like amanda says, must blog often. so here goes. =)


gonna talk about dance. it's been taking up lots of my time. but the great thing is. i love it. i love the hard parts. i adore the easy parts. i revel in my heart and soul when i get things done right. i love the criticism so much that it's making me a stronger person. "that which will not kill me, makes me stronger." or something like that. haha. yeah. it's tough listening to it. but there's always some truth in it that makes you wanna prove it wrong. amazing eh. yesyesyes. must work harder. want to at least learn some basic b-boy moves that i can string together.


well my class is improving. hahaz. with angel and mortal and all...wonder when it'll stop, i don't know. i feel something that feels like leadership impending, slowly descending on my shoulders like a dark mantle. haha. it's not THAT welcome over here. but i'm sure it'll do me some good. and passion can't be forced right? so hopefully in these 2-4 months i'll discover the light. the fire. and the VANILLA SCENTED CANDLES that simin passed to me. hahaha she bought 36. crazy sheep. mad sheep disease. okay i'm going into weird stuff again. ohhh yeah got something interesting. apparently my class (who i don't really spend time with, sigh) think that me and simin are attached. well i (kinda) violently opposed it when my friend asked. hahaha. just for the record, NO INTERST in pursuing a romantic relationship with simin. whoever's out there for her, she's all yours.


um. yeah. the future doesn't look so bleak as myself as an individual student after all. the first week...and schoolwork still interests me. i really really hope (and i WILL) keep this up. paying more attention...putting in effort...cultivating interest in subjects. it's different, JC life. very different. no classroom still affecting me even after the generous god-given stone tables. yeah. and arts and science. it's unfair to have generalisations. there are many many awesome and interesting people in science. and arts has its equal share of nerds too. who are we to judge? i mean, we don't know how people are really like. besides the awesome arts fac cheer...there's nothing much to differenciate us. =)
anyway it's the social aspect that kinda scares me. yes, i am an IP student. but with no interesting new people to spark me...life gets mild. yes, mild is calming and soothing. it comforts you when it's in you. or when you're in it. but mild, when seen from a further point of view, lacks energy. lacks life itself sometimes.


sigh and sometimes i don't see the point of KI studies. went for my first lesson today. was interesting. but the point made was so trivial that i wondered if i was missing something. maybe i was. but yeah. you get the point. or maybe not. the lecture in the afternoon was great great great though. learnt about Plato's Cave. and watched a tiny bit of the Matrix. hooray! the bad part was, i was kinda sleepy. after lunch and all. hahaha. had 6 periods straight in the morning. PE in the afternoon wasn't as bad as i expected though! mr goh was on a more funny-retarded mood, and my calves are aching right now. i EMBRACE PAIN. hahahaha.

well that's it. watched the amazing race at night. oh man. i just blabbed about the whole day!
p.s. on the amazing race, this mother-son team came in first for the first leg of the race. the most amazing thing about it was, her son was deaf. it's amazing. NO WONDER it's called the AMAZING race.
sketchnite, ahhhh.

ohhh yes. things are gonna liven up a little. gradually. but they will. =)

Cuz i'd rather spend my life pretending
than have to forget you for one whole minute.
=)

the blog's gotten quieter.

hello everyone!

happy to tell you that the first week (or so) of school has been great. not really really great like the orientation week, but fun enough. the seniors were awesome to come back and help out too. it was great. bonding with the class. speaking of the class. it's fun =) lessons are something to look forward to (except maybe math). waiting to see if everything can get better, because my standards are quite high after 07v13. love you guys, miss you so much.

og dinner tomorrow. no night cycling, but it's gonna be good. really looking forward to see the ogls again. oh yeah, pe and dance auditions tmr. tiring. hope i can survive. completing my homework most efficiently now. should be able to cope, if i continue on like this. all i'm worried about is support and friends. haha. yeah. i'm looking at you.

yanokami - Full Bloom

keep smiling. keep smiling. it's haunting you.

no time to type in a sentence.

it's bleeding time!
in time
in work
in school
in friends

today is secrets' day. i'm keeping alot and i'm dealing with alot. or at least more than usual. at least i'm controlled this time.

FUCK lah SCREW YOU hotmail you're FUCKING useless when i need you.

THOR 3 POK!

i've known you for so little and yet so long and so much. i will miss you. AHHHHHHH.
i don't know all your names.
but i'm learning.

the computer is such an irony. you wanna be alone with it and yet you want to talk to people. you don't know what to do when you're on it but you keep thinking about all the webbies that you wanna hit while you're away from it. ahhhh.
oh i'm kinda excited and afraid for tmr. it just occurred to me that school starting tmr. oh no oh yes. probably'll be sticking with the IPs for tmr. four out of the five sentences that i've typed in this semi-paragraph all end with tmr.
whee.
high and down.

amazing how we still find the time to blog eh?

tiredtiredtired. sore and tired but happy. go thor. i love thor. we rock. we crash. we thunder.
ah i hope i can go for tomorrow's dinner.
and friday's.
and saturday's.
go T3. THOR POK FOREVER.
hah that sounds lame. hooray!

it's probably my last time going through VJ orientation. must enthu! haha. unfortunately that doesn't really translate into actions sometimes.

today's CCA walkabout was fun. apart from some jerks saying that i couldn't dance. oh come on. you try it. at least i'm trying right. hmph.

loves to mervyn for saying that i'm MUSICALLY TALENTED and that my SINGING is REALLY GOOD. i blush. still uncomfortable.
also kudos to the two actors who we interviewed for cluedo today. i loved that section. actually seeing those people in the flesh really brought the game to life. heh. that was a kinda pun. (unintentional). speaking of puns, those emcees on stage should really work on their material. their jokes ah...C ah M ah I ah.

oh and the latest episode of gossip girl is really good. it's suddenly like a revival of those old insecurities that the characters had in the first season, that's what made this series such a good one in the first place. yay. and oh gosh the scandals. student-teacher relationships? ohh.

