i'm in love with human beings.

they can just juggle so many things. whether the things are aimless, pointless, or significant, it's not for me to judge right now, but i'm amazed at the things that the people around me can handle and go through, EVERY DAY.

i'm not talking about consolation shit. i'm talking about real, difficult things that they face. and the emotion well-kept when doing these things.
and the amount of things that they make themselves do, at the same time, while doing other things, it's incredible and you feel so intimidated but powerful, like you could be doing them too. and the truth is, you could.

i'm in love with human beings.

This. Is Control. Control feeds off you like a drug. Control covers your bases with shit and waits for it to harden. Control destroys, destroys.

i had a freakout moment today.

i can't think about it, because if i do, i'll start freaking out again. =(

uh-oh.

it just centres on the amount of revision i just realised i had in front of me, it just occurred to me that there's LAST YEAR'S work to think about and to revise and to remember FOR THE FRIGGING A LEVELS.

okay. okay.

one step at a time, yes?

thank you kiron!

=)

how apt, i just opened this album.

people who know how to use a semi-colon appropriately are so sexy.

Emmy Rossum - Slow Me Down

i got a clear version! i love it!!! =)



been glued to the computer screen watching vjc choir videos and can't get myself unglued. then the only other thing my mind keeps flickering to is the ps3 where i got defeated by the stupid retarded final boss SIGH. i think i need to change my paradigms. like the paradigm in the game, not my mindset. that one's doing okay.

eek h3 consultation tmr it's so nerve wracking!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
IT'S HERE!

Florence + The Machine - Cosmic Love



i got the atmosphere and the last collapsing part right. =)

girls are such strange and difficult creatures to understand.

why do you keep such secrets?
why do you avoid confrontations?
how do you keep living like this?

uniqlo is just getting better and better.
check out the designs on their website...good prices, and great block designs!

it's almost the end of the day where my parents are going to be at home for the last time in nearly a week.

and i still feel strange.

Florence and the Machine - Dog Days Are Over

new video!
"In “Dog Days Are Over”, directed by Georgie Greville and Geremy Jasper of LEGS, and edited by Paul Snyder at Lost Planet, Florence is the shamanic leader of a surreal orchestra where spiritual elation explodes into smokey psychedelic anarchy. Each musical element of the song is personified by a group of colorful characters that combine 60’s girl groups, Hinduism, gospel choirs, drum circles, paganism and pyrotechnics. Florence is a painted primal force of nature that whips a religious experience into a riot." - LEGS media
i absolutely love it, grows on you.

Florence and the Machine "DOG DAYS ARE OVER" Music Video from LEGS MEDIA on Vimeo.

i breathe the refreshing cold air as it slides down my throat.

after staring at the computer since 12pm, it's a soothing change.

the computer doesn't allow you much space for creativity. its lines and neat structure is incompatible with the trembling of your hand as it brushes down the page.

and now, out of habit, i press control+s every time my mind gets stuck. it's annoying and breaks the flow of thought. who needs it, in this new world of ideas?

i've been reading alot of confessional poetry today, and getting my thoughts down. i feel so professional, at the desk typing and looking at professional-looking documents and just having the whole day stretch ahead of me.

it helps that i've turned off the vibration in my mobile phone and put it aside. nothing to distract me, and it's almost like being on an island beach with my clear laptop and curing myself, rehabilitating myself, out of this mundane cycle. without actually going anywhere or doing anything spectacular.

yeah. so "The blood jet is poetry,/ there is no stopping it."

Sylvia Plath's world is one that is black and white, and the intrusion of red is combated to its maximum. although whether this intrusion is beneficial or harmful, that's kinda what i'm looking at in my h3 essay.

the seniors' essays are so intimidating. it's like being at the foot of mount everest while having the rare opportunity to see the flags at the top, and the people on their way down from there.

too many words. time for some pictures.

i knew it.

once you get on a computer with internet access, you don't feel like starting to do any work. the colours and lights are just so amazing, they blind and mesmerise you to no end.

well i've been really focused tonight, and want to get this essay done, so that the guilt with my h3 can stop and i can start on it.

lol i just can't resist the computer keypad. =P microsoft word!

oh. now i'm getting to understand "friends with benefits" more.

Listen to my story. This may be our last chance.

Wild Geese

You do not have to be good.
You do not have to walk on your knees
for a hundred miles through the desert, repenting.
You only have to let the soft animal of your body
love what it loves.
Tell me about despair, yours, and I will tell you mine.
Meanwhile the world goes on.
Meanwhile the sun and the clear pebbles of the rain
are moving across the landscapes,
over the prairies and the deep trees,
the mountains and the rivers.
Meanwhile the wild geese, high in the clean blue air,
are heading home again.
Whoever you are, no matter how lonely,
the world offers itself to your imagination,
calls to you like the wild geese, harsh and exciting--
over and over announcing your place
in the family of things.

Mary Oliver

I can show you the world
Shining, shimmering, splendid
Tell me, princess, now when did
You last let your heart decide?

I can open your eyes
Take you wonder by wonder
Over, sideways and under
On a magic carpet ride

A whole new world
A new fantastic point of view
No one to tell us no
Or where to go
Or say we're only dreaming

A whole new world
A dazzling place I never knew
But when I'm way up here
It's crystal clear
That now I'm in a whole new world with you
Now I'm in a whole new world with you

Unbelievable sights
Indescribable feeling
Soaring, tumbling, freewheeling
Through an endless diamond sky

A whole new world
Don't you dare close your eyes
A hundred thousand things to see
Hold your breath - it gets better
I'm like a shooting star
I've come so far
I can't go back to where I used to be

A whole new world
Every turn a surprise
With new horizons to pursue
Every moment red-letter
I'll chase them anywhere
There's time to spare
Let me share this whole new world with you

A whole new world
That's where we'll be
A thrilling chase
A wondrous place
For you and me

it's intermission time!

mad rush again? i think so.

i'm doing it!

i hope you see that.

i'm so tired at 11.33am.

am i taking care of my life?

respect me!

post number 600.

lol. this blog has come a long way.

Dramanite 2010 was awesome. don't think i'll forget this experience for a long, long time.

next: Estrellas.