Come with me, stay the night
You say the words but boy it don't feel right
What do you expect me to say (You know it's just too little too late)
You take my hand, and you say you've changed
But boy you know your beggin don't fool me
Because to you it's just a game

So let me on down
Cause time has made me strong
I'm starting to move on
I'm gonna say this now
Your chance has come and gone
And you know

It's just too little too late
A little too wrong
And I can't wait
Boy you know all the right things to say (You know it's just too little too late)
You say you dream of my face
But you don't like me
You just like the chase
To be real, it doesn't matter anyway (You know it's just too little too late)

I was young and in love
I gave you everything but it wasn't enough
And now you wanna communicate
Go find someone else
In lettin you go, I'm lovin myself
You gotta problem
But don't come askin me for help
Cause ya know

It's just too little too late
A little too wrong
And I can't wait
Boy you know all the right things to say (You know it's just too little too late)
You say you dream of my face
But you don't like me
You just like the chase
To be real, it doesn't matter anyway (You know it's just too little too late)

I can love with all of my heart baby
I know I have so much to give (I have so much to give)
With a player like you, I don't have a prayer
That's the way to live, yeah oh

It's just too little, too late
Yeah

It's just too little too late
A little too wrong
And I can't wait
Boy you know all the right things to say (You know it's just too little too late)
You say you dream of my face
But you don't like me
You just like the chase
To be real, it doesn't matter anyway (You know it's just too little too late)


should i go for 3rd period pe. at least it's in the morning. but still.

as an afterthought, songs that helped me through that time.
Avril Lavigne - How Does It Feel, I'm With You, Take Me Away, (When You're Gone)
Nelly Furtado - Try
Paramore - When It Rains, That's What You Get
Gwen Stefani - Early Winter
Keane - Leaving So Soon?
and a few precious others.

today was an interesting day.
interestingly enough, the only colour i remember clearly today is ms low's really cool faded-purple hair.

Belle & Sebastian - White Collar Boy

p.s. while putting up the fantastic pink pics...i was so tempted to put the really nice PINK one with Gavan + Caine XDDDD

argh this is an update with an explicitly frustrated mood. i can't even find the right diction to use to convey my tone and therefore the mood. -.-''
STUPIDSTUPIDSTUPID maths it just had to come in and spoil my day. it was going so well. then all these other formulae had to come in and confuse and frustrate the shit out of me. YES, i'm naming you, the DOUBLE-ANGLE FORMULAE, R-FORMULAE and FACTOR FORMULAE. damn you. life would be so much simpler right now without you. i wish they would have just pushed them back to later when we are more familiar with trigo. just stop at the addition formulae, and maybe add in one more topic, not PILE the three together and stress students out.

Oh boy, it's Gavan's birthday today! He's even more old!
Play a happy birthday song for yourself, Gavan!
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY GAVAN. gavan is licchan's.

ahhhh i just read that BSS is coming to singapore. i know people've been saying that for like a month now but READING IT on PAPER really confirms it and i'm HAPPY.
although it's gonna be at the esplanande concert hall and there probably wont be anyone moshing and running around and jostling and then there won't be any atmosphere but at least i'll get to see someone interesting LIVE and for the first time go to a concert that can actually be called a concert. lol.

my mortal totally rocks my sox her letters are really easy to respond to and her gifts are like WHOA. =) brown teddy bear my fave. and the 1 3 candles.
for my next letter i'm hoping to get--


well something happened that day when i was going to parkway to buy a gift and (if i couldnt resist) a CD which i really shouldnt have thought of buying cuz i was overspending during the week.
anyway, i was on my way out when i met germaine (i hardly talk to her, let alone meet her at the bus stop. coincidence?) and she told me that i should take 16 which just came (coincidence? i think not.) on the bus ride there i was thinking that i would definitely get a CD, but my conscience was nagging me not to. then it started drizzling and i didnt have an umbrella which i usually brought to school. ho hum. then, at the cross junction before the stop at parkway, the bus TURNED. lol. oh dear. the bus led me straight to katong mall, and there was (surprise surprise,) a Cold Storage. which sold chocolates. no CD shops to tempt me there, and the rain stopped me from walking to parkway just a 5 minute walk away without the rain. just chocolate and a wide cheap selection of goodies. i saved 10 bucks that day.
then, today on friday night, after a really good run, my dad came home and passed me, out of the dark blue, a golden 20 dollar Borders voucher. =DDDDDD

dear sweet baby jesus, trying to prove you are there?
well, i'm closer to believing.