Stina Nordenstam - Parliament Square
Duffy - Distant Dreamer
The Script - The End Where I Begin

hey guys. i'm feeling sad mostly because i'm reading "farewell" dedications to people.

oh come on. this is not goodbye. you will always remember these people, even if only in name. at least in name. everything will come back, and the love is still there, if only simply deeper under all that other facts and dirt in your brain. you've loved, and there's always a part of you that is with them.

i'm going to explain a few sections of a song. its one of the few times that i'm gonna explain my posts in the post itself. i'm making sure that everyone gets it. it explains what i feel about us as a class.

Anyhow - I sat by your side, by the water
You taught me the names of the stars overhead that I wrote down in my ledger
Though all I knew of the rote universe were those pleiades loosed in December
I promised you I‘d set them to verse so I'd always remember

i think this describes that whole feeling of togetherness that we had as a class. we formed new thoughts and ideas together, being influenced by each other. the freshness of our class, the unspoken promises made to each other about life and our futures.

You came and lay a cold compress upon the mess I'm in
Threw the window wide and cried, "Amen! Amen! Amen!"
The whole world - stopped - to hear you hollering
You looked down and saw now what was happening

when we felt down, we definitely had each other for comfort. it didn't matter what others thought, as long as we stuck together and were together in spirit.

We could stand for a century
Staring
With our heads cocked
In the broad daylight at this thing
Joy
Landlocked
In bodies that don't keep
Dumbstruck with the sweetness of being
Until we don't be told
Take this
Eat this

i love this stanza. it shows the incredibleness and the largeness of our entity. of the life of the class. our love and patience and everything else poured into it willingly, without our conscious consent. it will outlive time. it is ours and at the same time not ours anymore.

if it's been forgotten has it been forgiven?

crash and burn girl.

i'm stonedd O level posting results were out today, there were mostly disappointments. it's disappointment that hits the hardest anyway. and it would have taken alot to penetrate today cuz my brain and my eyes were stoned. sigh.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADEEB AND AMANDA. that was a really cool double birthday. too bad the brides in bride wars didn't have a double wedding as well hahaha. i guess ccas will be stopped or definitely affected next week. all the best cuz we have so much to deal with anyway right. i'm probably gonna go for almost everything in the orientation, it was during orientation that i made a close friend. and the one that i crashed, that one too. =) think about it. after everything when you think about it, it'll probably be one of the best times that you had in your life. the week of getting to know people, and putting yourselves though games and stuff, you'll know them really well.

i think it's time for you guys to see a poem that i've written.

okay okay i'll go and sleep.

right after this property gets sold.

wahhahahahahhahaha i have 2,589,217,000 bucks on real estate tycoon. take that, haters.

what am i supposed to say when i'm all choked up and you're okay?

my windows OS is down.
it's a blessing in disguise.
because we have no money to buy the leopard to update, i'm learning with the mac.

and boy, is it beautiful. it's so beautiful that i stop to wonder how i've missed out for so long.
it has everything i need.
and it does everything so beautifully.

haha. well that was a filler paragraph. just like today. it was so boring. i've got nothing to say, even though i desperately need to find things to say, just to tell people about how i'm feeling or what i wanna say or do.

okay.

well, happy chinese new year. from now on that's probably the only chinese related thing that i'm going to endure for hours at a time. =) and there's money involved. i'm the one winning.
i want a class outing.
wouldn't it be absolutely poetic and amazing if there was this person, who was always the core of our class, organising and planning things for us to enjoy, and if his or her birthday were to fall on the last day of school and us as a class, and we go out with him or her and have a hell lot of fun, and in the end it'll probably be the best and most meaningful birthday ever.

hmm i'll have to rephrase that, or you do that for me, as long as you know what i mean and think about the beauty of it.

hah i shouldn't feel BAD about it it's not even my THING.

don't you think people are such sly foxes when they say "you're so lucky to be with ________". it means either that that person's really awesome and they kinda like them or that you're actually not good enough to be with that person. haha. or maybe both. LOL. i'm overthinking things, like awesome friends adeeb and gabriel keep telling me. "STOP READING INTO THINGS LAH."

anyway there's nothing, nothing significant at all going on next friday. i don't recall any significant things happening on that day, apart from the birthdays of James LeBron, Christian Bale, Tim Jones, Gavin Rossdale, Diego Maradona, Phil Collins, Dick Cheney, Gene Hackman and Franklin Roosevelt.

HALO!!!

oh man religion religion religion. so many people are so dedicated. issit anarchist to oppose religion, which has really kept society in place (by driving in greater good values) into people? or is there really a higher authority watching over us? or am i fulfilling some pre-destined destiny simply by thinking this down? hmmm.

okay anyway i'm just really bored with today but kinda thinking about tmr. cuz of all that memorising. i'm calling tonight an early night (i.e. about 9 plus). stupid stronger mp3 file had some jerk dedicating the song to random people. to hell with that. i only recognised daft punk. i mean, will they even take notice of this. lol. at least i have jason (mrazcoughcough) whenever i want. just a simple press of a button.

LOL!!!

haha i'm just wondering whether i could've made better use of my time. and whether i should use contacts for school since i'll be using my specs the whole day but i don't wanna dirty them. haha speaking of that after school we keep crashing the juniors' class. if my seniors, let alone my effing GRAND-seniors did that, i'd get fucking cheesed off. maybe the juniors (or should i say, GRAND-juniors) already are. haha. but oh well. self-gratification. yess. i am a sinner oh and one thing about this year's IP angel-mortal exchange: they have a terrible job to go reassign seniors and juniors. haha. pray for those poor v15 people okay.

haven't picked up the guitar and played for quite a while. i wonder if i'll have the time in the future. ahhh screw this week man. quite waste of time. i mean, couldn't they have cut it shorter? some parts are really unnecessary. okay, alot of parts. that reminds me, we still haven't had our JTS. they should do it VERY SOON. like before chinese new year. right now's a good time cuz 1. their juniors are rather bonded alr after IPO 2. time is undeniably running out for us. the numero uno. the big cheese. godlike. the greatest class ever to walk the halls of VJC (okay that might be abit exaggerated), 07v13. we're not even properly recognised as a cohort or class anymore by the school. i realised this when they conveniently forgot us in the assembly notice in the concourse TV.

