i'm blogging from the wake. it's really quite nice here. we took up an entire church hall, because my grandad's the founding member of the community or sth. =) the people who had service this weekend had to do it in a smaller room somewhere else in this place. don't know where they could do it though, there seems to be only columbariums and niches around here.

i'm coming to terms with his passing luh. i can now talk to him normally. he doesn't really reply though. i believe he does, but i can't listen.

there have been many many flowers sent over. lemme count. about 14 full-fledged standing-up flower arrangements alr. and probably more to come. i'm happy.

i've given some thought about how my funeral is going to be.
it's gonna have three rooms, my coffin in the centre room. i think my coffin will be pink and white. and on my right will be a party room. and then on my left will be the traditional mourning hangout for the less party-people.
haha it would TOTALLY work, until my brother offered his opinion:
"but when you die, your friends will all be about the same age, how are they going to party?"

sigh. i didn't think of that.
funeral on tuesday afternoon at about 3pm.