as i was saying before i kinda rudely interrupted myself, i had this really great idea for an Angel&Mortal gift. it's like this. i got simin to fold my letter into something rather compact. then i put it in two layers of good ol' ziplock bags. then, i go to parkway and make a hell of a fool of myself by asking the bubble tea man to put my stuff into the bubble tea cup and of course, fill the cup up with my gift. then the seal will come on and TAH-DAH! a nice little letter in a gift. =)


there was also the chinese presentation...which i was really proud of, our slides were amazing. i was so worried it would seem substandard. i dont really have much powerpoint experience...but thanks to shermaine's little guidances, i managed to make it look satisfactory, with the small efforts i put in. shermaine's a really cool groupmate.

gross.
sometimes i really WONDER why.

that's good. =)

i should stop being sentimental EVER SO slightly though.
my paper heart.
damn, it's a bittersweet feeling.

it was just me tonight.
just me.
looking back, this has been a contented day.

i'm satisfied with myself.
because tonight, i finally enjoyed work. by being with myself and blocking out any other noise with the pleasant music filling my ears. i worked non-stop for two hours. the first time in my life that i can remember clearly.

i'm learning. to help myself. in my small ways.
sleep. not.


i have no regrets taking loss in poetry.
my class is great.
i'm finally finding something constructive to do, that i enjoy developing, in class.
it's funny isn't it, how seeing and experiencing other peoples' pain through poetry, i am able to feel at ease.

i just realised i used the word enjoy quite a few times.

today, i have also tried a song that i have never listened to before, and i enjoyed it. lol.
Björk- Enjoy

"The Modern Things"

all the modern things
like cars and such
have always existed

they've just been waiting in a mountain
for the right moment

listening to the irritating noises
of dinosaurs and people
dabbling outside

all the modern things
have always existed
they've just been waiting

to come out
and multiply
and take over

it's their turn now...

Share with me the blankets that youre wrapped in
because its cold outside (cold outside) its cold outside
share with me the secrets that you kept in
because its cold inside cold inside its cold inside

and your slowly shaking finger tips
show that youre scared like me so
let's pretend we're alone
and I know you may be scared
and I know we're unprepared
but I don't care

tell me tell me
what makes you think that you are invincible
I can see it in your eyes that youre so sure
please don't tell me that I am the only one that's vulnerable
impossible

I was born to tell you I love you
isn't that a song already
I get a B in originality
and it's true I cant go on without you
your smile makes me see clearer
if you could only see in the mirror what I see

and your slowly shaking finger tips
show that youre scared like me so
let's pretend we're alone
and I know you may be scared
and I know we're unprepared
but I don't care

tell me tell me
what makes you think that you are invincible
I can see it in your eyes that you're so sure
please don't tell me that I am the only one that's vulnerable
impossible

slow down girl youre not going anywhere
just wait around and see
maybe I am much more you never know what lies ahead
I promise I can be anyone I can be anything
just because you were hurt doesn't mean you shouldn't bleed
I can be anyone anything I promise I can be what you need

tell me tell me
what makes you think that you are invincible
I can see it in your eyes that your so sure
please don't tell me that I am the only one that's vulnerable
impossible

friday.

the party screwed up.
it went like this.
two weeks before, my mom wrapped up a present for my friend without asking me whether i needed a present or not. on friday, i left the house and met up with my friends at the mrt. after much headache on getting to SAFRA Changi, and my own fucking money spent on the cab ride, my mom just had to call and ask whether i brought the fucking present. of course i forgot about the damn thing, she just doesnt fucking get it that i'm forgetful and i've made mistakes like that so many times over. over that tiny litte thing, bitch-fitting as usual, fucking pmsing, she asked me to drop the party and meet her for dinner (and probably a screaming) at Geylang. what the fuck. you KNOW that i'm at changi, the most inconvenient place to get a cab, and you want me to come down to Geylang, and ruin my evening that i was totally looking forward to? screw you, bitch. my friday night was fucked because of you. FUCK IT, CAN'T YOU JUST STOP BOOBY TRAPPING MY LIFE WITH UNNECESSARY THINGS LIKE THAT? and stop complaining about being unappreciated. you wanna be appreciated? leave me alone. i'd like that so much. stop DOING. i'm sick of it.