everything's changing
when i turn around
all out of my control
i'm a mobile

Sun down now we have built
Our place
An aviary forever

it just occurred to me when i was having a shower.

we can't run from it anymore. not to sound emo or anything, but it's really the last few days of the official existence of 07v13. we're just running from the truth sometimes and we do have to deal with it. and know that it has affected us and not just put aside the pain, because pain makes you remember.

should we talk about it? should we not? i don't know. you decide, i guess. we make memories out of memories.

so tired! yesterday was the concert. pix up in awhile, gotta get timlim to send them to me first =) i'm proud to say i took really great pics (at least when seen on the camera)!

sigh so sitting at home waiting for videos to come up. think i'm gonna sleep soon. haha. gossip girl's good, as usual. although the backstabbing this time round was really harsh.

so yeah. live your life, be happy. thank you katie white and jules de martino.

fuck lah poker keep losing not fun lah.

fuck those rich bastards.
fuck those assholes.

Tell me, tell me
What makes you think that you are invincible?
I can see it in your eyes that you're so sure
Please don't tell me that I'm the only one that's vulnerable
Impossible

hello! back from the chalet!

BEST. VIDEO. EVER.
Jumping Jacks fucking funny!

chuck is going insane?

wow.
hot.

for those who haven't watched it yet, here's a really really good link with excellent sound and video (i.e. no fucking huge pixels!)

haha it's a good episode, just like any other. but here's the thing. serena dumped aaron. =)))
and we finally see eric.

see you at the chalet!

pure CLASS. in fact, one of the classics of dance/trip-hop/house/acid jazz music. hmm. see how her hair swishes.

Moloko - The Time Is Now


and finally, this is just for me.



it's night and i'm tired.
fingers are aching to type to my speed. lol. must be this morning. andy killed us all. yet again. and today's one was slack. slept in the afternoon, must've been the turns that killed me. i still (i'm not kidding) have a headache from this morning's practice. sigh. i think it's the balance in my ears. that's why it's such a sacrifice for me to wear headphones. screws up my sense of balance and any small thing can give me a headache, but it's so totally worth the far superior sound quality compared to *coughearphonescough*

paris pics. abit random, i know. but since i have the opportunity.

mother and brother. we were at the original marche restaurant. we sat outside, really cold but the food warmed us up. and pity but i don't have the other pic where we took in the view around us. snow mountains. really close. =)

it's not that paris looks really depressing in this pic, but it was raining/snowing. so the snow came down in wet bits. haha. the arc de triomphe is behind us. it's where napoleon put up the 150+ victories that he had around europe. showoff.

my parents at the louvre. no cameras actually. oops. =P the picture looks good, even with those two in the pic. AHHH MY MOM'S LISTENING TO DAVID COOK WAIT LET ME GET MY HEADPHONES.

camwhore.

haha well. he insisted that he wanted to wear the bear hat he got in korea. so there. he seriously wore it for the whole trip. i love my bro.


eh minus 11 okay. and it was minus 16 when my dad took off everything on his top. sigh.

friday with timlimqing.
disney keychain - $30 wtf.
movie, popcorn - $16.50
Pastamania dinner - $10
doublealbum - $29

THE TING TINGS CONCERT TIX - $53

i am a big spender.

jinghan, stay positive for the army! =)

beautiful lyrics.

Just a cigarette gone
No you couldn't' be that far
So I'm driving in my car
Where I hope you are
Maybe I can talk you down
Maybe I can talk you down

We're standing on a tiny ledge
Before this goes over the edge
Gonna use my heart and not my head
And try to open up your eyes
This is relationship suicide

Before the worst, before we met
Before our hearts decide
It's time to love again
Before too late, before too long
Let's try to take it back
Before it all went wrong

But what if I'm a mermaid
In these jeans of his
With her name still on it
Hey but I don't care
Cause sometimes
I said sometimes
I hear my voice
And it's been here
Silent all these years

hey my loves.

you will NOT believe that this sound quality is from youtube.

KELLY CLARKSON - Since U Been Gone

what is it about good cartoons that appeal to adults?
i will never get it.
although i do love cartoons so very much.
oh btw, don't trust critics too much. you are your own best critic. so you can be influenced by their views, but see it for yourself to deliver your judgement. hah. abit condescending sometimes, don't you think?

ironically, went fishing yesterday, though i caught no fish.

well it's new years' eve and i feel drowsy. not to mention mervyn's asked me to go out tonight. ah dunno whether should ask, but i feel so stoned that i don't think i can stand up to it. so i might be sick, but i'm not really.
and well, i have an album to accompany me through the night. the most awesome breakthrough band for this year, The Script. the only other band i can think of is Glasvegas haha, but i don't enjoy their stuff as much. just bought The Script's album, The Script, yesterday. really good. i love Breakeven. i thought they should've included the voice at the start though, it really provides a beautifully painful counterpoint to the whole song.

new years' eve. well well well.

"What would i do without you? Come on."

oh january, come soon.

0

THE TING TINGS ARE COMING ON THE 13TH OF JANUARY.

IS ANYONE CONSIDERING? =)

tix are $50 for students. like, cheap!

seriously, my parents should stop talking to me like i'm some dog. respect, man.
i'm already putting up with them the best i can. i can really control my temper, but i don't know how long more i can last, especially with them taking the rest of the year off from work. don't they have lives? go play golf. go watch soccer. go shop. go do your hair. go hang out with all your friends. or don't you have any. that's so sad.

hmm so neeways hello guys haven't blogged properly in a long time. um, nothing's going on right now. today, popped down to the supermarket to find amanda from v12 there, she wanted to sleep loll. and it was like, 12pm lah. then saw willie right after that hahaha. my bro said he looked gay XD in his green shirt. believe it or not, willie WAS grocery shopping. oh it was bring your own bag day but the supermarket was so lousy they didn't collect any money from us for using plastic bags. i think that we should adopt the overseas habit of bringing our own bags. i'm doing it whenever i shop. it's better.

i'm thinking of following the straight edge lifestyle but it sounds so yes man-ish. very strict covenant with yourself. and there are so many things i could do to break it. sigh. haha speaking of that movie i watched it twice. it's really good i think, especially the harry potter party part. should watch =) it made me laugh, unlike that zohan movie i think. that's partly why i prefer horror or stuff more serious. makes you think and not waste your time on lame jokes and storylines. when you think back, it'll be like, "whoa, the movie's really true" or " what a cool story, the person who came up with that is brilliant, i'd love to watch more stuff by him or her" instead of "whatthefuck lah i just wasted 6/6.50/8/10 bucks and two fucking hours watching that fucking lousy movie".

