my pictures are not emo.
really.

the ultimate dependence on your handphone: looking to it for guidance to remember what you're supposed to write for your supposedly intellectual blogpost.

let me get this out of my head. WHOEVER TOLD ME KENAN OR KEL DIED, SCREW YOU. THEY'RE STILL ALIVE. -.-''


it's the HOLIDAYS coming up next week and it fucking just STRUCK me on the head like that while i was looking at my white sheets of paper. it left me feeling revolted and worried and smarting. it's kinda insulting too, really. what i pride myself in is now like, nonexistent at the current moment(s).
ever got that really sad bittersweet nostalgic moment while you were watching something that you planned to watch? yep i got it last last night, and it still lingered on me today while watching this show. it's samurai x. don't laugh, really. it's a classic. i suddenly realised how "ducking" much i missed it. ahhh. it's weird how emotions just come to you when you really least expect it. like david archuleta looking so overwhelmed with emotion after every song in the finals! haha but that might just be an act...oh well give him the benefit of the doubt SINCE he's such a nice person. btw, i've added the dvd set to my wishlist. i don't really have a long wishlist unlike other people. from the top of my head,

1. The Sandman collection
2. Pink/ Red PSP MODIFIED with 4 gb memory card
3. uh...Samurai X DVD entire collection
4. A whole ducking lot of CDs


DAVID ARCHULETA WILL WIN I TELL YOU. GO DAVID!!!
simon cowell is officially an ass.

hahah and i found something to audiophile about. her name's emilie simon. something exciting and refreshing to feast my ears on. oh and it's really a blast all of a sudden. here's The Feeling with Sewn.

Give me the song and I'll sing it like I mean it
Give me the words and I'll say them like I mean it

Cos you got my heart in a headlock
You stop my blood make my head soft

And god knows
You got me sewn

Nah nah nah nah nah nah nah


Danny boy, don't be afraid, to shake that ass, and
misbehave
Danny boy, I now you got time, but what are you waiting
for,
Anyway the dust may just blow away, if you wait for a
windy day
But you may find the chance has passed you by;

I can't do the walk
I can't do the talk
I can't be your friend
Unless I pretend

Yeah.

Madonna - 4 Minutes (Feat. Justin Timberlake)
random: my fingers are doing less work than i think they actually are. XD

ever get the feeling while you're watching tv that you're gonna have so much more to do on the computer?
well i got it and once i actually got ON the com, i couldn't remember half the things i wanted to do. and it wasn't really fun. =(


If you never say your name out loud to anyone They can never ever call you by it


all they want is to feel it
we won't be what you want to be, OH NO

pull it close, pull it closer, i play it close
head-to-toes tonight, recognizing the ghost
and the machine getting in between the thought and the finger.
at the brink of an evolution, we're going to linger
come on!

that's broken social scene for you. pure refreshment. =)

it's something i really need right now cuz i've spent the whole day cooped up at home studying. and there are so many thoughts in my head sometimes and some of them really make sense and sometimes i don't know whether to believe them or not.
or maybe my whole thinking is totally wrong and i'm chasing a red herring. or something like that.

i've been really intrigued with the matrix. i superduper want to watch the whole series. the videos i get online are crap. =(


there goes the white rabbit!
i feel a headache coming on.

oh why can't we,
just be.
speaking of kingdom hearts, i CANNOT WAIT for the next one to come out on ps3. kh is da <3

i thought of an amazing artpiece while i was still in the shower. XD
neeways i spent a whole night wasting my time by using it rather ungratefully.
hahaha the workload's piling up again. rm especially...then there's math to do over the weekend, and chinese too (i think). history and bio and chem revisions and oops i forgot to bring my chem notes backk. ahhh.

=)
=( but nobody's going to the concert on saturday evening. bleahhh. on the bright side, i don't have to attend cat class anymore so my saturdays are alot less stressed.

i also finished watching the incredibles, it was a great movie. ED-NA-MOeD.

and sometimes i wonder who's reading my blog.

Robyn - Should Have Known

we came, we fought, we conquered.

