if it's been forgotten has it been forgiven?

crash and burn girl.

i'm stonedd O level posting results were out today, there were mostly disappointments. it's disappointment that hits the hardest anyway. and it would have taken alot to penetrate today cuz my brain and my eyes were stoned. sigh.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADEEB AND AMANDA. that was a really cool double birthday. too bad the brides in bride wars didn't have a double wedding as well hahaha. i guess ccas will be stopped or definitely affected next week. all the best cuz we have so much to deal with anyway right. i'm probably gonna go for almost everything in the orientation, it was during orientation that i made a close friend. and the one that i crashed, that one too. =) think about it. after everything when you think about it, it'll probably be one of the best times that you had in your life. the week of getting to know people, and putting yourselves though games and stuff, you'll know them really well.

i think it's time for you guys to see a poem that i've written.

okay okay i'll go and sleep.

right after this property gets sold.

wahhahahahahhahaha i have 2,589,217,000 bucks on real estate tycoon. take that, haters.

what am i supposed to say when i'm all choked up and you're okay?

my windows OS is down.
it's a blessing in disguise.
because we have no money to buy the leopard to update, i'm learning with the mac.

and boy, is it beautiful. it's so beautiful that i stop to wonder how i've missed out for so long.
it has everything i need.
and it does everything so beautifully.

haha. well that was a filler paragraph. just like today. it was so boring. i've got nothing to say, even though i desperately need to find things to say, just to tell people about how i'm feeling or what i wanna say or do.

okay.

well, happy chinese new year. from now on that's probably the only chinese related thing that i'm going to endure for hours at a time. =) and there's money involved. i'm the one winning.
i want a class outing.
wouldn't it be absolutely poetic and amazing if there was this person, who was always the core of our class, organising and planning things for us to enjoy, and if his or her birthday were to fall on the last day of school and us as a class, and we go out with him or her and have a hell lot of fun, and in the end it'll probably be the best and most meaningful birthday ever.

hmm i'll have to rephrase that, or you do that for me, as long as you know what i mean and think about the beauty of it.

hah i shouldn't feel BAD about it it's not even my THING.

don't you think people are such sly foxes when they say "you're so lucky to be with ________". it means either that that person's really awesome and they kinda like them or that you're actually not good enough to be with that person. haha. or maybe both. LOL. i'm overthinking things, like awesome friends adeeb and gabriel keep telling me. "STOP READING INTO THINGS LAH."

anyway there's nothing, nothing significant at all going on next friday. i don't recall any significant things happening on that day, apart from the birthdays of James LeBron, Christian Bale, Tim Jones, Gavin Rossdale, Diego Maradona, Phil Collins, Dick Cheney, Gene Hackman and Franklin Roosevelt.

HALO!!!

oh man religion religion religion. so many people are so dedicated. issit anarchist to oppose religion, which has really kept society in place (by driving in greater good values) into people? or is there really a higher authority watching over us? or am i fulfilling some pre-destined destiny simply by thinking this down? hmmm.

okay anyway i'm just really bored with today but kinda thinking about tmr. cuz of all that memorising. i'm calling tonight an early night (i.e. about 9 plus). stupid stronger mp3 file had some jerk dedicating the song to random people. to hell with that. i only recognised daft punk. i mean, will they even take notice of this. lol. at least i have jason (mrazcoughcough) whenever i want. just a simple press of a button.

LOL!!!

haha i'm just wondering whether i could've made better use of my time. and whether i should use contacts for school since i'll be using my specs the whole day but i don't wanna dirty them. haha speaking of that after school we keep crashing the juniors' class. if my seniors, let alone my effing GRAND-seniors did that, i'd get fucking cheesed off. maybe the juniors (or should i say, GRAND-juniors) already are. haha. but oh well. self-gratification. yess. i am a sinner oh and one thing about this year's IP angel-mortal exchange: they have a terrible job to go reassign seniors and juniors. haha. pray for those poor v15 people okay.

haven't picked up the guitar and played for quite a while. i wonder if i'll have the time in the future. ahhh screw this week man. quite waste of time. i mean, couldn't they have cut it shorter? some parts are really unnecessary. okay, alot of parts. that reminds me, we still haven't had our JTS. they should do it VERY SOON. like before chinese new year. right now's a good time cuz 1. their juniors are rather bonded alr after IPO 2. time is undeniably running out for us. the numero uno. the big cheese. godlike. the greatest class ever to walk the halls of VJC (okay that might be abit exaggerated), 07v13. we're not even properly recognised as a cohort or class anymore by the school. i realised this when they conveniently forgot us in the assembly notice in the concourse TV.

