Listen to my story. This may be our last chance.

Wild Geese

You do not have to be good.
You do not have to walk on your knees
for a hundred miles through the desert, repenting.
You only have to let the soft animal of your body
love what it loves.
Tell me about despair, yours, and I will tell you mine.
Meanwhile the world goes on.
Meanwhile the sun and the clear pebbles of the rain
are moving across the landscapes,
over the prairies and the deep trees,
the mountains and the rivers.
Meanwhile the wild geese, high in the clean blue air,
are heading home again.
Whoever you are, no matter how lonely,
the world offers itself to your imagination,
calls to you like the wild geese, harsh and exciting--
over and over announcing your place
in the family of things.

Mary Oliver

I can show you the world
Shining, shimmering, splendid
Tell me, princess, now when did
You last let your heart decide?

I can open your eyes
Take you wonder by wonder
Over, sideways and under
On a magic carpet ride

A whole new world
A new fantastic point of view
No one to tell us no
Or where to go
Or say we're only dreaming

A whole new world
A dazzling place I never knew
But when I'm way up here
It's crystal clear
That now I'm in a whole new world with you
Now I'm in a whole new world with you

Unbelievable sights
Indescribable feeling
Soaring, tumbling, freewheeling
Through an endless diamond sky

A whole new world
Don't you dare close your eyes
A hundred thousand things to see
Hold your breath - it gets better
I'm like a shooting star
I've come so far
I can't go back to where I used to be

A whole new world
Every turn a surprise
With new horizons to pursue
Every moment red-letter
I'll chase them anywhere
There's time to spare
Let me share this whole new world with you

A whole new world
That's where we'll be
A thrilling chase
A wondrous place
For you and me

it's intermission time!

mad rush again? i think so.

i'm doing it!

i hope you see that.

i'm so tired at 11.33am.

am i taking care of my life?

respect me!

post number 600.

lol. this blog has come a long way.

Dramanite 2010 was awesome. don't think i'll forget this experience for a long, long time.

next: Estrellas.

hey, waitaminute, it's not even the end of the month yet, why're you being such a bitch?

my mom has an inability to control her ridiculous, illogical crankiness.

just pray that she suffers a near-death experience that'll change her.

one way i can think of is that the blood doesn't stop coming out for three weeks or something.

poetic justice.

hello everyone.

everything but the girl.

everything you want.

omg i just got hit by this fantastic terrible wave of regret and panic, because i wasted my afternoon trying to do work and just couldn't. i don't know what to do anymore!

k and d have blogs but they don't want me spreading. HELLO K AND D!

You're my cocoon.

You're my cocoon.

i finally understand why songs repeat lines.

insecure, that's what you are.

i don't know what to think about you.

had a very interesting, and simultaneously terrifying, one-on-one session with two teachers - Ms Chia and Mr Ho.

it was amazing how the conversation went. i'm surprised i managed to find things to talk about, and things that really interested me.

also, i found out that teachers are human after all. after all, i'm human, and thus so will teachers be regarded by me.

meetings with Ms Goh and Mr Ho as well about my subjects. they were really good discussions, very fruitful and effective.

i'm beginning to love, not like, math. classes are such a joy that i look forward to them. same as gp, although the novelty's wearing off.

well tmr i'm planning to use my free afternoon/evening to shop. i'd much like to go by myself, but i don't have the experience to know where to go. so i need to find someone at least to go with, otherwise...i'll be panicking all the way inside till night.

saturday - dance day. kinda looking forward to it.

as much as last night's session intimidated me, i thought what minli did, on hindsight, was pretty cool. is this what it's like to be a true dancer?

i had this evening to myself. and i didn't waste it really, because i relaxed (finally and healthily) with Plants VS Zombies. no hint of regret.

btw, locking up the hall at night is quite unnerving, especially with the upper floor's light flickering on and off in the background. on hindsight, i should've left the lights on till the last moment. i kept looking around and having the feeling that something was watching me, or was watching me through the solid wooden doors, as i went down the rows to check if each pair was locked.

nerding out in front of the computer again. this post has been rambling but i feel so natural typing this, as if the stress was all gone. and in a way, it temporarily has, fully.

it's 10.05. will not spend too much time on the computer. was thinking about changing my blogskin, but i guess with much reluctance that now is not the time. i've got a valuable opportunity of sleeping early, so might as well take it.

see you tmr, and i hope i have fun. please come along.

you're never wrong.

you're always better than me.

i am close to hating you.

i'm up at 11.58pm. my desktop wallpaper's changing every 20 minutes so that's okay. =)

i love the aesthetic of the ting tings. they do not shout at you. don't take it so personally. XD

alright. up at 11.58pm, feeling sleepy but love touching this computer so much that i don't wanna tear myself away from it. the keyboard's so clicky XP

oh yeah.

my new love, really. this will last for 1 or 2 weeks. ecstasy.

Two Door Cinema Club - Undercover Martyn

it's that time of the year again.

when my blog is not updated before the dance blog.

it feels weird inside, i don't know how i feel.

holy motherfucking shit i have 35 unread vj mails.

dance club is rocking on at a fantastic pace. i'm reminded of the Ariel poems from Plath.

i might be taking things for granted.

i might be too caught up with myself and us.

here are lyrics to hide behind!

And my running feet could fly
Each breath screaming: "We are all too young to die!"

Between two lungs it was released
The breath that passed from you to me
That flew between us as we slept
That slipped from your mouth into mine
It crept

Because it was trapped
Tapped between two lungs
It was trapped between two lungs

Now all the days of begging
The days of theft
No more gasping for a breath
The air has filled me head-to-toe
And I can see the ground far below
I have this breath and I hold it tight
And I keep it in my chest with all my mgiht
I pray to god this breath will last
As it pushes past my lips
As I...

aizah, thank you for opening my eyes to the things i was avoiding.

i see them more clearly now, but i'll keep them inside for now.

because maybe they'll go away after i stop feeling offbeat, and everything's back to normal.

now's not really normal.

how did easter turn into this?

