what am i supposed to say when i'm all choked up and you're okay?

my windows OS is down.
it's a blessing in disguise.
because we have no money to buy the leopard to update, i'm learning with the mac.

and boy, is it beautiful. it's so beautiful that i stop to wonder how i've missed out for so long.
it has everything i need.
and it does everything so beautifully.

haha. well that was a filler paragraph. just like today. it was so boring. i've got nothing to say, even though i desperately need to find things to say, just to tell people about how i'm feeling or what i wanna say or do.

okay.

well, happy chinese new year. from now on that's probably the only chinese related thing that i'm going to endure for hours at a time. =) and there's money involved. i'm the one winning.
i want a class outing.
wouldn't it be absolutely poetic and amazing if there was this person, who was always the core of our class, organising and planning things for us to enjoy, and if his or her birthday were to fall on the last day of school and us as a class, and we go out with him or her and have a hell lot of fun, and in the end it'll probably be the best and most meaningful birthday ever.

hmm i'll have to rephrase that, or you do that for me, as long as you know what i mean and think about the beauty of it.