it serves you right that whatever's happening to you is happening to you right now.

i feel sick.
i'll lose myself in work this weekend.

back to internet explorer for awhile cuz firefox's not working.

omg ie sucks. it's like being in the dinosaur age of computers.

today was absolute torture. 6 periods straight of the most excruciating subjects - Math, Chinese and then Chem. my worst/most un-favourite subjects.

chinese was very demoralising. failed the re-paper even after two months of hard work. i feel like i let myself and my teachers down. i dont know why i cant look at gcc in the eye now. sitting beside yiwen didnt really help either.

the only saving grace was LA. which wasn't relatively good, but still better than the rest.

after school i wanted to run. but spent some time with friends instead, which was worth it as well. at least it was time well spent. finished up math. =)

well, yesterday evening the bowling tryouts were held. i really enjoyed seeing the juniors...made new friends such as Annabel and Mark and ZY, who are from 08v13! Eileen from v12 as well. MH caught my eye too...weird, never saw him in school before. poor leonie was sick, shitting her guts out. she's great, she makes everything sound so funny. oh yeah, Alfred's ball caught Geraldine's eye too. haha.

The Concretes - You Can't Hurry Love

wah so tired. dont feel like thinking, but feel like posting. pictures. =)






Paramore - We Are Broken

I am outside
And I've been waiting for the sun.
With my wide eyes,
I've seen worlds that don't belong.

My mouth is dry,
With words I cannot verbalize.
Tell me why,
We live like this.

Keep me safe inside.
Your arms like towers,
Tower over me, yeah.

'Cause we are broken.
What must we do to restore,
Our innocence,
And all the promise we adored?
Give us life again,
Cause we just wanna be whole.

Lock the doors,
'Cause I'd like to capture this voice.
It came to me tonight,
So everyone will have a choice.

And under red lights,
I'll show myself it wasn't forged.
We're at war,
We live like this...

Keep me safe inside.
Your arms like towers,
Tower over me.

'Cause we are broken.
What must we do to restore,
Our innocence,
And all the promise we adored?
Give us life again,
'Cause we just wanna be whole.

(Ahh...Ahh...)
Tower over me... (Ahh...)
Tower over me... (Ahh...)

And I'll take the truth at any cost.

'Cause we are broken.
What must we do to restore,
Our innocence,
And all the promise we adored?
Give us life again,
'Cause we just wanna be whole.

i swear, gavan and caine rule.

ah the camp. it was quite brilliant, minus the hungriness that i felt sometimes. did so many things and enjoyed each others' company. damn, dunno whether to regret not staying up all the way or not. I WAS SOOO TIRED OKAY. didnt even say goodnite properly. bleah.
haha, that was also the first time i saw mcdelivery!!! the bag very cool leh. got zips all over. the coffee was DISGUSTING though, i never thought coffee could taste so bad in such an established food company. even the camp one was better!! but, the sausage mcmuffin was great. best i've ever tasted.
the camp food was relatively good. kanishk kept throwing away his food though...i think it's such a waste. i would have eaten it if i wasnt that full already. i couldnt even stand throwing away my extra chicken drumstick. heh. it's one of my little nuances i suppose.



bus rides were something else i remembered. sitting with gabby was so fun. GABBY lol. the word really sticks you know. i bet yasmin came up with it. haha anyway, he really humoured me to the MAX lor. respect man. we listened to so many of my fave songs without him giving any snide comments that would've pulled my self esteem all the way down. thanks =)
the camp games were cool too. Sara was awesome. i liked murder mayhem the most...it's something about solving a mystery that never loses its replayability. renjie was great. our presentation became a rap cuz of him. =)
GROUP 7 ROCKS. GO GAY GREYHOUNDS! yasmin, simin, michelle, renjie, sulin, amos, daphne, liu shuang, jin(g) rong, yingsi and me. and i bet, we technically have two more members as well who would join us if they had the chance to. =X nevermind...

hmm, anything else worth mentioning in the camp? i cant seem to remember right now. gimme a tag pls.

i'm already looking back and it seems that the fun we had during these two weeks will always stay with me.
i hope we'll stay strong during these ten weeks and make that last day the best ever.