Happy Easter.

Just wrap me round, wrap me round, wrap me round, wrap me round your finger,
Coz when you say it's 'Kay doesn't matter if I believe you.

holy. freaking. crud.

haha i didn't expect facebook to be so popular for HAPPY BIRTHDAY wishing.

here's a song for everyone who wished me.

Fool's Garden - Lemon Tree

"No."

"But...listen, you've just been saying life is meaningless, so how can...?"

"I changed my mind."

"But...why?"

"Thermodynamic miracles...events with odds against so astronomical they're effectively impossible, like oxygen spontaneously becoming gold. I long to observe such a thing."

"And yet, in each human coupling, a thousand million sperm vie for a single egg. Multiply those odds by countless generations, against the odds of your ancestors being alive; meeting; siring this precise son; that exact daughter..."

"...until your mother loves a man she has every reason to hate, and of that union, of the thousand million children competing for fertilization, it was you, only you, that emerged."

"To distill so specific a form from that chaos of improbability, like turning air to gold...

that is the crowning unlikelihood."

"The thermodynamic miracle."

"But...if me, my birth, if that's a thermodynamic miracle...I mean, you could say that about anybody in the world!"

"Yes."

"Anybody in the world."

"But the world is so full of people, so crowded with these miracles that they become commonplace and we forget...

I forget."

"We gaze continually at the world and it grows dull in our perceptions. Yet seen from another's vantage point, as if new, it may still take the breath away."

"Come...dry your eyes, for you are life, rarer than a quark and unpredictable beyond the dreams of Heisenberg; the clay in which the forces that shape all things leave their fingerprints most clearly."

"Dry your eyes..."

"...and let's go home."

conversation between Doctor Manhattan and Laurie Juspeczyk, from "Watchmen".

I just wanna scream and lose control
Throw my hands up and let it go
Forget about everything and run away, yeah
I just wanna fall and lose myself
Laughing so hard it hurts like hell
Forget about everything and run away, yeah

wow.

the first couple of days of school are over.

and i'm NOT looking forward to the stress.

i can already feel it in my bones, the things that're gonna come that'll make my mind rattle and my brain ache and my heart dead.

wow so melodramatic.

yeah but something like that lah, i just know how to put it in words because that's probably what i'll feel soon. sigh.

yeah but we'll look back and think "wow, what amazing times we had. the fun of this stress."

or maybe not. married adults i know still have nightmares about their A levels. coupled with concert in term 2, i don't know how to juggle my priorities any more.

well the main dampener tonight is that i just found out that i'll have to not sleep in on weekends (saturdays) in order to attend practice. gah 8.30 to 10.30 is really early. blame it on me on not planning my steps well, but the small, very small comfort is that it's only for 6 weeks or so. which is a month and a half. after that...well it's all over. one focus and one focus only, which can really take its toll.

i mean, being older sucks. what fun is growing old, when you don't have the increased amount of happiness to deal with the increased amount of stress? whatever we have, we have to work for it. and maybe sometimes, just sometimes, it can be abit too much.

yeah. so that's my two cents on what occurred to me today in the bus in the morning. it's 10.45pm on the computer clock. waking up early tmr to attend yet another meeting.

six weeks, six weeks. somehow it just seems so far away. and then time will pull the rug from under you once again, like how it did for almost the whole of last year.

i'll move forward, we all have to. it's just the thought of leaving things behind that's terrifying. just sometimes.

don't you sometimes wish you could disappear into that world of your wallpaper?

it's the fucking last night.

go down with a bang!

timo~

today's birthday celebration was fantastic. =)

sorry to those who didn't come.

for those who did, we were brilliant.

thank you all.

=)

(two smileys! wow!)

i've been bumming around doing absolutely nothing, just on the com and the ps3. =)

Are you satisfied?

With an average life?

Do I need to lie to make my way in life?

Are you satisfied?

With an easy ride?

Once you cross the line will you be satisfied?

my new sudden obsession.

Kate Havnevik - Unlike Me

this is a terrifying song. not for the faint hearted who listen to black metal.

okay, so just an update about my day.

i spent the last two days almost completely at home. haha. even the dog went out more often than me. hmm i went out for tuition today, the path to the bus stop seemed so quaint and unfamiliar. maybe because i was super spaced out on the computer and ps non stop, ever since i got FINAL FANTASY XIII omg it's superb, the battle sequences are really smooth. for those players out there, USE THE PARADIGM SHIFTS. learn how to use them well and transition and understand how to use them, and they'll definitely reward you. one of the most entertaining battle systems i've seen close to beating kingdom hearts. hard to tell right now.

anyway, yeah. i went through some extra dance stuff (not even completing what i had to do, and besides, totally forgetting about my studies, which have been nagging me especially that h3 that i promised i'd spend some of the hols to do. i'll get to that soon enough, maybe on thursday with my free day and a friend studying to give me that extra push), and i found that the ticketing had quite a few screwups! lucky i went through them because this is an outlet that we're dealing with the public in, and because we're handling their money, this area we have to be extra careful. plus, i reorganised the whole sheet and now i think it'll be ready for mass ticketing release soon. thank god when the pre-orders are finally settled. it's such a headache, i must admit ashes gave me a really good idea, but it was abit too late in using it. thanks ashes!