DAVID ARCHULETA LOVE. click me.

huh. yeah. so right now waiting for my presents and waiting for school to start (ah fuck.) before i forget,

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE. =)

*oh look, mistletoe.*

okay this is simply a note to self. ignore.

Utada Hikaru - Heart Station
Amy Macdonald - This Is The Life
Sa Dingding - Alive
Foals - Red Socks Pugie
3 Of A Kind - Babycakes
Vampire Weekend - Cape Cod Kwassa Kwassa

The Office - "It's A Dildo"


lol. =)
sigh tmr my day's been cut short cuz of my bro. but yeah. it's my duty.

The Office - "My Dead Mother's Breasts"


and finally, the should-be-official theme song for the "awesome" movie Twilight.

no gossip girl until next year!!! wtf!! oh man how could they leave people hanging like that. it's seriously a lose-lose situation lah. with all the excitement and the festivities going on soon, people'll forget about the series after that and stop watching. then viewership'll go down and the hype will be forgotten and then the directors and all that will have no money. sigh. stupid idiots really.

haha anyway i got david archuleta's cd from yazzie so i'm going to listen to it AND ENJOY IT SERIOUSLY now bye =)

love them love them love them love them love them love them.

Foals - Cassius


haha went to a certain someone's blog and felt down.
fuck i can't let this kill me let go.

don't you think this is an absolutely beautiful piece of sculpture?
it's the first and only piece of art so far that has really touched me emotionally.
"a masterpiece of destiny". i saw it in the louvre museum in paris.

so, i got back from europe yesterday 6.52am singapore time. =) it was an awesome trip and i have not many regrets. hooray! haha. there are so many things to describe and to say that i don't have the energy to list them all down =P ask me if you want. oh and i spent most of my time watching mtv, which ironically didn't really show music. might as well just call it TV or sth. the only mv slots i caught were in the morning, from 6 to around 8. at night and in the afternoon there was nothing. and for the record, i visited GERMANY and FRANCE in the same trip so what a coincidence and please don't argue about it, both countries are really nice. switzerland was filled with good looking people and also snow mountains which were so serene. imagine eating at the original marche and looking up at the mountains surrounding the valley. =D

as you can well tell i'm slightly tired out still coz of the jet lag.
amy macdonald is going to be a big name soon. europe's slightly ahead of us in music.

oh i bought this poster at the louvre, guess the album! =)

without things going on in your life there is nothing to blog about.
blogging is a reaction to things around you.
therefore blogging is an art form.

=)

lol. a comment about the nature of blogging. sigh. really got nothing to blog about lor.
oh yeah the vivo thing haha. but i can't describe it to you unless you were there yourself.
it is useless for me to tell you about how everyone was already at vivo when i came.
it is impossible for me to convey the dilemma that we had while trying to decide where to eat, because leonie said that it was friggin expensive and crowded upstairs.
it is futile for me to portray the situation at subway where we cleverly sat at the entrance so that yazzie and adeeb were able to sit with us with their outside food.
it is inadequate for me to report on the fun that we had while eating and that my mayo dripped on my bag =( and gabriel just HAD to order all the veggies in the world in our sandwich.
it is superfluous for me to recount how we still had one hour plus when we went up to the deck so we sat in a circle and played stupid games =P and asyraf's card almost slipped between the boards on the wooden deck.
it is worthless for me to specify how embarrassing it was playing dare or dare, which i probably will never want to play again.
it is bootless for me to render an account of the wonderment that we had watching the fireworks go up (the french did an okay job, but i'm not really into fireworks anyway XP),
and it is of no earthly use to provide a report on how we ended up sitting outside of gloria jeans sipping coffee. I USED MY VOUCHERS FINALLY =)

yep. oh well i tried.
haha i miss and don't miss having lessons with v13. maybe a day-long recess would be awesome one day.

you've become like your brother i think.
and that's not good.
irresistible, but irritating nonetheless once you've tasted it.

THANK YOU ADEEB FOR THAT DEDICATION. been reading and re-reading it. listen to the song ah. very good lorhzx.

ahhh i feel like i'm forgetting important things that i'm supposed to remember. zzzz not good not good.

i'm more wizer i'm more i'm more wizer i'm more wizer
oh i'm more wizer oh i'm more wizer
~
i'm more wizer i'm more wizer i'm more wizer

hmm i must be on some kind of minimalist album cover roll.






heyo!
yesterday was my mom's birthday. what we did: blouse, flowers, cd, breakfast. the cd didn't work haha. it was all static.

We're burning down the highway skyline

On the back of a hurricane

That started turning

When you were young

ahahahahaha brandon flowers.


and jonas bjerre!


and uh, connor paolo.


back to pictureblogging. feels great.

i've been thinking.
i totally miss you.

Into the past, I try to sort it
Sort it
Out of the fog
You're calling my name
I wanted to call for nothing
Your careless heart, you know you got it
Crawl into bed and try to forget
Forget

what's with coldplay??

omg lah their songs are all over mtv...everytime i turn on the tv i see them. with their new single, Lost. arghhh. so sickk. i mean, they're cool, but overhyped and OVERPLAYED. mtv, play some good music please. oh and you guys have to watch kanye west's new video, love lockdown. he can SING. well at least i think he can...with all that editing we can't be sure...

oh well yesterday had dance practice/training but for the first time with the DSAs. they're good, got the basics down alr =) haha they made the session yesterday damn hiong lah. cuz must start on a high note lol. it's kinda sad...i would have liked bonding with the seniors more first before getting them in. but it's a good thing too.

after practice went down to pp (yet again) for lunch with the class! yeah. good. very...unproductive. but that's v13 for you. met judith. yo judith. sorry for not chatting longer. no excuse =D and anyway, david archuleta's new album sold out. that's a really really good sign. shows just how much the people of the world LOVE david archie and find david cook...boring.

