i'm so tired.

i just had to do that.
and you did that.
and something small led on to something big. get the hint? no of course not. not yet. relax.

If I could find you now,
Things would get better.
We could leave this town,
And run forever
I hope somewhere, somehow, we'll be together
Let your waves crash down on me,
And take me away, yeah.


taken out of context, they fit perfectly.

it's the end of a very very long day. slept this morning at 3.30am. it was a stuffy night. i think i'm exhausted, dehydrated and on an adrenaline high. i just wish it would go my way but it just doesn't.

i should have seen it coming...i should have fucking known.

thank you all you happy campers for making my past two weeks so awesome. it's contraction, i know, but i really don't mean that. i appreciate so many things. i was just too tired to remember them. i still am. but i'm constantly trying. and it's a first.

there is solace in work though. tried to run away from it by reading up on twitter. no matter what people say, i now have the proper information as much as i could. and it's substantial. twitter is a waste of time and not worth the time, effort or money. all three and i mean them. i don't make claims without meaning them in some sense.

well, world. back to the hard, cold, contradictory reality of the earth.