hmm. okay i had alot to say. it's just fun typing on the keyboard, i like the springy clicky feeling HAHAHA really. oh yeah, i'm really upset and i'm seriously still reeling from a couple days ago, when i finished watching Season 4 Episode 7 of Skins, which featured Effy. omg i won't spoil it for those of you who haven't watched it yet, but i'm really upset! i mean, the ending was fucking shocking, i still can't believe it happened! i can't believe it! it seemed so unreal but as i think about it, it kinda was expected. i just didn't expect it! and i still can't accept the fact. i'll wait till the next episode's out on the internet next week...before that, i can't say for certain. not till i see it. gosh. RIP Chris Miles.

on a happier note, i picked up 4 albums within two weeks. i bought Taylor Swift's "Fearless" first, followed by Florence and the Machine's "Lungs". oh, a couple weeks before that i bought Owl City's "Ocean Eyes", and Mew's "No More Stories". still haven't finished listening to those two properly yet, like sit down or lie down and close/open my eyes and really hear the music. how often do you do that?

yeah, anyway, this week i picked up "The Family Jewels" by up-and-coming star Marina and the Diamonds, and also Fleet Foxes' self-titled album. they're fantastic. the thing that really bugs me though, is that Singapore is so slow in importing interesting albums like The Concretes and especially, Joanna Newsom's new 3-cd LP, "Have One On Me". sigh. still waiting, i asked the sales person at hmv (HMV, FOR CHRIST'S SAKE!) and she said the import date wasn't even listed in the database. =(

i guess more waiting. but right now, new things to do and new things to see and feel.

listening to the Fleet Foxes' album backwards. how strange, you think. well, going to watch alice in wonderland soon enough. soon.

it's the first time i'm using my new com to post a blogpost!

hmm. i don't have a mouse.

but the com's brilliant. it's fat, it's big, and it's expansive.

not to mention the colours are sweet, and the clarity. i don't think i've seen or so personally touched a computer so vibrant before.

=)

happy world.

love the bargaining. i felt so powerful.

5 adjectives to describe each song:

Wondrous
Grooving
Thunderous
Electronic
Pulsating

Dan Black - U + Me =



Walk a million invisible lines!

Sombre
Upbeat
Tantalizing
Inward
Mesmerizing

The Courteeners - You Overdid It Doll



Heartfelt
Lyrical
Soulful
Uplifting
Sensual

Jon McLaughlin - Beautiful Disaster



jon mclaughlin oozes sex appeal. be it in his voice, or his looks.

breathe.

it's here.







I've been driving for an hour
Just talking to the rain

MUSIC VIDEO ALERT.

Chris Wallace from The White Tie Affair is ridiculously good looking.

The White Tie Affair - Candle (Sick And Tired)



to better music now. something i caught on Channel V. love the title, but that's their only good song i think, i listened to a couple of others and got sidetracked. =P

The Courteeners - You Overdid It Doll

I swear, if I receive one more bloody SMS I will scream. It's just so difficult right now. there are so many things to handle and so few, nobody.

my week hasn't been so bad, after all.

i'm going to suffer tmr because i am supposed to sleep but fuck yeah the computer is so good at keeping me glued.
ah i've got homework but am not looking at them or i'll get depressed so HELLO WORLD!

this next woman has the potential to change things in my life.

i'm just waiting to see how it's going to go with her.
i was gonna post a different video, but youtube disabled embedding or something. so here. enjoy.

V V Brown - Shark In The Water

i have been so busy with work, pure work, the past couple of days.

my weekend has been the worst in a very long time. even longer if you look at it, strictly speaking, with the work-is-making-it-suck point of view not taking in any other factors.

chinese new year, on hindsight, wasn't exactly very good in the long term. like, mountains and endless mountains of work that are so frustrating to handle. they never seem to stop coming. my takings for these few years isn't even that awesome with so many relatives passing away.

illustration: first period of the day, i got handed homework. what a fantastic start to the week.

ah, at least i've got the tutorials for the week mostly covered.
just essays and more essays to go. to the point that i'm getting very very sick of words.

especially seen in history.

i don't seem unhappy, but i really am feeling the pinch getting more and more painful this year.
i'm just not in the right frame of mind to express it to you.

"What a million filaments.
The peanut-crunching crowd
Shoves in to see

Them unwrap me hand and foot
The big strip tease.
Gentlemen, ladies

These are my hands
My knees."

a question that i've taken to think about- if you had to choose, which one would you pick:
1) keeping your 18 years' worth of memories, and not having any more, or
2) keeping your memories that you'll get in the future, but not having your previous 18 years' worth of memories?

leave your answers or comments to the question on the tagboard, i'd really like to know your views.

typing my essay out.

as i type my thoughts get more convoluted and more seemingly intelligent but sometimes i wonder if there's any real thought behind them as compared to writing.

i have never seen a person really having a "role model", only knowing people who they DON'T, secretly DON'T, wanna become or be in their situation. it's a terrible thing, that. it's a kind of self-threatening and instilling of fear. which is terrible because i think people should not live with that kind of fear in their lives so constantly.

Demotivational posters! to make this 3-day week drag on.

really tired after cny stuff.

just wanted to share this with you guys. =)

Marina And The Diamonds - Mowgli's Road

I AM SO FUCKING FUCKING SICK OF DOING WORK. staring at the same old layouts and the same old junk that's not going to be useful to me much in life later. who the hell am i kidding. it's true. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

(it's the skills, it's the skills, it's the skills.)

it's THAT time of year again. the time where everyone's falling sick and it's messing with peoples' brains and everyone's sick of working.
i wonder, if we had london's weather, would there be more suicides?