=)

i never knew how engaging soccer could be until today. watching the match really made the difference. i have no regrets coming for it. what more is there to say? our soccer girls really fulfilled their promise and made us very proud of them. 7-6 to vj.
eh, how come their team got boy one?

now, volleyball boys. go vj.


i thought of an extremely interesting idea for a fictional character. it goes like this.

she is a mage. instead of using a traditional wand, she uses - a notebook. a notebook that she carries around with her wherever she goes, hugging it safely to her chest. she's not very aged, a youthful girl, looking around 13-17. dressed in a light flowing nightgown.
don't take her looks for it though.
her prowress belies her demure figure, her speed and precision and beauty even in battle making her one of the most unique characters in the history of magic. she strikes with her opponents usually caught off-guard, doodling in her book. then she rips, tears, and her piece of paper touches the ground. that's when it happens.

a blaze of energy and they fall back.

bleaahhhh this sucks its a sunday night and i just realised i had chinese homework to do. hopefully it's only due on wednesday or something. even then i'll probably be passing it up late due to the concert on monday and the fpsp and comic group meeting and bowling training on tuesday. -_-''


and i should be doing something for the langarts essay. you know? i feel so bad. but i really have no time. or the effort. or, for that matter, the motivation. hope willie can remotely trigger my enthu button.

ahhh langarts sucks to study for. especially science and politics. i ain't got much hope on scoring or passing even haha. it's just so tedious to pour through the notes. they didn't really do it well this time i feel. too many bloody words.

ahhh i haven't returned the class tee email XD

langarts essay. shite. what do i talk about. if i thought selecting essay topics from that slip of paper was brain-racking, this is ridiculous.

talk's the word.

watched meet joe black halfway. my internet's lagging like crazy. it's yet another beautiful story of Death personified. i have yet to watch the end, can't wait for it.
facebook is lagging like crazy, i can't find a new artist to get hooked on to, i can't finish watching meet joe black, and my blogskin doesn't exactly work the way i want it in firefox.
and i can't seem to speak normally anymore. maybe i'm just a recluse. living at home with my ps3.
i can't sleep. and i'm not enjoying myself even now. people are on my back constantly with unreasonable crap. and i'm trying my best to be unpretentious.

oh and i hate the critics now. they ruin much of what i like. phooey to artsy. artsy schmartsy shit.
it's sometimes a wonder that i still log in to my facebook. proves the unconscious need of people (or at least, me) now to stay online.

Blessed Be Her Holy Hooves.

Colorless green ideas sleep furiously.

just finished watching August Rush.

oh. my. god. it. was. a. great. movie.

It's good to be in love
It really does suit you
Just like everything
I'm happy you're in love
'Cause every color goes where you do

must i say how much i like this skin?
i LOVE the colours. not to mention the small glimpses of gaspard ulliel. =)

um, today was quite okay. i shouldn't have done a few things though. haha.

you know, when you're angry you break things. what if you keep this destructive energy inside you instead of letting it out? does it take a new form?
what if you simply forget about what made you angry in the first place, does it dissipate then? (but the law of the conservation of energy says...)
on the flip side, what if you keep the grudge? will this accumulated energy do something to you?

just some food for thought.

my wishlist:
AT HMV - THE NIGHTMARE BEFORE CHRISTMAS SOUNDTRACK - SCREAMING MASTERPIECE SOUNDTRACK
the Sandman entire collection
New iPod earphones, silicon case, plastic screen guard

exhausted, surprisingly, after today. don't wanna think back about it. had some really awkward moments. but some nice ones too. and unintentionally reasurring ones.

i was just wondering what i would have done if i were to join the drama writing rm thingy. hmmm. probably something along the lines of absurd plays =) so existentialist and postmodern, the thought of it is making me thrilled. lol. it's probably wayy more work than they're revealing though.

get well soon, little babies. nevertheless, i won't wanna be down with handfootandmouthdisease.
i don't really like stalkers, i've found out.
training for the superstar that i'm gonna be.
HAH.
dream on, scribbleboy.

chilling out to the Ting Tings yet again. up next, Imogen Heap.

Fed up with your indigestion.
Swallow words one by one.
Your folks got high at a quarter to five.
Don’t you feel you’re growing up undone.

Nothing but the local DJ.
He said he had some songs to play.
What went down from this fooling around.
Gave hope and a brand new day.

Imagine all the girls,
Ah ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah.
And the boys,
Ah ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah.
And the strings,
Eee, eee, eee, eee, eee, eee, eee, eee.
And the drums, the drums, the drums, the drums, the drums, the drums, the drums, the drums, the drums, the drums, the drums, the drums.

