it was just me tonight.
just me.
looking back, this has been a contented day.

i'm satisfied with myself.
because tonight, i finally enjoyed work. by being with myself and blocking out any other noise with the pleasant music filling my ears. i worked non-stop for two hours. the first time in my life that i can remember clearly.

i'm learning. to help myself. in my small ways.
sleep. not.


i have no regrets taking loss in poetry.
my class is great.
i'm finally finding something constructive to do, that i enjoy developing, in class.
it's funny isn't it, how seeing and experiencing other peoples' pain through poetry, i am able to feel at ease.

i just realised i used the word enjoy quite a few times.

today, i have also tried a song that i have never listened to before, and i enjoyed it. lol.
Björk- Enjoy

"The Modern Things"

all the modern things
like cars and such
have always existed

they've just been waiting in a mountain
for the right moment

listening to the irritating noises
of dinosaurs and people
dabbling outside

all the modern things
have always existed
they've just been waiting

to come out
and multiply
and take over

it's their turn now...