everything's changing
when i turn around
all out of my control
i'm a mobile

Sun down now we have built
Our place
An aviary forever

it just occurred to me when i was having a shower.

we can't run from it anymore. not to sound emo or anything, but it's really the last few days of the official existence of 07v13. we're just running from the truth sometimes and we do have to deal with it. and know that it has affected us and not just put aside the pain, because pain makes you remember.

should we talk about it? should we not? i don't know. you decide, i guess. we make memories out of memories.

so tired! yesterday was the concert. pix up in awhile, gotta get timlim to send them to me first =) i'm proud to say i took really great pics (at least when seen on the camera)!

sigh so sitting at home waiting for videos to come up. think i'm gonna sleep soon. haha. gossip girl's good, as usual. although the backstabbing this time round was really harsh.

so yeah. live your life, be happy. thank you katie white and jules de martino.

fuck lah poker keep losing not fun lah.

fuck those rich bastards.
fuck those assholes.

Tell me, tell me
What makes you think that you are invincible?
I can see it in your eyes that you're so sure
Please don't tell me that I'm the only one that's vulnerable
Impossible

hello! back from the chalet!

BEST. VIDEO. EVER.
Jumping Jacks fucking funny!

chuck is going insane?

wow.
hot.

for those who haven't watched it yet, here's a really really good link with excellent sound and video (i.e. no fucking huge pixels!)

haha it's a good episode, just like any other. but here's the thing. serena dumped aaron. =)))
and we finally see eric.

see you at the chalet!

pure CLASS. in fact, one of the classics of dance/trip-hop/house/acid jazz music. hmm. see how her hair swishes.

Moloko - The Time Is Now


and finally, this is just for me.



it's night and i'm tired.
fingers are aching to type to my speed. lol. must be this morning. andy killed us all. yet again. and today's one was slack. slept in the afternoon, must've been the turns that killed me. i still (i'm not kidding) have a headache from this morning's practice. sigh. i think it's the balance in my ears. that's why it's such a sacrifice for me to wear headphones. screws up my sense of balance and any small thing can give me a headache, but it's so totally worth the far superior sound quality compared to *coughearphonescough*

paris pics. abit random, i know. but since i have the opportunity.

mother and brother. we were at the original marche restaurant. we sat outside, really cold but the food warmed us up. and pity but i don't have the other pic where we took in the view around us. snow mountains. really close. =)

it's not that paris looks really depressing in this pic, but it was raining/snowing. so the snow came down in wet bits. haha. the arc de triomphe is behind us. it's where napoleon put up the 150+ victories that he had around europe. showoff.

my parents at the louvre. no cameras actually. oops. =P the picture looks good, even with those two in the pic. AHHH MY MOM'S LISTENING TO DAVID COOK WAIT LET ME GET MY HEADPHONES.

camwhore.

haha well. he insisted that he wanted to wear the bear hat he got in korea. so there. he seriously wore it for the whole trip. i love my bro.


eh minus 11 okay. and it was minus 16 when my dad took off everything on his top. sigh.

friday with timlimqing.
disney keychain - $30 wtf.
movie, popcorn - $16.50
Pastamania dinner - $10
doublealbum - $29

THE TING TINGS CONCERT TIX - $53

i am a big spender.

jinghan, stay positive for the army! =)

beautiful lyrics.

Just a cigarette gone
No you couldn't' be that far
So I'm driving in my car
Where I hope you are
Maybe I can talk you down
Maybe I can talk you down

We're standing on a tiny ledge
Before this goes over the edge
Gonna use my heart and not my head
And try to open up your eyes
This is relationship suicide

Before the worst, before we met
Before our hearts decide
It's time to love again
Before too late, before too long
Let's try to take it back
Before it all went wrong

But what if I'm a mermaid
In these jeans of his
With her name still on it
Hey but I don't care
Cause sometimes
I said sometimes
I hear my voice
And it's been here
Silent all these years

hey my loves.

you will NOT believe that this sound quality is from youtube.

KELLY CLARKSON - Since U Been Gone