Oh.

Nothing was the same again.
All about where and when.
Blowing our minds in a life unkind.
Gotta love the bpm.
When his work was all but done
Remembering how this begun.
We wore his love like a hand in a glove.
There’s a future plays it all night long.

Nothing but the girls,
Ah ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah.
And the boys,
Ah ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah.
And the strings,
Eee, eee, eee, eee, eee, eee, eee, eee.
And the drums, the drums, the drums, the drums, the drums, the drums…..

Imagine all the girls.
Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah.
And the boys,
Ah ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah.
And the strings,
Eee, eee, eee, eee, eee, eee, eee, eee.
And the drums,
Ah ah ah ah, ah, ah, ah, oh.

All the girls
Ah ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah.
And the boys,
Ah ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah.
And the strings,
Eee, eee, eee, eee, eee, eee, eee, eee.
And the drums, the drums, the drums, the drums.

hey people, check out coldplay's new single and download it (original) for FREE!

it's me time right now. so it's an evening of myself and slacking and the computer. =)

don't forget, iTunes has the "free single of the week" thingy and that's where you can get good music for FREE as well. right now it's the TING TINGS with GREAT DJ! haha. thedrums.thedrums.thedrums.

um, stay happy everyone!

Imogen Heap - Hide and Seek

Where are we? What the hell is going on?
The dust has only just begun to fall,
Crop circles in the carpet, sinking, feeling.
Spin me round again and rub my eyes.
This can't be happening.
When busy streets a mess with people
would stop to hold their heads heavy.

Hide and seek.
Trains and sewing machines.
All those years they were here first.

Oily marks appear on walls
Where pleasure moments hung before.
The takeover, the sweeping insensitivity of this
still life.

Hide and seek.
Trains and sewing machines. (Oh, you won't catch me around here)
Blood and tears,
They were here first.

Mmm, what you say?
Mm, that you only meant well? Well, of course you did.
Mmm, what you say?
Mm, that it's all for the best? Ah of course it is.
Mmm, what you say?
Mm, that it's just what we need? And you decided this.
Mmm what you say?
What did she say?

Ransom notes keep falling out your mouth.
Mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut-outs.
Speak no feeling, no I don't believe you.
You don't care a bit. You don't care a bit.

You don't care a bit.

back to pictureblogging!


hahaaha everyone!

attended dramanite last friday, it was sensational!! i particularly liked road runners and naomi in the living room. road runners was a really moving play while naomi in the living room was the most surreal thing i've ever seen acted out so far. made me interested in absurd plays haha.

oh and my laptop keyboard is A-OKAY so HOORAY! hope it wont screw up ever again.

then after that it was VIP OPEN HOUSE and surprisingly there were quite a number of people who went for the Chemistry presentation. i will never forget my second presentation. the room was filled with people and i was so fueled by them i did my best =)

after that went to parkway and saw tim in this awesome blue shirt XD went to buy a belated birthday pressie for yiwen *HAPPY BIRTHDAY YIWEN*

um, what else? oh...so it's mayday and a happy mayday to everyone though i don't really mean the happy part. it's just so customary. i'm gonna watch ironman later! =D

sad things that i'm gonna try to put past myself:
1. chinese stuffs
2. failing 2.4 runnn
3. scolding from dad & mum. -some things they said really hurt.

quick post before sheila gets back to me with our final script (hopefully).

ah the nitpicking is reallly getting on my nerves, we need to give each other compliments from time to time. working like this is really somewhat like a nightmare. i just hope i have an okay time tomorrow to survive and do it reasonably well or up to standard and ENJOY (haha) DRAMANITE. the love.

okay. feeling all lovey-dovey now for some reason. AND IT'S NOT EVEN REAL LAH OMG. keep at it? i dunno. i've been keeping for like what feels like the longest time and i'm still waiting.

hohohhoho dido makes lonelylonely songs.

the city is at war, a place among the young and rich
ignore me if you see me, cause i just don't give a shit
the city is at war, plus the young and rich with designer drugs and designer friends

MC, you're the place to be
Oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah
Oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah

I know that you've been waiting for it
I'm waiting too
In my imagination I'd be all up on you
I know you got that fever for me
102
And boy I know I feel the same
My temperature's through the roof

If there's a camera up in here
Then it's gonna leave with me
When I do (I do)
If there's a camera up in here
Then I'd best not catch this flick
On YouTube (YouTube)
'Cause if you run your mouth and brag
About this secret rendezvous
I will hunt you down
'Cause they be all up in my business
Like a Wendy interview
But this is private
Between you and I

Touch my body
Put me on the floor
Wrestle me around
Play with me some more
Touch my body
Throw me on the bed
I just wanna make you feel
Like you never did.
Touch my body
Let me wrap my thighs
All around your waist
Just a little taste
Touch my body
Know you love my curves
Come on and give me what I deserve
And touch my body.

Boy you can put me on you
Like a brand new white tee
I'll hug your body tighter
Than my favorite jeans
I want you to caress me
Like a tropical breeze
And float away with you
In the Caribbean Sea

If there's a camera up in here
Then it's gonna leave with me
When I do (I do)
If there's a camera up in here
Then I'd best not catch this flick
On YouTube (YouTube)
'Cause if you run your mouth and brag
About this secret rendezvous
I will hunt you down
'Cause they be all up in my business
Like a Wendy interview
But this is private
Between you and I

Touch my body
Put me on the floor
Wrestle me around
Play with me some more
Touch my body
Throw me on the bed
I just wanna make you feel
Like you never did.
Touch my body
Let me wrap my thighs
All around your waist
Just a little taste
Touch my body
Know you love my curves
Come on and give me what I deserve
And touch my body.

Imma treat you like a teddy bear
You won't wanna go nowhere
In the lap of luxury
Laying intertwined with me
You won't want for nothing boy
I will give you plenty of joy

Touch my body
Put me on the floor
Wrestle me around
Play with me some more
Touch my body
Throw me on the bed
I just wanna make you feel
Like you never did.
Touch my body
Let me wrap my thighs
All around your waist
Just a little taste
Touch my body
Know you love my curves
Come on and give me what I deserve
And touch my body.

Oh yeah oh yeah oh yeah
Oh yeah oh yeah
Oh oh oh oh yeah
Touch my body...

oh my fucking god this week is looking to be one of the busiest (if not the busiest) week i'm gonna have.
ahahaha and i'm gonna miss dramanite and tuitions and bowling competitions ARGH nvm i'll go next week yeah? =) happayehappaye.

so here i am blogging in whatever time frame i'm left with before the emails start streaming in and this whirlwind takes my head. hahaha.

grrrr leonie. MUST. STAY. HAPPY. bowlingbowlingbowling wheewheewhee!!!

wahhahahhahaha chocolate makes me happy.
what else?
oh yes.
the Sandman collection. the whole of it. yeah. that fucking thing.
A RED/PINK PSP
i miss you like my body is missing oranges.
no, even better, like my eyes want their contacts.
or the best, like a Nintendo WII or an infinitesimal object like the ones going around my head which only brings a small but worthy plus point. and having 'em will probably RULE THE WORLD xD

honey/hush

fucking hypocrites.

/

i miss you
but i haven't met you yet
so special
but it hasn't happened yet
you are gorgeous
but i haven't met you yet
i remember
but it hasn't happened yet

and if you believe in dreams
or what is more important
that a dream can come true
i will meet you

i was peaking
but it hasn't happened yet
i haven't been given
my best souvenir
i miss you
but i haven't met you yet
i know your habits
but wouldn't recognize you yet

and if you believe in dreams
or what is more important
that a dream can come true
i will meet you

i'm so impatient
i can't stand the wait
when will i get my cuddle?
who are you?

i know by now that you'll arrive
by the time i stop waiting

i miss you

hello blogger. haven't seen or talked to you for days. it felt so weird without you. hahaha. but fulfilling cuz i used my time well too. =)

i'm blogging from the com lab, the only time when i'm actually on the com today. or the past few days. it's been a rush. rushrushrush. projects, deadlines, it's like work in real life except without the thousand dollar pay. awww =( well some example-setting seniors are playing dota on the coms beside me and i must admit the graphics look awfully tempting. how much i miss those innocent days sometimes.