HAHAHAHA JONAS BROTHERS NO. 3 ON MTV =) AND DAVID ARCHULETA IS NO. 2!
no. 1 is britney with Womanizer. issit womaniZer or womaniSer? those damn americans.

ohyes and how could i forget? went to jj's house to night. didn't go cycling cuz of the rain. still had a whole lot of fun. watched Hannibal Rising again, and it was friggin good. as usual. but i must be gettting desenitised to the violence cuz i didn't feel as nervous. lol. or maybe cuz i know what's gonna happen. left after the horse-rope-tree-man part. that was the best lah. before that ordered pizza and got scammed. i swear i don't think i'll ever order pizza from 2 for 1 again. price of two large pizzas -- $37.50. whatthefuck? total ripoff! i mean, don't you find it overpriced?? should be thirty dollars lah. chicken isn't THAT expensive. after that mervyn and jj kinda got stuck on Gears Of War for awhile so i taught kash the guitar (hahahaha wo shi yi ge shi fu) and i rediscovered the guitar for myself again. haha. i really wish you and jj the best in ur lessons.

okay. so i've got something for the to-do-list. today after the audition i shall go and return my dvds. i hope they don't charge me because if i return in the afternoon it'll technically still be within the 5-day period (120 hours) =)

very very cute video.
Stars - Window Bird

hmmm i think i'm getting used to getting grounded.

my family has this fascination with the show "The Nanny". it's on hallmark channel. it's so...un-funny. lol. the lead woman is very capable though. she acts as the lead character and also the producer of the show. so yeah. the humour's okay...abit fake though...not as good as gossip girl.

WHAT is with that JONATHAN?! stupid bugger cheating on eric. so disgusting. eric should go and give him a piece of his mind. and simin, AARON'S NOT HOT AT ALL. he's a lying cheater who comes across as so obviously fake that sometimes you don't feel like trusting whatever he says anymore. actually what lily says is true. sometimes teens need someone other than a family member to talk to them for them to sort things out.
(p.s. look carefully at serena's eyes during the scene where aaron had cooked for her. they were really glowing. it seems like she really likes him. maybe in real life. how i saw it was when i paused the screen to reply an sms. then i looked up and serena just looked so...happy.)
oh well at least i got to see Connor Paolo in this ep! =) and he got a pivotal role too. MOREMOREMOREMORE.

a BIG THANK YOU TO LUCAS for sending me really good tips for paris. and wadee, berlin sounds like a grey bell city full of potential hitlers.

talk. let's talk.

don't trust me.

hell, i don't even trust myself much anymore.

so much for V for Vendetta.

all of a sudden, i feel very alone again.
and more and more vulnerable.
it's like i've been giving away pieces of myself to strangers.

it's the start of a very long weekend.
but firstly, what happened today.

it was willie's surprise bdae!
so we went down to surprise him.
gah amanda told him lah -.-''
so neeways it was really cool, and we thought we'd be staying for like half an hour at first.
and then we watched tv and then we were too lazy to go downstairs and find something to eat so willie's mom ordered pizza.
and after that we played cluedo!
haha. it was fun. although i couldn't really understand what was going on. my brain kinda died recently so waiting for it to wake up soon.
and then willie and jq got knocked out of the first round while gra and yazzie won.
then the second round, xh won! alone! and she was playing the game for the first time too. pro sia.

haha and that was kinda it. =)
(oh, talking to simin is very very confusing. it actually develops headaches. your thoughts just start spinning with every reply.)

hello people!
since i've got not much of an outside life yet, how about some videos!

Linda Kiraly - Can't Let Go
i've loved this song in the past so i think it's kinda like a flashback thing.
=) give it a try. it's full of energy and life.



Asa - So Beautiful
i've done a post on Asa (pronounced Asha) before.
song, beautiful. video, not too beautiful.
it's about her mother. i wish i could say that myself to my own.

hello everyone! it's been so long since i last saw any of you.
hah. grounded yesterday.
anyways nothing much is going on in my life right now.
thinking of taking japanese lessons but i'm gonna miss a week or two of it and that's not good.
anyway money's a huge priority in my family now.

when the barbeque/chalet thing again? i can't wait.
trying to sell off my avenue Q tix too, so anyone interested please contact me.
=)

nowadays i've just been on the com watching dramas and THE PINK PANTHER. boy, the movie's good.

prom night was so awesome. it's such a blur to me now. just happy feelings and excitement and perfect lights. and walking around.

and the rose.

thanks so much everyone. hahahaha. i feel at peace yet i so don't wanna feel it. it's the peace that comes after knowing that its one of the last times i'm gonna see everyone again. argh. even after some eyebrow-raising things that have happened the last two years, it's still so heartbreaking to let go. haha. oh well.

well right now, without school and the constant reminders of v13, nothing much's happening in my life right now. don't know what to do these few weeks before the holiday. and uh, i don't think getting a job is possible cuz i only have three weeks before i fly. and we're such disposables in the F&B world, don't you think?

it's amazing that i have three friggin dramas/soap operas to watch and yet i find myself feeling bored and restless cuz none of them have new episodes. darn you, gossip girl! p.s. thanks to jj who has finally finally finally started watching it. he's definitely not regretting =)

ah replied an sms and lost my train of thought. where was i.
oh yes.

so the prom was really great and all. with all the glamorous girls and the partying at the very last part. hooray now next prom we definitely know what to do. v13 rocks man. with all that hardcore dancing. and that norman with the white hair. like, wtf.

oh and don't forget to check the failblog often for more crazy shit. it actually makes me laugh. not many things make me laugh. =D

hmmhmmmhmm surfing the internet's a very solitary thing to do so i think i better go online before i drive myself nuts.

hellohello
hahahahaha let's enjoy this very almost final night.
and celebrate for more spirit and nights to come.