Econs, History.

i am so sick of looking at nuances of language and things done and not real. i want to see things NOW.

i shall listen to Adam Lambert. pure adulterous pop.

hello!

i'm in a sleepy and interested mood.

need to force myself to sleep so that i can stay awake and alive tmr. the day's ending at 9.30, unwinding will finish at 10 or so.
with no work done, sigh.

can't even go home to sleep. gahhh.

times like these when i appreciate the fact that people can live so close to school. because i want to!

Florence + The Machine - Dog Days Are Over (Live @ Mercury Prize Awards 2009)




ah well at least i did some thinking and short but sweet studying. should've slept at home today though. sigh. things got in the way, symmetry included. maybe i shall rush home and have a good doze before setting off tonight. i just wish we didn't have stuff tmr afternoon, after that PE. maybe i'll just skip it (my throat! hooray!)

this is a very wordy post. so i am posting a video to break it up.

my H3's doing fine, thank you. the worry's piling on but it's okay right now.

how do i find interesting music, indeed.

it's over! =( i don't know if there was any truth in what i said.

anyway, i'm blogging because i feel the stress coming back SIGH.

yesterday night was kiron's birthday party, it was cool. HAPPY SUPER EARLY BIRTHDAY KIRON. very warm and happy and comfortable party.

the night before was orientation night. stayed back after that like tradition dictated and had swensen's ice cream. was a really bittersweet moment. i think i'm worrying too much about kinda silly things.

gahhhh. the attack of the unsinkable rubber ducks. even though your problems are not as cute!

My mind's not right.

i shall blog when i am in a better frame of thought.

i'm in a happy mood.

this is because i've got the motivation to check facebook for new friend updates which i am actually looking forward to. =) hooray!

it's a pseudo-rest and work period tonight for me. tomorrow's going to be a late-out night so i need my energy.
thursday too, and then friday some. haha.
i don't want lessons to start just yet. please let wednesday and thursday STOP SCHOOL PLEASE.

a couple of songs that i've been listening to recently.

Friendly Fires - Kiss Of Life



Ellie Goulding - Starry Eyed

crazy, crazy woman and a crazy, crazy world.

it's not usually that mid/downtempo songs catch me and hook on. but this one has. just to share,
here's
Marina and the Diamonds
with I Am Not A Robot



You're vulnerable, you're vulnerable
You are not a robot
You're loveable, so loveable
But you're just troubled

Guess what? I'm not a robot, a robot
Guess what? I'm not a robot, a robot

on another note, this post goes out to you, readers of my humble blog. yes, this 569th post. you who's ever read my entries or listened to my music or tagged on my tagboard. thank you for listening and just being here. =)

"What else is love but understanding and rejoicing in the fact that another person lives, acts and experiences otherwise than we do?" - Friedrich Nietzche

"Today, I was watching Jaws. If you watch Jaws backwards, it's a movie about a shark that keeps throwing up people until they have to open a beach. MLIA."

LOL.

it isn't even friday night. it's saturday morning. where the hell did friday night get to?

ah well at least i still remember it quite clearly.

i had a shower. just.

watched skins season 3. two episodes, great.

yeah well.

i haven't posted in very long?

well it seems like it.

hmm there's nothing much i can say. orientation is going to be fun, i'm going to make sure of it. this week's ogl training is something interesting, although the turnout rate wasn't fantastic. we have fantastic og heads and it's something i'm really appreciative of =)

okay. set a good example, keep the nastiness to a minimum. especially your inane sharp tongue.

cheer, like WOOO HOOO and etc. oh and remember your og cheers, it's so paiseh when you actually forget them.

and live up and give your juniors the best (or close enough) that you can. think your first ogls. fantastic people. admittedly, one of them was an og head lol. Joel.

buhbye.

hey world, i've decided to share my joy with you!

i've finished one essay. just one. but it's like 4 pages long in arial size 12. quite long, i'll say. i'm not one for many redundant words. let me give you a quote about poetry adapted from Sylvia Plath.

"It is a moment of contact, of impact, 'a closed fist' to use her own image, compared to the 'open hand' of the novel. And while that open hand can bring in all kinds of details, the closed fist 'excludes and stuns'."

the 2009 Mercury Prize winner. lots of bands nominated that i know of this year. but none of them won. including Florence and the Machine, La Roux, Glasvegas, Bat for Lashes (ugh), and Lisa Hannigan.

and here is...SPEECH DEBELLE with Spinnin'. love her lisp.




share something else with you guys.
you might find this meaningful, you might not.

it's for us to get off our lazy butts and do something for the world.

The dog days are over
The dog days are gone
Can you hear the horses
'Cuz here they come

Run fast for your mother and fast for your father
Run for your children for your sisters and brothers
Leave all your love and your loving behind you
Can't carry it with you if you want to survive

my obsession with Florence and the Machine has grown to greater heights.

this is a perfect time for posting. when i have an hour and a half left with my body clock to finish up 3 essays. it's impossible even in exam conditions. but ah well, i've semi-given up.

fuck this. too many essays, too little data to work with.

before i go,

Florence + The Machine - Drumming Song

"Heathcliff, it's me, Cathy come home
I'm so cold, let me in-a-your window"

- Kate Bush, "Wuthering Heights"

powerful stuff.

i'm into this band at the moment.

powerful stuff.

Florence + The Machine - Rabbit Heart (Raise It Up)




Incidentally, Glasgow is one of the Cities of Music. incredible. the only bands i know from there are Glasvegas and Camera Obscura.

leonie, are you referring to this particular clip?
fucking funny, dude.

Jizz In My Pants

doesn't the internet stifle you?

Lady Gaga's Christmas Songs

DUDES.
XD

HotforWords - Bad Grammar (parody of The Way I Are)

today i woke up thirsty.

it felt good after that.

when i post it here, the magic will be all gone.

sorry, rachna. here, for the world to see, is the genius of Regina Spektor in her most spellbinding and adorable song for me to date, Us.