*When the power of love overcomes the love of power.*
that's truly the greyhounds' motto.
The Futureheads - Hounds of Love (where we got our name from, partly.) the song's brill. if you can tag me the artist of the original version, i'll buy you a drink. seriously. NOT mcdonald's coffee though.

Amongst your hounds of loving
I feel your arms surrounding me
I've always been a coward
and I don't know what's good for me

*this lovely thing was lifted from licchan's blog.

Go to the Wikipedia home page and click random article. That is your band's name.
Click random article again; that is your album name.
Click random article 15 more times; those are the tracks on your album.

Candles on Bay Street - Grand Divide
1. Condorman
2. Torre Entel
3. New Territory, Texas
4. Natal Astrology
5. Somerset Light Infantry
6. Waikaka Branch
7. Kasarani Constituency
8. Alderwoods Group
9. Wet Wing
10. Life Is Sweet
11. Musgrave Park
12. Posterior mediastinum
13. Sycamore Hill Writer's Workshop
14. Kurchatov Medal
15. Broome Country Transit

haha, most of the names look like they're something that Matthew Bellamy came up with. i love my band name! the album title sounds like a pop album. huh. Tracks 1 and 2 are alternative rock hits i bet. Track 3 could be from the Cardigans with their use of commas in I Need Some Fine Wine, And You, You Need To Be Nicer. Track 5 does sound like a great band name. track 10...ew.

do the quiz as you wish! i aint tagging.

You say I only hear what I want to.
You say I talk so all the time so.
And I thought what I felt was simple,
and I thought that I don't belong,
and now that I am leaving,
now I know that I did something wrong 'cause I missed you.
Yeah yeah, I missed you.
And you say I only hear what I want to:
I don't listen hard,
don't pay attention to the distance that you're running
to anyone, anywhere,
I don't understand if you really care,
I'm only hearing negative: no, no, no.
So I turned the radio on, I turned the radio up,
and this woman was singing my song:
lover's in love, and the other's run away,
lover is crying 'cause the other won't stay.
Some of us hover when we weep for the other who was
dying since the day they were born.
Well, well, this is not that;
I think that I'm throwing, but I'm thrown.
And I thought I'd live forever, but now I'm not so sure.
You try to tell me that I'm clever,
but that won't take me anyhow, or anywhere with you.
You said that I was naive,
and I thought that I was strong.
I thought, "hey, I can leave, I can leave."
Oh, but now I know that I was wrong, 'cause I missed you.
Yeah, I miss you.

Lisa Loeb - Stay (I Missed You)

how friggin obvious.
no wait, i should get over this already.
well, it's a habit i guess. so tough to stop.
i just keep hoping and hoping and hoping.
no, i'm just raising my hopes. *higherhigher*

damn, Roisin Murphy just keeps getting better and better every time i listen to her.
hope everyone has a great time at the sleepover tmr!
our wake up call is 8am...so much later than when most of us actually wake up on normal days.
MOST.
*ahem gabriel*

whee back to blogging!!

exams are finally overrr.
oh, getting wet totally rocks.
it was a perfect perfect night.
i enjoyed myself so much...and i really hope they enjoyed my company too!
i feel so good about myself. hee.
i like giving people what i can give or do without making them feel bad about it.
i like talking to people and just being fun or helping them out with good advice...or at least useful ones.
i liked that night. =)


you know those off-beat kinda days?
i feel like Sea Lion by Feist every time it happens. haha!
it does work. the off beat things.