=)

hello everyone i'm back...for awhile. =)
good luck for the Os okay. and uh, yeah. XD
dunno what to say, for once.
the words'll come to me soon yeah!

I noticed tonight that the world has been turning
While I've been stuck here dithering around
Though I know I said I'd wait around till you need me
But I have to go, I hate to let you down

But I can't stop now
I've got troubles of my own
Cause I'm short on time
I'm lonely
And I'm too tired to talk

I noticed tonight that the world has been turning
While I've been stuck here withering away
Though I know I said I wouldn't leave you behind
But I have to go, it breaks my heart to say

To no one back home
I've got troubles of my own
And I can't slow down
For no one in town
And I can't stop now

The motion keeps my heart running

everyone falls.
just don't do it like this.

just finished watching episode 7 of gossip girl.
hah.
i could just spoil it for so many people.
but i shan't. =)

hmmm i've never thought about it but this is the last working week in the IP for me.
oh man.
i feel so sad now.
I'LL MISS YOU GUYS TOTALLY.
like everyone. (almost)

gah even though i don't want to, i'll get started on my thankyous. only to the 07v13ians who read my blog of course.
just hope i don't start tearing by the end.
anyway you guys won't be able to see it =P

in alphabetical order,
ADEEB.
for being such an awesome person. who tolerates me and listens so much and lets me talk for the both of us. for letting me be such a sick bigot at times =) for introducing black music and plays and for being a push factor for me. for not pushing your perfectly respectable theatre views on me. it wouldn't have worked anyway heh i think. please don't try. for letting me talk complete nonsense in front of him without walking away. who kept my dream of writing in music alive. thank you.

AMANDA.
you might be reading this, you might not be. for all the good times we had. for being the nodder while i was the talker. for furthering my random conversations. for looking at me oddly when i twisted my words to form incomprehensible utterings. for being and enduring chinese with me. for having such an unexplainable aura of peace around you. the save point of my school life. really. it's so amazing this gift that you have. use it well. yes, sweeney todd is hot. =) thank you.

ASYRAF.
for being such an ego. ugh. but it's a good ugh. for talking well. for making up silly things. for laughing at my jokes. for being such a good sport. for just being you. =) for ALWAYS OPPOSING ME WHEN SERENA ROCKS COMPARED TO BLAIR. oops. hah it's the final say anyway cuz this is my blog and i'll ignore whatever you put on the tagboard. for putting up with the short jokes. they're not actually jokes, they're true. for wearing that really nice uncreased blue sweater today in the freezing LT. for your really cool parents and family. =P thank you.

GABRIEL.
for being there for me. for me being there for you. for being such an awesome friend. for forever being the only other person loving bjork. for being open-minded. for putting up with my off-beatness. for confiding. for being a soccerboy. for everything that i've remembered but forgotten. thanks for being "an island in a floating sea of diarrhoea" - Jason Mraz. may you need me and may i be there for you. and vice versa. may you brush up on your popular culture references. take a page out of Asyraf's book. thank you.

GRACILIA.
for knowing you. for opening up my eyes to a whole new brand of girl power. for listening. for being. for naming your bat thing. for your strong encouragement. do you know the nameless, silent, encompassing essence of the v13 girls? it has a name now. its name is gracilia wong.
thank you. =)

KEVIN.
for being a doofus. for remaining secretly grounded amid the whirling chaos around you. for your new blue specs (i like!). for guiding us and always being there in your usual reliable self to egg on the slower birds. for being the only quiet one in the group. =) thank you.

LEONIE.
for secretly reading my blog. for being an awesome friend. for making me never ever forget you. for being friends with daphne. for being the captain in every way. for your encouragement. for your openness. for your sick-ness. for your advice and care and support. your closest match in gossip girl would be blair. really. with or without the sex drive. =) thank you.

LUCAS.
for being the palette of the art of 07v13. for your never-ending generosity and care. for your hard work and drive for the class. for your funky accent. for your brother with the awesome name. for your seemingly inexhaustible energy for each and every single person in the class. i know cuz i've experienced it before. it's a feeling i'll never forget. thank you.

NORMAN.
i know he'll never read this but i'll put this up anyway. NORMAN YOU SUCK. but in a really good way. you're a really natural leader. a leader has to suck sometimes. you do all the time. that's why i can safely say that we love you very much. i'm appealing to that speck of humanity inside you. don't dabble in stocks too much. you'll lose. for warming up to me only very recently, thank you. =)

SHERMAINE.
for being in the unbearable chinese class with me. for keeping your hair like that. XD for being distinctively french. for laughing along. for singing along. for dancing along. for giving me the spirit in words. for being so friggin imba in chinese. thank you. =)

SIMIN.
for being sweetly convoluted. for blabbering your inane thoughts out loud. for being a pillar of support. for being the drifting cloud. like sheeps' wool. for laughing without any reason. we both love the cripple button and we will one day meet up just to discuss that joke. or just laugh. and we shall get everyone else to admit that it's FUNNY, because it really is. for being remembered when i was deciding to go to the arts stream. ironically, you keep me grounded despite the logical confusion that you are. thank you.

WADEE.
for being the resident unintentional pervert of the class. for taking all our jokes in your stride. for putting up with us immature brats. for being born in the year B.C. 43654765. for your personality. for your terrible german (i'm sorry, i'm still getting used to it!). for tying the class together with strong fragile pink and green ribbons. for those bus rides. for drama-ing like crazy with those korean things. thank you.

XIANHUI.
for not posting in your blog anymore. i still go there in the hope that i can see more pics of you camwhoring big time. =) for also being in chinese class with me. for emitting sparks at random points in my life. for JON. =) i'll never get over that i swear. for knowing you. for the awesome fun it is being with you. for your bangs. for all the genuine laughter. =D thank you.