Regina Spektor - Us



and i shall post my favourite lyrics from the song.

They made a statue of us
They made a statue of us
The tourists come and stare at us
The sculptor's marble sends regards
They made a statue of us
They made a statue of us
Our noses have begun to rust
We're living in a den of thieves
Rummaging for answers in the pages
Were living in a den of thieves

and, just for fun, because it's so fun to sing, i'll put the phrase here.

And it's contagious

not to be angsty or anything, but MY PARENTS SUCK.
one of their problems is encouragement. they don't know how to treat their kids like a maturing young person. and because of the passivity that they have, it totally sucks. especially when they put you down, unknowingly. it still smarts.

and i can't seem to get my mind to homework.

Sylvia Plath is angsty. i'm tired of her, for now.

uh, happy 2010!
um, this is awkward.

hey i'm back!

i've seen so many people, and i can say that everyone is different.

you are your own yardstick, wherever you want to take yourself.

i brought my beloved poetry books (my first two book purchases! so exciting!) to the trip with me. haha. they got me quite stressed out because of the contents and the poetry. but well. i think a quote to wrap up the year and usher in the new year is nice, right? so here's one. actually i've got alot but i keep forgetting them so i'm going to find one now. here it is.

Melts in the wall.
And I
Am the arrow,

The dew that flies,
Suicidal, at one with the drive
Into the red

Eye, the cauldron of morning.

-From "Ariel" by Sylvia Plath
you know what. i don't really like it. i'll find another one if i remember, later. but please, do enjoy this one. it's cool.

AND HERE IS DUG!!! omg i love him. so cute.



don't you feel alone?
i do.
just hang on for another year.

Lady Gaga feat. Beyonce - Telephone



[Lady Gaga]
Hello, hello, baby
You called, I cant hear a thing.
I have got no service
in the club, you see, see
Wha-Wha-What did you say, huh?
youre breaking up on me
Sorry, I cannot hear you,
Im kinda busy.

K-kinda busy
K-kinda busy
Sorry, I cannot hear you, Im kinda busy.

Just a second,
its my favorite song theyre gonna play
And I cannot text you with
a drink in my hand, eh?
You shoulda made some plans with me,
you knew that I was free.
And now you wont stop calling me;
Im kinda busy.

Stop callin, stop callin,
I dont wanna think anymore!
I got my head and my heart on the dance floor.
Stop callin, stop callin,
I dont wanna talk anymore!
I left my hand and my heart on the dance floor.

Eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh
Stop telephonin me!
Eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh
Im busy!
Eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh
Stop telephonin me!
Eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh

Can call all you want,
but theres no one home,
and youre not gonna reach my telephone!
Cuz Im out in the club,
and Im sippin that bubb,
and youre not gonna reach my telephone!

Call when you want,
but theres no one home,
and youre not gonna reach my telephone!
Out in the club,
and Im sippin that bubb,
and youre not gonna reach my telephone!

[Beyonce]
Boy, the way you blowin up my phone
wont make me leave no faster.
Put my coat on faster,
leave my girls no faster.
I shoulda left my phone at home,
cuz this is a disaster!
Callin like a collector -
sorry, I cannot answer!

Not that I dont like you,
Im just at a party.
And I am sick and tired
of my phone r-ringing.
Sometimes I feel like
I live in Grand Central Station.
Tonight Im not takin no calls,
cause Ill be dancin.

Cause Ill be dancin
Cause Ill be dancin
Tonight Im not takin no calls, cause Ill be dancin!

Stop callin, stop callin,
I dont wanna think anymore!
I got my head and my heart on the dance floor.
Stop callin, stop callin,
I dont wanna talk anymore!
I got my head and my heart on the dance floor.

Stop callin, stop callin,
I dont wanna think anymore!
I got my head and my heart on the dance floor.
Stop callin, stop callin,
I dont wanna talk anymore!
I got my head and my heart on the dance floor.

Eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh
Stop telephonin me
Eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh
Im busy!
Eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh
Stop telephonin me!
Eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh

Can call all you want,
but theres no one home,
and youre not gonna reach my telephone!
Cuz Im out in the club,
and Im sippin that bubb,
and you're not gonna reach my telephone!

Call when you want,
but theres no one home,
and youre not gonna reach my telephone!
Cuz Im out in the club,
and Im sippin that bubb,
and youre not gonna reach my telephone!

My telephone!
M-m-my telephone!
Cuz Im out in the club,
and Im sippin that bubb,
and youre not gonna reach my telephone!

My telephone!
M-m-my telephone!
Cuz Im out in the club,
and Im sippin that bubb,
and youre not gonna reach my telephone!

Were sorry the number you have reached is not in service at this time.
Please check the number, or try your call again.

yes, i'm leaving for egypt tmr. get it? the song? okay.

bye bye.

life should be
simple.

fuck yeah, baby.

The Dead Weather - I Cut Like A Buffalo



this is what i'm talking about.

it's a question of normalcy.

what's normal in other countries isn't normal here.
what's normal here isn't normal in other countries.

that's why our laws are different, too.
that's why people move.

Owl City - Fireflies



Lady Gaga - Beautiful Dirty Rich



would just like to share a poem with you guys.

A man said to the universe:
"Sir I exist!"
"However," replied the universe,
"The fact has not created in me
A sense of obligation."

Stephen Crane, "A man said to the universe:"

you know, i've been conditioned to hear the changes of the production of a song beneath the surface.
give me a bit of time, and i'll be able to tell you what exactly changed.

this song is different from my ipod's version.

slower tempo, more bass accompaniment, backing vocals upped, lead vocals volume lowered and more blending in with the backing, with possible re-recording for the video, less bass drum, synth "bells" increased.

btw, my personal opinion is that La Roux is the new-age electronica for popular music.

