you know what's the greatest thing about being a blogger?

it's when you come back from so many days of hiatus and see lots of people tagging on your blog with their wellwishing and their conversations even though you havent posted anything.
i think it's really cool of you guys. (and gals.)

thank you.

happy new year everyone! i feel like this new year's day's been made already. =)

Ashlee Simpson - Outta My Head (Ay Ya Ya)

lol, blogger's in denial. it doesnt want 2007 to stop. just look at the date of my post.

quite happy with how my project's turning out...Shermaine's a great groupmate. it's great having her around to help so much...i was also trying my best to help in any way except chinese. =D cuz i wasn't really much of a help then.
IP orientation camp was really good i think. so many different activities...oh and looking back the weather was great too, so it didnt mess anything up.
rather worried now for the repapers...but also really resentful that my schedule's so messed up. i mean, can't the school just let up the workshops for once and let the inter-cohort bonding take place? it's the bloody start of the year for heaven's sake. it's the friendships that make vj a better place.
heh, am i superficial and un-deep? i seem to think so, in my conversations. but i don't know what else i need to see. so it translates to my belief in myself. maybe it's just society and their unconscious selfishness. like, something that leads to separation and ostracism.

Broken Social Scene - 7/4 (Shoreline)
kinda prefer Feist when she's rocking out.

I LIKE BEING CLEAN. =)

so tired, my parents have been very irritating, waking me up every morning, drawing the curtains at the ungodly hour of 9am and blasting the demo songs on the piano to wake me up. feel like slitting their throats with a transparent silver knife every time they do that. haha!

anyway, christmas was okay. turned out to be different...in a weird way haha. felt so stone the whole day...church didnt even feel like christmastime church. does growing up do that to you? =(

I
Am
Legend
looks like a good/great movie!!! shall i go see it on new years' eve? *wink*

hmm i dunno, that just wasnt very nice of him to do that, especially so early in the year. it might affect the class bonding and stuff. i'm definitely affected by it. everyone's split up. and more importantly, how the heck am i gonna crash if the schedule's like that? lol.

anyway, just bought Siobhan Donaghy's album, Ghosts. not bad. will probably grow into me as i listen to it more. it's more accessible than Feist, definitely.
and that brings us to, renjie. sigh. well, i should really have expected it. i mean, how can someone just leave his old mates like that and join us? i should have seen that he would (or could) do that to us as well. people wont like it if he keeps doing that. i dunno, i feel kinda disappointed and sad but hopeful as well. i guess i just see the bad sides of good people, and good sides of people who i should see the bad sides of.

hehe, this has been the most understated, calm, uncomplicated post i've posted in a long time. it's good to simplify, you know? i feel like barley.

okay, i cant hide it anymore, i know it's trivial, but ARGH!!!

I SO TOTALLY WANT THAT PSP SLIM/LITE. =DDDDDDD

i called it off.
im sorry.

hope you're okay.


=)

On a lighter note, MY WISHLIST FOR CHRISTMAS.

i've been very into the female artist-alternative pop types these few days. hm.

Roisin Murphy - Overpowered
Siobhan Donaghy - Ghosts
Sophie Ellis-Bextor - Read My Lips, Trip The Light Fantastic
Paprika Original Soundtrack by Susumu Hirasawa

Rose Pink PSP Lite Console pack.

you are dangerous.

your life is still so shut off from me.


one day with my parents.
just one.
is enough to irritate the shit out of me.
i mean, why cant they just accept me for who i am?
i enjoy my sports. i really do.
but, forcing me do play stuff when im just not in the mood to do so is just rubbish.
utter fuck.
what is it with them and computers? they think it's the main cause of all their problems between us.
why dont they just ask me whether i want to or not? and if i say no, why can't they just let it be? why do they have to be so insistent? havent i gone along with them so much?
one day they're just going to have to accept that i'm different from them.
argh. i dont have the guts to explain either, they'll just knock me down with their eloquence and twisted logic again and again and again and use the situation to their future advantage.

Sophie Ellis-Bextor - Music Gets the Best of Me

what i'm trying to say is, i can't trust people easily and you're not one that i can trust easily.

bleah, i need inspiration to run today. but if i get someone to run with me...can't be bothered to plan haha. okay. i shall use my cd as a way to fuel myself.

Here are a list of CDs that i have some intention of getting.
but i can only choose one today...and i dont know which one. lol.

