i wish i had the effort to write a long dreary poem on the dreariness of studying. but no, im not that poetically inclined so too bad. XP

ive got a sudden stream of artistic ideas in my head. i should write them out before i forget them.

i call this one...um...havent got a title yet.



a hedge maze about 2.5 m high. in a huge white room.
a holographic projection of a guy dressed in a white long-sleeved shirt and jeans going around barefoot in the centre of the maze. he prowls about with hunched shoulders, hands in his pockets. he is fair-skinned.
abit like L.
the maze is a hedge maze. thing is, some gaps in the hedge are holographs, so walking into them will cause you to walk into the hedges. some apparent hedge walls are gaps as well, so you can walk through them.
holographic projections of the person in the centre of the maze attempt to guide viewers through the maze. however, some of them are misleading.

the sleepover was fun.
=)
helped out in church today. saw all the little primary 3 kids. handled a whole class on my own! XP
one person's inbox is another person's sent messages.
i really really like the bjork album. haha this has been a really cool weekend. and i just cant get the sleepover out of my head.
ickythumpandriot!nextweek.

we didnt get any of it. im sorry guys, i feel bad.
why did you try to screw us??
=(

went to pizza hut and got quite drenched in the rain. saw kevin, lucas, darren, yasmin, gracilia, jieqi, simin, leonie (?) and some others who i cant remember =X then on the way back, saw ms sandhya. classic. XP


oh this is going to be good.
hopefully. real hopefully.
=)

CocoRosie - Rainbowarriors
- Noah's Ark

Self-proclaimed, self-righteous sisters.

awesome. today is the first day that im gonna lighten up. who cares what i think. just try and do it right??


it was boring. well, nothing interesting happened. everyone was still caught up in the harry potter book. zzz... oh but there was this set of speakers from jonathan which were awesome. and andrea was busy blasting the white stripes on it. hehe im glad there's another white stripes fan. you took a white orchid and turned it blue.

well had a cool chat with yiwen and asyraf in the canteen. talk about stuff! stuff that i actually appreciated and enjoyed. thanks guys. i feel like im getting my old self back. =)

oh and a big THANKYOU to lucas! you are the one who started this.

---

Willy Wonka: Do you like my meadow? Try some of my grass! Please have a blade, please do, it's so delectable and so darn good looking!

Charlie Bucket: You can eat the grass?

Willy Wonka: Of course you can! Everything in this room is eatable, even *I'm* eatable! But that is called "cannibalism," my dear children, and is in fact frowned upon in most societies.

haha willy wonka has a weird sense of humour. if you could call that humour.

my group is awesome. thanks lots to andrea and jing rong. theyre amazing.
hope youre okay andrea...if there's anything really bothering you you can call me.

today was terrible. i had this strong feeling of emptiness and i just wanted to hold somebody.
you didnt do anything as usual. =) fuck

i like you willie, youre so deep. just be yourself. youre a breath of fresh air.

i feel so much better after reading grace's post. XDDDDD
btw, i look TERRIBLE in the pics babe. well, most of them. dont i?!

i go through all this
before you wake up
so i can be happier
to be safe up here with you

hey grace. hey ash. thank you. ive never met people of your kind of brilliance before. until yesterday. =)


MOTHERLAND. doesnt it just sound so offensive?
oh and you know what? you suck. so totally big time.
but you swept me off my feet and I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn-

This is not about love
'Cause I am not in love
In fact I can't stop falling out

--Fiona Apple Not About Love

i have 5 minutes to post this before the firefox update starts.
okay maybe not.

today was cool. im not feeling as tired after running as before. feel so happy.
haha sara you rock! that note was really nice. i keep thinking about it for some reason. so sweet. damn, girls always do things that make me feel so bad. XP

i officially declare PHYSICS, MATHS, CHEMISTRY and CHINESE (in no particular order) as DEPRESSING. its very weird cuz i will always not understand whatever that is going on in the lesson, and its a terrible feeling. then only after that when i look through the notes by myself, i get more stable.

im a terribly unstable person.

cheer up people. even though you didnt do as well as you expected, take denial in the fact that you are the only IP team in the matches. you came a really long way, and next year you will probably have much more experience.

i only have this to cheer you guys up. it always gives me a sense of melancholy and the feeling that im not alone. hope you appreciate it.


I love your eyes, my dear
their splendid, sparkling fire
when suddenly you raise them so
to cast a swift embracing glance


like lightning flashing in the sky
but there's a charm that is greater still:
when my love's eyes are lowered
when all is fired by passions kiss

The Dull Flame of Desire.

hie guys.

today was electrifying. so static that i drank my own blood, which is what i actually usually do when i get bored. see. tells you exactly how BORING the day was.

there's really nothing to read on my blog. i dont know what to post about. my UNinteresting life. if i post something too deep no-one will read it. if i hide symbolism in my post (like ive done many times before) i'll just be letting myself down cuz no one will see it. even in the unlikely chance that they see it, nobody bothers to ask about it.



oh good ive actually written a respectable length post. with my stream of consciousness writing style. how awesome.

matt smiled and looked at the purple sky. sat on the green park bench and stared. he just couldnt get it out of his mind. at the muddy grass. the sky was turning a melancholic tone of swirling dark blues and sunny yelloes and rayne red. =)

song lyrics? boring.
emotional pics? boring.
lame poems? boring.

haha i feel so useless. so un-brave.

anyway, im tagging at 1.25 am in the morning. really got nothing to do. slept in the afternoon. now im still relatively wide awake.
milk tea.