La Roux - I'm Not Your Toy

they leave so young.

R.I.P. Christoper Miles.

now my life seems uncertain.

"let's just start this life, shall we?"

"fuck the future, dude."


you know what.

the thing is, they've got their own culture.

and it's so immersive, i feel like swimming in it.

we don't. am i jealous, or what?

we can't just create our own culture. we can't.

and it's no use trying to justify what we lack.

i just wanna be there so bad, but i know it won't be the same.

and i won't be happy.

oh, the liberation and fear to be freed from play counts.

this is probably what the soul of communism probably feels like. freed from freedom.

well. that was off on a tangent.

i was discussing with my mom, arguing, rather, that the depression in female poets is actually a "productive" thing. i still think it is. it's so strongly channelled that when they put it down on paper you actually still feel it after so many years because of the intensity and the extent of perfection that it reached at the moment of writing/finalising.

that said, it's incredibly tough to read poetry. first book: American poetry after the civil war. NOT a good idea. but hey, there are a couple of good things i've seen in there. Anne Sexton and Sylvia Plath. very overused, but there's a good reason to that.

my fucking com suddenly froze for a few seconds there. i think i better fucking publishi this before this fucking piece of junk screws my writing up.

just like a poet's life.

Somethin' - filled up - my heart - with nothin' - someone - told me
not to cry. - but now that - i'm older - my heart's - colder - and i
can - see that it's a lie.
children - wake up - hold your - mistake up - before they - turn the
summer into dust. - if the children - don't grow up - our bodies get
bigger but our - hearts get torn up - we're just - a million little
gods causing rain storms - turning every good thing to rust. - i guess
we'll just have to adjust.
with my lighning bolts a-glowin' i can see where i am going to be when
the reaper he reaches and touches my hand.
with my lighning bolts a-glowin' i can see where i am goin'.
better look out below!

Arcade Fire - Wake Up

after nearly 2 years. the beauty of the song.

IT'S PARTY UP IN THE U.S.A!!!! LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL

my god. she's seriously something. i don't know what to think of her.

okay. something melding Ashley Tisdale and Lady Gaga.

god, she even looks like both of them combined!

Ke$ha - Tik Tok



i believe music has something to do with the society it's from. right now, notice that electronic "party" music influenced slightly by house is considered good material for pop. Lady Gaga, Ke$ha, Miley Cyrus, all more hardcore before these recent years. now that Obama has gone into office, Hiphop, which is commonly associated with the Blacks, has taken the backseat, although its influences are still felt. i believe it has something to do with the current economic situation, where people are looking for an outlet or a way to suspend their lives in whatever way they can. and yes, i think that it's been channeled through youth to influence the state of popular music now.

I have a crush on skins. i feel like watching it, but teen dramas are very time consuming. especially with big bang theory and gossip girl breathing down my neck. oh but the big plus is that it's filled with really really really good looking people.

a video that long deserved its post.

Lady Gaga - Paparazzi (LIVE @ VMAS)

i feel my life getting sucked out by the office. really.

just being there makes my head go all artificial and bloated. it's a very strange feeling. but yeah.

i guess that's what turns us into adults who go around in their free time and do things which aren't really rest things.
help me.

i feel like i'm scared of a desk job. so stifling and well-lit. help.

well. my life is taking an intentioned break but i forgot to tell people that i am taking a break and that's why it's screwing up and the offices feel terrible.

i want to feel like what i felt before. when i'm resting (quite constantly), the throwaway of loads of responsibility and running free in my mind like the youth that i am. right now i just feel like i'm full of cold misty air that's cloudy and no use to anyone in the real world. i am real, though. it's just a feeling.

When life had locked me out I turned to you
So open the door
'Cause you're all I need right now, it's true
Nothin' works like you

still tired.

shan's gotten back to me on SC primary! thank you, shan!

it's put some movement into the inert list.
been checking up on it often.

like an email.

looked at this video once.

this is the second time, sounds better and better in an effortless way. shows that music doesn't have to be immediately appealing. which is what i've been constantly saying. go Justin!

Justin Bieber - One Less Lonely Girl

i'm so tired.

so so tired.

and it's only a wednesday tomorrow. thank god the week ends on a friday this week.

well, update, watching the mentalist on channel 5 now. wouldn't if not for my mother. this guy works for the police observing body language and mental effects manifesting physically. like a human lie detector etc. right now this cop got hypnotised and he's trying to undo it by finding the trigger.

okay.

well, job attachment tmr. okay. okay.

tired. dance.

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

Lady Gaga - Bad Romance



took time to search a really high quality video =)

haven't posted in such a long time.

this week isn't as killer as i've thought, but it might get more strenuous. probably will with the overnight sleeping and the late night at vivo on friday. hmm. practices are going fine, just had an addition today. suggested blocking and we ended up adding parts. =)

big bang theory rocks.

well. don't know when i'm posting again. maybe soon, maybe not. so unpredictable. no more late nights, stupid school in the morning.

Black Eyed Peas - Meet Me Halfway



The Script - Before The Worst



The Script - Breakeven



ohmygod i can't find an embed-friendly Mad video by Ne-Yo? sigh.

bossa nova music is what it's about.

no fast beats, nothing of the sort. just pure musical SKILL.

really. it's incredible. the technicality of the harmonies, the complexity of the melody and the beat changes.


Astrud Gilberto - dammi un'idea [Summer Samba (So Nice)]



if you're familiar with it, you can actually hear a melody of "The Girl From Ipanema" before the song starts. brilliant. note her sexiness.

absolutely hate the Elevator Love Letter music video by Stars.

omg. but the song is definitely great. one option to use next year for DAYM plus female vocalist.