Coldplay - A Rush Of Blood To The Head
Interpol - Our Love To Admire / Antics
The Concretes - The Concretes
Sophie Ellis-Bextor - Read My Lips / Trip The Light Fantastic
Gwen Stefani - Love. Angel. Music. Baby
Joanna Newsom - Ys
Feist - Let It Die / The Reminder
Arcade Fire - Funeral
Bat For Lashes - Fur And Gold
Muse - Black Holes And Revelations
Within Temptation - The Heart Of Everything / The Silent Force

hmm...

Evanescence - Lithium (Acoustic)
Amy Lee's voice is immaculate.

suddenly i saw your name and it all came rushing back.

what am i doing?!

flickers of what might happen are running through my head sometimes.
it's very dangerous.
i've dragged myself in too deep alr?
do i have the guts to stop it if it happens?
lol. why did i do it in the first place.
probably Aries, huh.

seriously, people can be so stupid sometimes. despite what's already drilled into your subconscious. there's surely something that you'll fall for, without yourself knowing in the first place.

im not sure that i can call this a healthy experience anymore.
that's why i've been trying to talk as much as possible, get to know.

haha, people, i'm not depressed or anything. i'm just thinking aloud. it'll be interesting to know what you think.

Beyonce - Me, Myself and I

I've been so blind
It feels right when it's wrong.

hello davier.

Paprika is an amazing anime movie. possibly the best that i've seen.

highly recommended.

just as an afterthought, the soundtrack of the movie is wonderful. really matches the colourful mood of the movie! bloody brilliant.

Susumu Hirasawa - Mediational Field
Susumu Hirasawa - The Girl in Byakkoya

p.s. Please do not hesitate asking me for the link! arigato!

HAHAHAHA MAYBE WE REALLY WEREN'T CUT OUT FOR EACH OTHER CUZ RIGHT AFTER I TALK TO YOU I JUST FEEL LIKE FUCKING BREAKING SOMETHING OR SLAMMING A YELLOW ALUMINIUM BASEBALL BAT AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN AGAINST THE WALL!!! =)))))DDDDDDDD

IT TOOK ME WAY LONGER THAN THE REST BUT MAYBE THEY WERE RIGHT AFTER ALL AND I'M ALWAYS ABIT SLOW AND YOURE AN ASS. no, that's not nice to say about someone. so i shant call you anything.

DO I ENJOY THIS? i dont KNOW anymore. HURRY UP SHAUN. or Joe. whoever you are.
im sure i/you can find someone else who's wayyyyy better.

there's no RIGHT or WRONG answer when talking to you. i have to REMEMBER that.
i might be slow but im thorough when it comes to this.
i'll learn. the painful way. i might grit my teeth and scream in my mind but i have probably no choice but to go down there. or i can just stop and climb out of that tunnel.
God, is this a test? to see how delirious i can get before i crack? haha!!

just one regret right now, that i told that eenie meenie spiderweb lie. see. i told you i had to learn the hard way. grr. oh well. might as well *try* to enjoy it.

Tsukiko Amano - Fukurou

i don't know anymore.
i really wish i were Delirium.

I cannot find a way to describe it
It's there inside
All I do is hide
I wish that it would just go away
What would you do
You do if you knew
What would you do

All the pain
I thought I knew
All the thoughts lead back to you
Back to what
Was never said
Back and forth
Inside my head
I can't handle this confusion
I'm unable come and take me away

I feel like
I'm all alone
All by myself I need to get around this
My words are cold
I don't want them to hurt you
If I show you
I don't think you'd understand
Cause no one understands

You must think I'm a fool
So prosaic and awkward and all
D'you think you've got me down?
D'you think I've never been out of this town?

Do I seem too eager to please to you now?
You don't know me at all
I can't turn it on, turn it off like you now
I'm not like you ... now

Now you're here
I bet you're wishing you could disappear
I'm trying to be kind
I get the feeling you're just killing time

You look down on me
Don't you look down on me now
You don't know me at all
A slap in the face
In the face for you now
Just might do now

i'm not afraid of anything
i just need to know that i can breathe
i don't need much of anything
but suddenly...
i am small and the world is big
all around me is fast moving
surrounded by so many things
but suddenly, suddenly

how does it feel to be
different from me
are we the same
how does it feel to be
different from me
are we the same
how does it feel

i am young and i am free
but i get tired and i get weak
i get lost and i can't sleep
but suddenly, suddenly,

would you comfort me
would you cry with me
i am small and the world is big
but i'm not afraid of anything

And when it rains,
On this side of town it touches, everything.
Just say it again and mean it.
We don't miss a thing.
You made yourself a bed
At the bottom of the blackest hole
And convinced yourself that
It's not the reason you don't see the sun anymore

And oh, oh, how could you do it?
Oh I, I never saw it coming.
Oh, oh, I need the ending.
So why can't you stay
Just long enough to explain?

