today was the closest i ever got to seriously cutting my wrist wide open.

father's day. i bought a card for my dad from korea. he doesnt mind what kind of gift it is, as long as i put some thought into it. but my mom wasnt happy. after a stream of f*** and a****** and b******, she said i didnt appreciate them enough. that i dont love them enough. she just PUSHED aside all thoughts of our efforts in preparing her that breakfast on mother's day. she didnt give a DAMN about it.

YOU WANT US TO BE GIRLS? TO REMEMBER EVERY SINGLE "IMPORTANT" DATE? GET REAL, GUYS ARENT THAT TOUCHY ABOUT THIS KIND OF STUFF. I DONT UNDERSTAND YOU.

sometimes i think about what parents i would like. definitely not this.
oh yeah, IM BANNED FROM MY HP. no one to talk to about this. and msn too. guys, if youre reading this, in case i actually do anything that takes my own life, check my handphone notes. theres a note that i need someone to do.