hey, waitaminute, it's not even the end of the month yet, why're you being such a bitch?

my mom has an inability to control her ridiculous, illogical crankiness.

just pray that she suffers a near-death experience that'll change her.

one way i can think of is that the blood doesn't stop coming out for three weeks or something.

poetic justice.

hello everyone.

everything but the girl.

everything you want.

omg i just got hit by this fantastic terrible wave of regret and panic, because i wasted my afternoon trying to do work and just couldn't. i don't know what to do anymore!

k and d have blogs but they don't want me spreading. HELLO K AND D!

You're my cocoon.

You're my cocoon.

i finally understand why songs repeat lines.

insecure, that's what you are.

i don't know what to think about you.

had a very interesting, and simultaneously terrifying, one-on-one session with two teachers - Ms Chia and Mr Ho.

it was amazing how the conversation went. i'm surprised i managed to find things to talk about, and things that really interested me.

also, i found out that teachers are human after all. after all, i'm human, and thus so will teachers be regarded by me.

meetings with Ms Goh and Mr Ho as well about my subjects. they were really good discussions, very fruitful and effective.

i'm beginning to love, not like, math. classes are such a joy that i look forward to them. same as gp, although the novelty's wearing off.

well tmr i'm planning to use my free afternoon/evening to shop. i'd much like to go by myself, but i don't have the experience to know where to go. so i need to find someone at least to go with, otherwise...i'll be panicking all the way inside till night.

saturday - dance day. kinda looking forward to it.

as much as last night's session intimidated me, i thought what minli did, on hindsight, was pretty cool. is this what it's like to be a true dancer?

i had this evening to myself. and i didn't waste it really, because i relaxed (finally and healthily) with Plants VS Zombies. no hint of regret.

btw, locking up the hall at night is quite unnerving, especially with the upper floor's light flickering on and off in the background. on hindsight, i should've left the lights on till the last moment. i kept looking around and having the feeling that something was watching me, or was watching me through the solid wooden doors, as i went down the rows to check if each pair was locked.

nerding out in front of the computer again. this post has been rambling but i feel so natural typing this, as if the stress was all gone. and in a way, it temporarily has, fully.

it's 10.05. will not spend too much time on the computer. was thinking about changing my blogskin, but i guess with much reluctance that now is not the time. i've got a valuable opportunity of sleeping early, so might as well take it.

see you tmr, and i hope i have fun. please come along.

you're never wrong.

you're always better than me.

i am close to hating you.

i'm up at 11.58pm. my desktop wallpaper's changing every 20 minutes so that's okay. =)

i love the aesthetic of the ting tings. they do not shout at you. don't take it so personally. XD

alright. up at 11.58pm, feeling sleepy but love touching this computer so much that i don't wanna tear myself away from it. the keyboard's so clicky XP

oh yeah.

my new love, really. this will last for 1 or 2 weeks. ecstasy.

Two Door Cinema Club - Undercover Martyn

it's that time of the year again.

when my blog is not updated before the dance blog.

it feels weird inside, i don't know how i feel.

holy motherfucking shit i have 35 unread vj mails.

dance club is rocking on at a fantastic pace. i'm reminded of the Ariel poems from Plath.

i might be taking things for granted.

i might be too caught up with myself and us.

here are lyrics to hide behind!

And my running feet could fly
Each breath screaming: "We are all too young to die!"

Between two lungs it was released
The breath that passed from you to me
That flew between us as we slept
That slipped from your mouth into mine
It crept

Because it was trapped
Tapped between two lungs
It was trapped between two lungs

Now all the days of begging
The days of theft
No more gasping for a breath
The air has filled me head-to-toe
And I can see the ground far below
I have this breath and I hold it tight
And I keep it in my chest with all my mgiht
I pray to god this breath will last
As it pushes past my lips
As I...

aizah, thank you for opening my eyes to the things i was avoiding.

i see them more clearly now, but i'll keep them inside for now.

because maybe they'll go away after i stop feeling offbeat, and everything's back to normal.

now's not really normal.

how did easter turn into this?

Happy Easter.

Just wrap me round, wrap me round, wrap me round, wrap me round your finger,
Coz when you say it's 'Kay doesn't matter if I believe you.

holy. freaking. crud.

haha i didn't expect facebook to be so popular for HAPPY BIRTHDAY wishing.

here's a song for everyone who wished me.

Fool's Garden - Lemon Tree