And when it rains,
Will you always find an escape?
Just running away,
From all of the ones who love you,
From everything.
You made yourself a bed
At the bottom of the blackest hole
And you'll sleep 'til May
And you'll say that you don't want to see the sun anymore

And oh, oh, how could you do it?
Oh I, I never saw it coming.
And oh, oh, I need the ending.
So why can't you stay just long enough to explain?

Take your time.
Take my time.

Take these chances to turn it around.
Take these chances, we'll make it somehow
And take these chances to turn it around.
Just turn it around.

Oh, how could you do it?
Oh I, I never saw it coming.
Oh, oh, how could you do it?
Oh I, I never saw it coming.
Oh, oh, how could you do it?
Oh I, I never saw it coming.
Oh, oh I need an ending.
So why can't you stay
Just long enough to explain?

You can take your time, take my time.

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
All the words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

No sir
Well I don't wanna be the blame, not anymore
It's your turn to take a seat
We're settling the final score

And why do we like to hurt so much?

I can't decide
You have made it harder just to go on
And why, all the possibilities
Well I was wrong

That's what you get when you let your heart win, woah
That's what you get when you let your heart win, woah
I drowned out all my sense with the sound of its beating
And that's what you get when you let your heart win, woah

I wonder
How am I supposed to feel when you're not here?
Cuz I've burned every bridge I ever built
When you were here

I still try
Holding on to silly things, I never learn
Oh why, all the possibilities
I'm sure you've heard

Hey, make your way to me, to me
And I'll always be just so inviting
If I ever start to think straight
This heart will start a riot in me
Let's start, start - hey!

Why do we like to hurt so much?
Oh, why do we like to hurt so much?

All I did was walk over
Start off by shaking your hands
That's how it went
I had a smile on my face and I sat up straight
Oh yeah yeah
I wanted to know you
I wanted to show you

You don't know me
Don't ignore me
You don't want me there
You just shut me out
You don't know me
Don't ignore me
If you had your way
You'd just shut me up
Make me go away

You,
You know how to get me so low
My heart had a crash when we spoke
I can't fix what you broke
And you,
You always have a reason
Again and again, this feeling
Why do I give in?

And I always was
Oh always
Was one for crying
I always was one for tears

The sun's gettin' cold it's snowin'
Looks like an early winter
For us
Looks like an early winter
For us
An early winter
Oh, I need you to turn me over

It's said,
The map of the world is on you
The moon gravitates around you
The seasons escape you

And I always was
Oh always
Was one for crying
I always was one for tears

No, I never was
Oh never
One for lying
You lied to me
All these years

The sun's gettin' cold it's snowin'
Looks like an early winter
For us
Looks like an early winter
For us
An early winter
Oh, I need you to turn me over

It looks like an early winter
For us
It hurts and I can't remember
Summer
An early winter
For us
The leaves are changing color
For us

It gets too much
It gets so much
Startin' over and over and over again...

so friggin angry.

i dont know if it's ryan or it's me, but i'm still so friggin angry.

WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING??
no point keeping silent!
it just frustrates the shit out of me.

You need ta spit it out, in a telephone booth
While you call everyone that you know, and ask 'em

Where do you think she goes
Oh yeah, where d'ya suppose she goes, oh

where the hell am I going anyway??

chatting with ryan and robin.
we used to be so close!

now they're both in separate convos.
leading totally different lifestyles.
haha.

*reminder to timo YES YOU*
get ryan's blog add

yooouuurre on the other side of the world to me.

hey ryan, thanks for the chat.
it really gave me new confidence.
all i have to do now is keep reminding myself about it lol. =)

zomg i just smelled his scent. WTF.


check out this cool song.
dont you just feel claustrophobic?
the classic reversal of dominance.