YASMIN.
for supporting david archuleta ALL THE WAY. yeah go david eh! for smiling. for your yellow Theodore hearts. for leaving those yellow Theodore hearts stuck in my head because they're just so...weird. for being with me for almost every single hardworkproject. for being the glue. for being so sparkly and shiny everyday. for all the IP experiences i've had with you. it's been so long and yet so damn short. thank you! smiles for you. =)))))))))))))))))DDD)D)D)D)D)D)D)D)D)D)D)D)D)D)D)D)D)D)DDD)D))D)D)D)DPPPPPP)DPD)DPD)DPD)DPD)DPD)DPD)DPD)DPD)DD)D)PDD)DPD)DPD)DPD)D

it's hard to let go, guys.
it's hard.
but thank you so much.
i don't feel like leaving now.
not now.

you know that thing about your insecurities creeping up on you?

it's true.

no thanks to the people who're supposed to be one of the closest to me.
and stand by me.
and not put me down for the wrong reasons.

Turn out the light
And what are you left with?
Open up my hands
And find out they're empty.
Press my face to the ground
I've gotta find a reason.
Just scratching around
For something to believe in;
Something to believe in.

The Cardigans - Don't Blame Your Daughter (Diamonds)
can you help me out with this song?
i don't know what it means but it's just this connection that i feel with it that's keeping me from thinking away.


And the song you sing today
Wasn't always in your head
The words you try to say
Are the ones you should've said
They're glistening like diamonds
Go out and find them
But don't blame your daughter

Read me your tombstone
Tell me you're sorry
Fax me your will
You owe me something still
Blood is like water
The bath that you poured me
Has drained and is gone
Don't blame it on your son

dammit.
chuck bass is growing on me.
just watch the interview! so deep!
his accent is like really really unexpected.

Ed Westwick Interview


"I'm Chuck Bass."




"If you thought that was long, you don't know what you're in for."
DAMN, CHUCK BASS!!

"You made your bet, now you have to lie in it."
fuck that's the best line so far. it's actually POETIC.
damn. gossip girl as an inspiration for poetry.
hmmm ERIC IS BACK!!! WITH A BF!!! hahaha. =) happy, happy day. and did he get better looking?! he seems to be.
poor vanessa though. she keeps getting hurt by the different guys in the show. first dan, then nate, then chuck. gah. i wonder who's next in line now that they've used up all three. please don't let it be eric he's seriously not THAT repulsive.

still getting used to the fact that chuck actually has a heart somewhere in there.
nate and dan, what a beautiful bromance.

finally, something i found on Charissa's blog.
phenomenal.

George Sampson

what's up.
i can't explain the peace i felt yesterday. must've been something to do with the God i call God.
thank you everyone for being there for me in all your ways, big or small. i'm starting to experience you really greatly.
um, nothing much is going on in my life right now i guess. at least nothing i can immediately think of in this semi-comatose state at home.
i kept wanting to write poems but i ended up forgetting anyway.
=)
i really want to though.
hahh.

thank you all again for making me feel alive.
it's something i will definitely not forget.
the song below is a godsend.
it helps me say the things that i can't express right now.

The Verve - Bittersweet Symphony


Well I never pray
But tonight I'm on my knees yeah
I need to hear some sounds that recognize the pain in me, yeah
I let the melody shine, let it cleanse my mind, I feel free now
But the airways are clean and there's nobody singing to me now

nuke forever.

Kylie Minogue - In My Arms



Hercules And Love Affair - Blind

I love you more
I love you more
I don't know what I knew before
But now I know I wanna win the war

No one likes to take a test
Sometimes you know more is less
Put your weight against the door
Kick drum on the basement floor
Stranded in a fog of words
Loved him like a winter bird
On my head the water pours
Gulf stream through the open door
Fly away
Fly away to what you want to make

okay, i can't help if i'm being stupid, or childish, or whatever.
but i'm seriously thinking too much and you can't deny however much i think that tonight has made me think.

and it's not good thinking.
and perhaps i shouldn't even think about it but not thinking about it is what got me into this shit in the first place.
maybe i'm feeling too much and thinking too much.
maybe this whole thing is just an indirect ploy to seek attention.
and i think i need it.
how stupid, dumb and whatever. but i can't help it.

gah.
someone take me away in a straitjacket please.
at least for awhile.

this is how it's supposed to look like.



i'm sick of feeling tired.
someone take me out.

i feel lethargic.
let me try to break it down.
i feel tired, drained, exhausted, dehydrated, passionless, sleepy, and numb.
i need something to set me on fire again.

sorry music right now i don't think you can help.

am i not rewarding myself enough?
am i stressing myself out on random, careless things that i should or should not be doing?
i really don't know.

My office glows all night long,
It's a nuclear show and the stars are gone
Elevator, elevator, take me home

Don't go. Say you'll stay
Spend a lazy Sunday in my arms
I won't take anything away

The night starts here, the night starts here
Forget your name, forget your fear
The night starts here, the night starts here
Forget your name, forget your fear

The ecstasy, the being free
A big black cloud over you and me
And after that, the upwards fall
And worry angels after all

The scar is a fleck on my porcelain skin
Tried to reach deep but you couldn't get in
Now you're outside me you see all the beauty
Repent all your sin

Take me, take me to the riot.

dance practice was tiring as usual. but fun =) joel's a very nice person hahaha.
i must not touch my face right after dancing and instead wash my hands before i do anything with them (including touching my face).
lol.

anyway after that had dinner with jj and kashish. JJ YOU'RE AS SICK AS EVER. which is a good thing. kashish don't shake your head, you definitely enjoyed the sick parts. =P funfunfun. thank you guys.

i think i'm mildly hedonistic.

oh today was great and i felt really tired but i think it's because of something that i don't really know. can't put my finger on it yet. and i'm typing because my fingers feel good on the keyboard. luke and noah are like the best lah i'm looking forward to watching them more than gossip girl. stupid 1-week break thing, i bet they lost tons of viewers because of that. it's the HYPE, stupid.

so right now all i can think about is going to sleep. this hasn't been a very fulfilling blogpost. i shall end off with a video that Pharrell is in. which is great of couse.

