it's 4am. this is usually the time when i can really think. and sometimes, during these times, my insecurities and worries for the future surface. it's a good thing - sometimes i'm too caught up in deliriousness to see the facts that're staring me right in the face.
so enough with that self-conscious reflection. time to get down to the meat.
should i post an SMU confession about meeting more gay guys, like what keith and edison have suggested? should i close my mind off to psychology as it's "too jargonistic"? does making lists of to-do things help in doing them? have i burnt out, or am i going to burn out soon, or am i going to be burnt out if i continue studying and making notes this way? or should i slack off with adel's notes? should i drop one of my tuition slots? should i reconsider going to the UK for exchange in year 3/4? should i have gone to the AGM today? ah, so many things that i still don't know. i know that i should enjoy this whole process of not knowing, but sometimes the uncertainties just pile up into one huge mess that snowballs around and around in my head.
okay then time to sleep, and hopefully something clicks about something tomorrow.
goodnight world. sleep tight. keep dreaming.
In the darkest night hour (In the darkest night hour)
I'll search through the crowd (I'll search through the crowd)
Your face is all that I see
I'll give you everything
Baby love me lights out
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