her own image, compared to the 'open hand' of the novel. And while that open hand can bring in all kinds of details, the closed fist 'excludes and stuns'."

the 2009 Mercury Prize winner. lots of bands nominated that i know of this year. but none of them won. including Florence and the Machine, La Roux, Glasvegas, Bat for Lashes (ugh), and Lisa Hannigan.

and here is...SPEECH DEBELLE with Spinnin'. love her lisp.




share something else with you guys.
you might find this meaningful, you might not.

it's for us to get off our lazy butts and do something for the world.

The dog days are over
The dog days are gone
Can you hear the horses
'Cuz here they come

Run fast for your mother and fast for your father
Run for your children for your sisters and brothers
Leave all your love and your loving behind you
Can't carry it with you if you want to survive

my obsession with Florence and the Machine has grown to greater heights.

this is a perfect time for posting. when i have an hour and a half left with my body clock to finish up 3 essays. it's impossible even in exam conditions. but ah well, i've semi-given up.

fuck this. too many essays, too little data to work with.

before i go,

Florence + The Machine - Drumming Song

"Heathcliff, it's me, Cathy come home
I'm so cold, let me in-a-your window"

- Kate Bush, "Wuthering Heights"

powerful stuff.

i'm into this band at the moment.

powerful stuff.

Florence + The Machine - Rabbit Heart (Raise It Up)




Incidentally, Glasgow is one of the Cities of Music. incredible. the only bands i know from there are Glasvegas and Camera Obscura.

leonie, are you referring to this particular clip?
fucking funny, dude.

Jizz In My Pants

doesn't the internet stifle you?

Lady Gaga's Christmas Songs

DUDES.
XD

HotforWords - Bad Grammar (parody of The Way I Are)

today i woke up thirsty.

it felt good after that.

when i post it here, the magic will be all gone.

sorry, rachna. here, for the world to see, is the genius of Regina Spektor in her most spellbinding and adorable song for me to date, Us.

Regina Spektor - Us



and i shall post my favourite lyrics from the song.

They made a statue of us
They made a statue of us
The tourists come and stare at us
The sculptor's marble sends regards
They made a statue of us
They made a statue of us
Our noses have begun to rust
We're living in a den of thieves
Rummaging for answers in the pages
Were living in a den of thieves

and, just for fun, because it's so fun to sing, i'll put the phrase here.

And it's contagious

not to be angsty or anything, but MY PARENTS SUCK.
one of their problems is encouragement. they don't know how to treat their kids like a maturing young person. and because of the passivity that they have, it totally sucks. especially when they put you down, unknowingly. it still smarts.

and i can't seem to get my mind to homework.

Sylvia Plath is angsty. i'm tired of her, for now.

uh, happy 2010!
um, this is awkward.