Madonna - Give It 2 Me


and i can't find a version of "Everyone Nose" by N*E*R*D. sigh. nvm i'll sing it. ALL THE GIRLS STANDING IN THE LINE FOR THE BATHROOM.

i need some colour in my blogposts, my world and my life.

it's so weird but i find i only post on near-alternate days. hmm.

today was super cool went visiting! asyraf's house, adeeb's house, then yazzie's house! hahaha it was a really fun day. choc-full of wii thingies and FOOD. ah chicken wings and pizzas and icecream. =) toomuchtoomuch. conditioning next wednesday hahahaha YAY.

i must be totally crazy.

neeways after that went to the cathay to meet d. so glad for you guys. makes me wanna go all out and get someone too XDDD treated me to dinner (zomg i still feel bad) and the takeaway chicken wing =P the food was really good and sorry for 1. being so late 2. not paying 3. not eating much hahahaha. after that smelled the smoky air and tasted the musty blinks of the city abstracts. thanks so much for the dinner and the night.

please listen. really moving song. i don't know what it is about them but Stars always makes me wanna cry.

Stars - Your Ex-Lover Is Dead



When there is nothing to burn
You have to set yourself on fire.

God that was strange to see you again
Introduced by a friend of a friend
Smiled and said 'yes I think we've met before'
In that instant it started to pour,
Captured a taxi despite all the rain
We drove in silence across Pont Champlain
And all of the time you thought I was sad
I was trying to remember your name...

This scar is a fleck on my porcelain skin
Tried to reach deep but you couldn't get in
Now you're outside me
You see all the beauty
Repent all your sin

It's nothing but time and a face that you lose
I chose to feel it and you couldn't choose
I'll write you a postcard
I'll send you the news
From a house down the road from real love...

Live through this, and you won't look back...
Live through this, and you won't look back...
Live through this, and you won't look back...

There's one thing I want to say, so I'll be brave
You were what I wanted
I gave what I gave
I'm not sorry I met you
I'm not sorry it's over
I'm not sorry there's nothing to save

it's 1am and i didn't sleep in the afternoon yesterday so now i'm like tired but kept awake by the adrenaline rush from dance practice.

hmmm my awesomeness friend the mysterious mr d is helping me with ________ =) thank you a bunches! without you i seriously wouldn't have even tried. hahahahaha.

so neeways wish me luck tomorrow for that presentation thingy. dance is fun. it's like that status quo song in high school musical except without the singing and the gabriella and the cheese fries and sharpay.

whatthehell.

hah adeeb you don't have to support anything cuz it's DONE.
in the same night that i posted the post.

ohmyfuckinggod. =)

so many things going through my head right now.
btw, NOAH OMG WILL YOU PLEASE GET ON WITH IT ALREADY AND FACE IT! I MEAN, I JUST DID. YOU SHOULD TOO. AND NOT WAIT UNTIL ANY MORE EPISODES. GOD. =))) GO LUKE. HANG IN THERE.

it's amazing how time can pass so quickly and in a moment, you're shocked that you spent and hour and a half just watching the drama unfold. ah i am happy. i really am. i've got so many other things to do and/or worry about but right now it's time to suspend my life and my disbelief and accept everything that's going on on the computer screen. and keep living it like a drug.

yesyesyseysyeyseyesyysyeyseysyeeysyeeysyesyeyesyseyeysyesyesyeyseyseyeysyeeseyeysyes!!!

my worries are keeping me awake every night.

how i'm going to start.
how i'm going to break the news.
how i'm going to handle the pressure.
how i'm going to be after the repeated failings and the routines.
how i'm going to be in the group.

how all this might keep me from enjoying myself.

i'm just very scared.
i can't even do that first step.
i've done the pre-steps, now is just the execution.
then the follow through.
i really hope i haven't made the wrong decision or anything because i still feel so strongly about it, it's just that all these things are making me wonder and doubt.
and they're winning.

(but not for long, i hope)

i'm listening to this right now.
tell me what you think.

Fleet Foxes - White Winter Hymnal

it's a friday. watched eagle eye. VERY FUN MOVIE. the action scenes will actually make you tired. =) an experience like no other. and no cheap thrills either. love it.

Joanna Newsom - Sprout And The Bean



i really enjoy this song. just watch how her fingers crawl over the strings like very skilled spiders. the song was used in a horror movie...i don't know whether to be happy or upset about it. it's just too beautiful to be abused like that.
spotted. g listening to joanna newsom. careful, g, this might be too out of your dumb botak head playlist. (daughtry)

BJORK'S NEW VIDEO IS OUT. it's not as good as "Declare Independence" though. but worth a watch. there are three distinct segments...i liked the first one the most.

Bjork feat. Antony Hegarty - The Dull Flame Of Desire

yes oh yes i'm finally blogging on my mac! =)
that means finally i'm gonna have some pictures that i have taken in the past months throughout my life as an IP2.
heh NOT.

oh so that day we went to marina for some weird reason...i think it was like seoul garden or something. yeah and took a look at the famous puma changing rooms...and we needed an excuse to walk into those rooms so i had a look around for interesting stuff.

WHO KNEW THERE WERE NON-HALAL SHOES!!! or, as jieqi would have put it, HALAR. well done jq, well done.

seeing that i already have a mat gang from GO, why not show you some of my mat friends? this is firdaus. i think. as you can see, he has a serious case of lockjaw. and his head is too big... OH WAIT, it's the floating cap style. yeah. KOOL SIA.

went somewhere else...and found this.

mr lee must probably shop at this place. doesn't it just look like him??? that shows he's actually pulling off the look really really well.

the F1!

just look at the car zooming past. it's a friggin blur. i do have more pictures but they're all like that. and THE NOISE. omg. indescribable. really.

"dude, that guy was staring at my crotch."

i don't really know why i took this picture. so weird. i mean. just look at it.

finally, my dog. awesomely adorable. better than any pom (which can be found on streets). RATS.



i'm also very glad to say that i have rediscovered my passion for music. through the guitar. thank you music god, whoever you are.

and ohshit i think i made a mistake in my t3a. should've replaced something with something else. argh. =(