Maturity

what does it mean to be mature? what does it mean to be an adult?

psychology has opened up these questions to me. there are definitions, but how do they help me in feeling better about myself? how do they explain the mental journey that i have had so far in my 20+ years of living? i've definitely traveled, haven't i?

egocentrism takes a while to shake off. so does superficiality. i mean, we are visual people, possibly more visual than ever in the 21st century, with so much of information coming in through our eyes. reading, looking at slides, watching videos, calculating...

the stress is there, but it helps that i'm doing something unpleasant to handle it. i'm making progress. i just hope progress isn't always as painful as this. in an ideal world, it shouldn't be. people would be able to be specialised and take care of the things that they want to (or maybe that they're good at). okay this is a strange idea.

back to studying i guess. not much to say about maturity. i want to keep living. i want to keep feeling this, and i never want the passion to run out. i want to find new things to be passionate and happy about, that fire me up strongly enough to keep me going for ever. it might sound a bit dependent, but it's probably the truth: everyone needs to fight and strive for something they believe in. they have to take every step thinking that it counts, if not, they wouldn't be able to sustain it in the long run.

alright.