hope this busy time gets productively busy and not aimlessly busy. (what am i going to do about it?) well, the project outlines aren't very solid yet, but as of what i can see, they don't really stimulate me so far. i'm hoping i can find some details that'll make my heart tick and live again for the work.
revision is going well, probably adapted to the faster pace of this semester. i'm thankful that i don't have to take statistics this term. it's crazy enough as it is without having to worry about an extra group project and more numbers wedging their way into my life.
adeeb's birthday is coming up. i'm going for enzon's gig this friday. wow everything seems to be going so fast, and yet things aren't meaningful. this business isn't going to stay in my mind and make me cherish it. it's just filler. i dislike filler.
i'm worrying without a foreseeable payoff. i mean, the motivation to swap one activity for another isn't strongly there, or i haven't convinced myself that it's there and worth it. as i have thought, maybe it's the emotional value that we create for ourselves throughout this lifetime that keeps us going. there's no true absolute. it's what we do for the people around us and how we set our expectations and then make or break them. there is no higher purpose. we just are, and the present is what we have. we should learn to cherish and relish it, these experiences.
here's to a good next week, that work gets more meaningful, and group meetings will be productive, and activities will be enjoyable and a way to de-stress. if not i'll just end up on the computer again, driving at Guild Wars quests. and though it's fun, this isn't how i'd like to de-stress during my school days.
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