'Cause you're gonna skip along
Quite merrily baby, you're gonna revel in hating what's going on
And you're like a sugar bomb
And no harm will come, no harm will come if you just skip along.

i long to meet the day when i can say

"I should explain: I'm a professional comedian, you won't win!"

DUDES.

THIS IS SO GOOD.

SHORT AND SWEET.
BEAUTIFUL VIDEO, LEAVE ME COMMENTS AND YOUR THOUGHTS ON IT! =)

http://piv.pivpiv.dk/

i used to live for the day.

now i notice and realise i live for the week.

=) / =(

my recent musical pursuit is choosing nice duet songs for DAYM next year. omg i'm their manager or something. haha. a female voice would be nice. kelly? also, would like more orchestration. doesn't even have to be that ORCHESTRAL, just you know, added drums or strings. it's just so difficult to get people to participate and have that passion. it's true. passion is difficult to find.

yep yep yep.

nervous about friday.

on a side note, hope everything went well for the chinese people! omg i didn't even realise lah until like this morning or last night.

hey people.

i have painstakingly scouted out Dexter Season 1 Episode 1 for you guys.

interested parties, enjoy! personally, i prefer tudou, faster.
sorry for not embedding, i tried and it didn't work.

Dexter S01E01
(Tudou)(Part 1)

http://www.yagoogle.tv/tv/dexter-season-1/dexter-1x1-dexter.html

(Tudou)(Part 2)

http://www.yagoogle.tv/tv/dexter-season-1/dexter-1x1-dexter.html/2

Youku

http://www.sidereel.com/Dexter/_watchlinkviewer/15208

yeah. that's you, adeeb.

my keyboard needs oiling, or whatever you do to make the keys more clicky and interesting to work with.

we are all afraid of change.

i guess with a certain reasonable extent that it comes from out doubt and fear of uncertainty.

we choose and undergo this every time, even in our smallest decisions.

i'll give an example. let's say you're dropping from KI to GP. which i am. then everyone around you will be like "huh?? really?? WHY?" the WHY, i'm referring to the "Why would you make such a risky decision?" instead of "What made you do it?"

anyhow. i guess this entry stems from personal reflection.

then again, how many of my posts don't, right?

on a lighter note (and happier as well), Carl's Jr. is OPEN at parkway! no more craving to go down to the beach for my fix, now it's just a couple of bus stops straight from school =) i heart VJ.

anyway, about hearting VJ, i'm applying to become an OGL. ooh. interesting. what i've always wanted to do come the first day of school life with the JCs in 2007. well, here it is. i'm confident.

Bjork - Hunter
if travel is searching
and home has been found

i'm not stopping

i'm going hunting
i'm the hunter
i'll bring back the goods
but i don't know when

hey guys!

been at home in front of the com from 9 till now (about 7). ten hours without a break. feels goood doing something so bad for a change.

this week's schedule is quite nice, if i do say so myself. instead of living by someone else's imposed schedule, i've got my own, for once in a long time. i love it.

yes, still watching dexter.

tell me that i'll be fine and everything's still okay.

tomorrowtomorrowtomorrowtomorrowtomorrow

i don't want to keep living like this for the holidays.

then there's nothing to look forward too.

i've always wondered why people tend to get lost in what they're doing and fail to see the big picture. now i know why. the big pictures are made up of medium-sized pictures which are made out of small bits of pictures and the hurdle's when you can't see past the medium-sized pictures because the biggest you can see are the medium-sized ones, which look big to you but are actually very small amongst the millions of people.

no wonder people commit suicide. it's a blessing, sometimes, that we get so lost in our own bits and pieces. what are we really living for?

haven't blogged in a long time.

have a weird headache from dance. i tell you, i need to master those spins. FAST. so glad i'm not in a real slogging dance school though.

The Great Spy Experiment - The Great Decay


Faithless feat. Dido - One Step Too Far


knowing me, stylised music videos.
no theme, just good songs.

it's a saturday night.

i just came back from kiron's party.

i just stopped freaking out.

i'm using my brother's new computer which is fantastic. but will of course get worse over the ages.

i just finished reading wadee's sms to JIAYOU

i just put pw out of my hands...for now.

HIP HOP HOORAY.

Gossip Girl: Lily is adopting everybody in the cast. next up: Blair or Nate!

maybe even Dorota!

gah.

Chiquitita, you and I know
How the heartaches come and they go and the scars they're leaving
You'll be dancing once again and the pain will end
You will have no time for grieving

Chiquitita, you and I cry
But the sun is still in the sky and shining above you
Let me hear you sing once more like you did before
Sing a new song, chiquitita
Try once more like you did before
Sing a new song, chiquitita


sweet. thank you ABBA.

gets annoying, but interesting nonetheless.
just watch out for 1.33.

Black Eyed Peas feat. Ris Low - Boom Boom BOOMZ



BOOMZ. BOOMZ. BOOMZ. RAD.

not tight enough for you? this one's more professional.



interview version!

i've outspent myself already.

there are three or four more days to this week.

oh man.
saving is hard work.

beautiful. i can't help but feel like crying in feeling when i listen to his songs.