i feel like im in a tide. being swept so furiously up and down the coastline, by magnetic people who are opposites. but im not really getting anywhere, yet i feel like its taking so much effort just to stay in that swirling stagnant place. its a disturbing awful feeling, when i look at it from the lighthouse. but im still so happily ignorant.

i think the only way that im going to get out is by having someone almost like me to drift into me and slowly but firmly pull me out of the riptide.

now that somebody's gonna change the topic. again. wrenching my guts out without even realising. but i still cant fit in his scratched up facade.

its 1.40.

oh my god the weekend blues are setting in once again. sitting in front of the computer at 5.13pm surrounded by bright white light.
im such a loser. there's completely no one else online except me. i fooled myself into thinking that coming back would be fun. with work and all.

ok.
today was quite cool. v13 day. in the morning at a depressing session of chinese where i only got 3/12. fucked up. i wrote a couple of haikus about it to see if it helped.



yiwen said: "everyone's an artist now." =)

then had pe. i take running very seriously now. so i ran and tried my best. you know, ive deproved alot since coming to vj. in vs i was running so much faster. i really dont know why i cant keep up my standard here.

then we had touch rugby. same as always, nothing really. oh oh but i scored a touchdown. =)
we were beaten 3-1. haha.

im not the milk and cereals in your spoon. who am i angry at? there's no one here but myself.

after that had literature. love it. im so glad ms yadav played ironic. i havent heard it in such a long time. i was mouthing along, i could actually remember the lyrics. but so embarrassing.



then we had a movie screening in class! watched JOHN TUCKER MUST DIE. very fun movie!

yiwen was so moved he hugged me. XP
the ea talk thing was excruciating to sit through. i would have just watched another movie with some people instead. leave leonie there to talk. and gracilia.

guys, LOVE LANGARTS. its ENLIGHTENING. i was going all PostModernist on the talker.

im veryvery scared that i will have no time to study.

im weak at chem physics maths and chinese.

before i say anything else,

WELL DONE 07V13 SOCCER TEAM!!!

umumum thats you asyraf, gabriel, yinan, darren, kevin, willie and uh...umar.
=)

hehe i get a big kick from reading definitions in wikipedia.
The word emo can be used as either a noun or adjective.^[6]
Noun (singular): That person is an emo.
Noun (plural): Those people are emo(e)s.
Adjective (1): All my friends are emo.
Adjective (2): I feel pretty emo today.

anyway, an impulsive fascination with haikus has made me do this. the last one is my favourite. love the pic lots. lots.
=) enjoy.


my psychedelic
mind is walking towards the sun
fishes in the air.


the numbers rotting
stare at me with chalk blank eyes
i shun them way off.


i mouth the red words
"hold me" but they were wasted
on you they vanish.

disturbed person that i am, im still disturbed.
haha.

white hair is sooo in.
I LOVE AMY WINEHOUSE LYRICS!

They tried to make me go to rehab
I said no, no, no.
Yes I been black, but when I come back
You wont know, know, know.


hahaha. so down to earth.
you know, im cracking under the pressure of work. i know i have to finish it but its just too much. pleasepleaseplease will somebody help me.
give me a long hug and tell me everything's okay.

I LOVE THIS PIC.

im watching live earth now.

so many choices!

im overwhelmed. i would rather have them focus on one artist at a time.

so im flitting between japan australia and london, theyve got some of the best artists.

missy higgins now. she isnt bad. i love discovering new good artists.

people, support the earth. dont just wear green and be done with it (yeah thats you norman this is my blog and i can say what i wanna).
stop using new plastic bags. use the past clean ones. please. it can help.

im staring at a blank page and starting to fill it with words.

and pictures but im tired.
i slept in class and on the sofa.

theres church tmr and i dont feel like going. people there are out of my league.
sara that chat we had was very amazing. i feel changed somewhere.



HI WILLIE IM MENTIONING YOU IN MY POST.
dont go footsie!

dress up your hurt in coloured cardboard.

youre like the older brother i never had.
:D

zzz
why does life seem to drag out sometimes?


Well now aren't we scaring ourselves?
Unnecessarily
Aren't we trying too hard?
'Cuz it's in our hands


It's in our hands
It always was
It's in our hands
In our hands

just came back feeling mostly happy!

it was really fun at yiwen's house.
met him at tampines mall
shopped for my dad's t-shirt that read "my wife always tells me i dont listen...or something like that" HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAPA!!
found a really cool dog tag - GREATEST D4D - thank you yiwen!
then went to century square and saw nokia phones and deathnote thingies. out of my budget le SORRY i promise i will come back for you!
haha it was then i found out youre an OTAKU
went to sembawang ZOMG it totally owns. i bought 'Greatest Hits' by Bjork. who else?


walked some distance to the shopping complex near his house. met his bro there - alike but so not alike hurhurhur
yyiwen's house. you tricked me twice!
watched deathnote and deathnote II: the last name. im so glad i finally managed to have closure. Light you are wicked.
studied for abit. you cant just play the whole night right?!
was quite weary at that time. so we watched some light-hearted sexy voice and robo! i couldnt picture L as robo without laughing. and sexy voice's mom is soooo weird! XP
i do hope you watch 1 litre of tears too. its very touching.


slept. at 5am. to 7.30am. but i didnt feel really tired, cuz the tan brothers are so funny.
left the house abit late cuz of me. sorry my fault!
rode the 12 bus and my pants almost fell off in the middle of the road cuz we ran for the bus. XD im not kidding. i really need a belt. nbc one preferably XP
to school! slept in the classroom most of the time. waiting for yiwen to come back. missed him. =(
went to parkway and ate lunch. then went back and talked with new people! house comm.

byebye...C U TMR!

All is Full of Love - Bjork