"Catch You" - Sophie Ellis-Bextor

The morning paper
Look in the mirror
On your keychain
Or in the coffee spoon
On your shirt sleeve
In the flat-screen
In your mailbox
Breathing over you

Come on baby, when will you see
'Cause you and I were meant to be
And know I got my target all on track
Baby you should know that I'm so good at that

Run to where you want, run to where you want
I am gonna find you
There aint no distance far enough
My love's gonna find you

Run to where you want, run to where you want
Maybe I'll remind you
There aint no engine fast enough
My love's gonna catch you

In your top drawer
In your cheque book
On your cellphone
By your easy chair
In the next room
Behind the curtain
Can't escape me
I'm watching everywhere

i finally understand something about myself.

i feel best when i'm sleepy.
because then my conscious mind doesnt work properly, and i can think clearer and deeper and i see what i really want to say and i'll say it. or just think it.

bleah i hate being dead.
bleah i really hate being dead.

today was an okay day. went to watch enchanted in the afternoon, felt abit weird with just two seniors but they're really nice and in the end i felt okay.
the movie was great. so heartwarming. loved all the cliched stuff.
bought a pack of tarot cards too, they're nice. thanks willie!

you dont reply me.
i've been trying not to get frustrated about it but it bugs me sometimes.
like now.

How does she know you love her?
How does she know she's yours?

How does she know that you really
really
Truly love her?
How does she know that you love her?
How do you show that you love her?

It's not enough to take the one you love granted
You must remind her or she'll be inclined to say
"How do I know he loves me?
How do I know he's mine?"

Well does he leave a little note to tell you you are on his mind?
Send you yellow flowers when the sky is grey?
He'll find a new way to show you a little bit every day
That's how you know
That's how you know he's your love

You got to show her you need her
Don't treat her like a mind reader
Each little something to lead her to believe you love her

Well does he take you out dancing just so he can hold you close?
Dedicate a song with words meant just for you?
He'll find his own way to tell you with the little things he'll do
That's how you know
That's how you know he's your love
He's your love

That's how you he loves you
That's how you know it's true

Because he'll wear your favorite color just so he can match your eyes
Plan a private picnic by the fire's glow
His heart will be yours forever
Something everday will show

That's how you know

at the end of the day, they were right.
i deserve this break of one day.
=)

the trip was quite interesting. i bought a few shirts over the course of the trip. we went to kuala lumpur, then gopeng in ipoh, and then genting.

at kl, we shopped and shopped. dont remember it much actually, except for the part where we went to the twin towers.

gopeng was the funnest. i did white water rafting there. the waters were really fast...once they pushed me into the water and it was so freaky cuz the water went over my head and i tried to stand up but i couldnt find the ground and i thought i was going to drown then they threw the rope and i managed to grab it. haha.
the boat jumps.
then after that i went waterfall abseiling. its like, abseiling, with the water falling. very hard. i went to the difficult part where the water was really rushing down and i managed to finish it after falling about 3 times =P


the next day went caving. crawled in a space about 80cm high with water at my chin. really dragged myself across the 6m of space.
beautiful cave.

um, genting was cool too. went through the haunted house. got this lame guy who just steps out of curtains with a mask on and says RARRGGHH or BOO. oh and it's 3-D so the art was really cool. it was a van helsing theme.

the holiday was at least fun.
really!

MIKA - Happy Ending

just got back from an enjoyable holiday in malaysia.

i'll update a longer post when im not feeling too tired.

but neeways, thank you so much jen you made my day. exactly one minute of it left. =)

The song's reign at number-one in Britain happened when the country was hit by extreme rainfall and flooding, which led some people to jokingly suggest the two events were related, calling it the "Rihanna Curse". A similar situation occurred in New Zealand, where the song hit number-one in the early winter of 2007 as the country was experiencing some of the worst storms in history.

Interestingly, in Greece, "Umbrella" was released at a time when people were suffering through a summer of several major heatwaves topping 47C/117F, and the worst forest fires of modern history, killing 60 people. When the song peaked at #4 in the Greek singles chart in October 2007 (being one of the most successful international releases), the country began experiencing a rainy spell. It gained high airplay on radio, proving that it was one of the most successful international releases there.

In Spain - where "Umbrella" topped the downloads chart for seven consecutive weeks and the Los40 Principales chart for four weeks in August, September and the beginning of October - the country had seen one of the wettest summers in decades, and the coldest August since the beginning of the 20th century.

Rihanna - Umbrella