Aqualung - Pressure Suit

Well two spinning spheres,
Two spinning spheres in a bed of stars
Silence is super
Staring into space, I wonder where you are

You're all that I've ever needed
I know that you won't feel it

Drift out into darkness
Lost out on horizon
It's alright
It's alright
I'll be your respirator
I'll be your pressure suit
It's alright
It's alright

Violently clear the upper atmosphere
Raging out your heart
Somewhere far beneath
Your pointed tongue and teeth
Is where you really are

Don't want to be forgiven
But drag you down from where you are

Drift out in the darkness
Lost out on horizon
It's alright
It's alright
I'll be your respirator
I'll be your parachute
It's alright
It's alright
I'll be your respirator
I'll be your pressure suit
It's alright, It's alright

I will not let you go

Two spinning spheres, they spin together
I'm gon' spin alone
I don't know how I can do this
I don't know how to get through
It's alright, It's alright
I can't stop loving you

it's saturday morning.
i can't get this out of my head.

Girls' Generation - Gee

it's finally over.

you so so lame.

HAHAHAHAHA

You get ideas all the time. The only difference between writers and other people is we notice when we're doing it.

-Neil Gaiman

three hours till i leave the house.

three days left.

three exams left too.

the waiting is probably the hardest part.
been spending my morning reading comics. =)

i want to read the fourth book of artemis fowl again.

BOOMZ.



you don't need to call or to work cuz you're the boss!

it's RADDDDDDDDDD. BOOMZ. I LOVE MY PREENS.

hello hello!

i'm blogging because i feel like posting something. you know right, the reason why people feel so unfulfilled after studying and are still worrying about the exam is because of

1. disgressing and stoning when studying. that wastes alot of time but we can't help it because we're all so unconsciously mentally tired. blame puberty.

2. not knowing what the exam IS makes us worried. can't help it. the unknown has always scared humankind since before. that's why we have SKILLS.

3. our context and the mindset that our whole lives depend on this sheet of black and white. well to some extent it does, but the greater need doesn't. this is just singapore, and it is just what it calls itself: an examination of our skills.

yep. those are my two cents. be happy, people.

NO FUCKING WAY.

LILY ALLEN HAS ANNOUNCED THAT SHE DOES NOT INTEND TO CONTINUE PRODUCING NEW MATERIAL.

QUIT THE FUCKING MUSIC INDUSTRY, DAMMIT.

maybe i should go get her latest album.

now people don't have the guts to say it. or they're just too stupid. petrified inside already.

IT'S IN THREE DAYS. YEAH, AND THE THIRD DAY IS GOING TO BE IT. SO TECHNICALLY WE ONLY HAVE TWO.

yeah. fuckers.

Dan, you are making such a mistake. please stop it already, back away slowly and gently or at least in the nicest way possible. gahhh. aiyo.

Serena, i get you're all weepy and soul-searching, but Carter AGAIN?! gosh.

i was gripped by a sudden need to say something just now.

but i forget. haha. oh well.

studying's crappy.

i have a renewed love for my psp. =)

/yes, i'm watching too many videos.

Eminem - Without Me

i don't really have much to say about rap music, but this one's really really good. you want a lesson in rhyme and rhythm? listen to the master - Eminem.
FUCK YOU DEBBIE!!! (he rhymes that!)

i was gripped by a sudden need to say something just now.

but i forget. haha. oh well.

studying's crappy.

i have a renewed love for my psp. =)

i feel really odd, but good. =)

i just recovered from my freak sickness yesterday afternoon. happy end-of-fasting-month day!

i'm listening to Sandcastle Disco by Solange. yeah, Beyonce's little sister has a career in music! she's not too bad herself you know. screw off, haters.

it's a couple of days till the exams, and i still don't feel prepared.

ah well. maybe me blogging at the com and slacking is the pure reason.

um, yeah. feel weird, because of the fever yesterday and then nothing. i think it was self-induced unconsciously. WEIRDDDD. gah nuances are so unnecessary really. except for feelings. and lit expresses your feelings. history, least of all i think. sigh. but Mr Sayers is awesome.

and he's kinda built his whole life over it so yeah, i won't diss it. teachers really make a difference! =) smilesmile.

so yeah. that's me making up nonsense. missed out two things yesterday. sick.

Dirty Projectors - Stillness Is The Move

It's a really bright and delightful morning. In school.

MGMT - Kids
trust me. worth your watch.



dum de de de dum de dum de deeee....
well, at least the song is cool.

THE MOM IN THE VIDEO IS JOANNA NEWSOM! =)

"the most killingest pop star on the planet"
"my boyfriend's a cage fighter."
"what's a cage fighter?"

time for more NEVER MIND THE BUZZCOCKS!

it's wednesday. the holiday is passing so slowly suddenly. and yet so fast when you think about it.

looking forward to tmr's going out with kash and mervyn. we rock. i think i'll go buy some uniqlo stuff there.

which begs the question, does self-awareness or consciousness ever bring catharsis?

i've decided to be forcefully poetic in this post, you see.

it's all in order to get rid of my frustration (catharsis) of being kept.

which leads me to say, i have a gem within my mouth.

and we're doing Top Girls right now. and i dislike Isabella Bird very much. but i don't disagree with her. i'm feeling her unconscious self-induced sickness right now.

i could be out this whole week doing fulfilling and energetic things which are exciting. but suddenly the drive has been sucked out of me, trust me i didn't go down without a fight. and lately, it's just spiralling into this big mess over and over again with me getting frustrated and then losing energy over it and then getting back frustrated about it. it's not gonna help, i know. but i don't have the energy to get out of it!

and it doesn't help that things have happened in this short time. energy can come from emotion. well, emotion happened. already.

lol. not so poetic after all! sigh. i mean, what was i expecting. a spontaneous outpouring of emotion, like one of those famous poets said? lol. hard to believe. construction does not entail closely-followed words, worded carefully with much construction.

a new blogskin is in order.

"Right birds can fly so high
And they can shit on your head,
And they can almost fly into your eye
And make you feel well scared
But when you look at them
And you see that they're beautiful
That's how I feel about you
Yeah that's how I feel about you."