I didn't give a damn what you said to me
I don't really care what you think of me
'Cause either way you're gonna think what you believe
There's nothing you could say that would hurt me

I'm better off without you anyway
I thought it would be hard but I'm okay
I don't need you if you're gonna be that way
'Cause with me it's all or nothing

I'm sick of this shit
Don't deny
You're a waste of time
I'm sick of this shit
Don't ask why
=) no, i just felt like singing it, i dont mean you.
ATTITUDE.

maybe i'm expecting too much from life.
or maybe the wrong things.
or i'm probably expecting too much anyway.

is it wrong?

or can i change it slowly and painfully......?

heh, no one crashed in the end. so it was just me again. no, not just me, the whole of Valour-Van Helsing! you guys rock so much. Leo totally gets it! =)

oh my friggin god it's almost 10pm and i'm not sleeping yet.

bleah, dont really feel like posting.
today was an interesting non-blogging kinda day.

i gotta admit, after going through it once, the second time doesnt seem as enchanting.

Nothing can come close
To this familiar feeling
We say it all without
Ever speaking

Roisin Murphy - Let Me Know

i'm tired.
i didnt realise it until about 9pm today.

you know what's the greatest thing about being a blogger?

it's when you come back from so many days of hiatus and see lots of people tagging on your blog with their wellwishing and their conversations even though you havent posted anything.
i think it's really cool of you guys. (and gals.)

thank you.

happy new year everyone! i feel like this new year's day's been made already. =)

Ashlee Simpson - Outta My Head (Ay Ya Ya)

lol, blogger's in denial. it doesnt want 2007 to stop. just look at the date of my post.

quite happy with how my project's turning out...Shermaine's a great groupmate. it's great having her around to help so much...i was also trying my best to help in any way except chinese. =D cuz i wasn't really much of a help then.
IP orientation camp was really good i think. so many different activities...oh and looking back the weather was great too, so it didnt mess anything up.
rather worried now for the repapers...but also really resentful that my schedule's so messed up. i mean, can't the school just let up the workshops for once and let the inter-cohort bonding take place? it's the bloody start of the year for heaven's sake. it's the friendships that make vj a better place.
heh, am i superficial and un-deep? i seem to think so, in my conversations. but i don't know what else i need to see. so it translates to my belief in myself. maybe it's just society and their unconscious selfishness. like, something that leads to separation and ostracism.

Broken Social Scene - 7/4 (Shoreline)
kinda prefer Feist when she's rocking out.

I LIKE BEING CLEAN. =)

so tired, my parents have been very irritating, waking me up every morning, drawing the curtains at the ungodly hour of 9am and blasting the demo songs on the piano to wake me up. feel like slitting their throats with a transparent silver knife every time they do that. haha!

anyway, christmas was okay. turned out to be different...in a weird way haha. felt so stone the whole day...church didnt even feel like christmastime church. does growing up do that to you? =(

I
Am
Legend
looks like a good/great movie!!! shall i go see it on new years' eve? *wink*

hmm i dunno, that just wasnt very nice of him to do that, especially so early in the year. it might affect the class bonding and stuff. i'm definitely affected by it. everyone's split up. and more importantly, how the heck am i gonna crash if the schedule's like that? lol.

anyway, just bought Siobhan Donaghy's album, Ghosts. not bad. will probably grow into me as i listen to it more. it's more accessible than Feist, definitely.
and that brings us to, renjie. sigh. well, i should really have expected it. i mean, how can someone just leave his old mates like that and join us? i should have seen that he would (or could) do that to us as well. people wont like it if he keeps doing that. i dunno, i feel kinda disappointed and sad but hopeful as well. i guess i just see the bad sides of good people, and good sides of people who i should see the bad sides of.

hehe, this has been the most understated, calm, uncomplicated post i've posted in a long time. it's good to simplify, you know? i feel like barley.

okay, i cant hide it anymore, i know it's trivial, but ARGH!!!

I SO TOTALLY WANT THAT PSP SLIM/LITE. =DDDDDDD

i called it off.
im sorry.

hope you're okay.


=)

On a lighter note, MY WISHLIST FOR CHRISTMAS.

i've been very into the female artist-alternative pop types these few days. hm.

Roisin Murphy - Overpowered
Siobhan Donaghy - Ghosts
Sophie Ellis-Bextor - Read My Lips, Trip The Light Fantastic
Paprika Original Soundtrack by Susumu Hirasawa

Rose Pink PSP Lite Console pack.