amanda's beside me doing the physics project and i'm kinda helping. i'm just taking a short break. =P i was supposed to go for chinese remedial but i have a duty to the group and besides i forgot to bring my file. and i had chinese tuition until 9 plus yesterday okay. late nights recently. tonight there's bowling and i'll probably bring my nice hoodie along cuz i felt really cold on the bus on tuesday. lol, i'm blogging about such mundane stuff, probably lost people along the way alr.

i just realise that i was talking to someone but nobody in particular. i suppose it's ingrained in me already, this funny habit. kinda weird actually hahahaha. oh well.

something i found interesting was my discussing with gra about the ERAs. first there was the chem project era. then the bio era i think. then now its the mad rush for the GOLDen (pun intended) age of the physics project era, but it's gonna die off neeway soon.

my post is so normal now. and i think i'm losing touch with talking to people. that's sad. <--- i ended with on an unhappy note =DDDD

okay back to physics, and my group rocks in an understated kind of way.

just came back from the bowling chalet, it was fantastic.

we played taiti then murderer then ordered pizza then more people came and then we played taboo! haha had a great time. pizza was great too. then we played a random card game that we had to fight so hard to get a coin, that was chaos. so much for team bonding games eh. XD after that...played SAUCY CHARADES and it was quite funny. geraldine and me were the only ones who managed to not get the charades part haha =P

then it was about 1am i think and we went to changi village to have a snack. i had a plain prata, an egg prata, and an iced milo. OH SHIT I FORGOT TO PAY MINGHAO BACK. >.< paiseh lah. then told ghost stories (abit) and walked to the old changi hospital. the road was like super dark lah. there were no lights. walked in for around 250m, up the hill, until we reached the entrance of the place. it was 3am.

we didn't go in. hari was crazy though, he and wayne seemed so eager to enter the building. haha. but we went as a team luh. so i suppose the next time we have a chalet like that we'll probably go in. with the crucifixes and the buddhist charms and the religious objects facing off against the horrors of a cracked mirror at night and broken plane windows and other unholy whatnot.

reached the chalet at 4am. diane, yongkai and tim had slept already. edmund being the perfect 19th century role model husband actually just rested on the couch in the living room next to the door to wait for us to come back so he could open the door for us since he latched it for safety. XD

after that i think i stoned/slept for the next 3 and a half hours. when i woke up i felt weirdly energised though, the wonders that adrenaline can do to you. apparently minghao left at 6AM in the morning, WTF. he just smsed me to tell me he woke up lol. at 2.30pm in the afternoon. ah then kenickie also woke up and he woke everybody else and then i had a GREAT shower which felt like WHOA. damn shiok. felt so stuffy and sticky last night.

then kenickie, joel and albert left cuz they had the J1 meet the parents thing to go to hahaha. su ann left her cardigan behind last night and it was really warm to wear. she also forgot her handphone, apparently. hari disappeared when i was sleeping too.


in the morning when we checked out it was wayne, yongkai, edmund, tim, pearlyn, diane, olivia and me. then we went to have breakfast at tampines, had a delicious mos burger which i haven't eaten for a long long time. wayne took a cab home by then though. wanted to shop for a cardigan but after leaving the table i suddenly felt SO lethargic so we didn't. took bus 10 with tim, pearlyn and diane, and took so many photos along the way. haha. i guess the rain DOES make you more artistic.

Who do you think you are?
A Communion wafer? Blubbery Mary?
I shall take no bite of your body,

i will go for the rest, if i can't go for one.

bleahhhh another emoemo post.
my parents suck.
they don't try to UNDERSTAND. that's what i've found out.
it's just everything on the surface.
no wonder they can spot superficial flaws so well.
because they have one huge gaping hole anyway.

it's like this.
Thursday: Choir Concert @ 7.30pm
Friday: Bowling Chalet overnight from 6.30pm.

fuck, i've paid for the fucking ticket and i've been a responsible son and rescheduled tuition to fit this perfectly in.
you'd think they'd given me credit for it and allowed me to go for this ONCE A FUCKING YEAR thing.
no.
it's either or.
fucked.


they're not very nice people, aren't they?
but who am i to argue. my results aren't fucking what they want them to be anyway.
i deserve it.
yeah right.

guys, i have just found a couple of great new websites for free and legal mp3 downloads, however most of the songs there are kinda indie, so... =)

http://stereogum.com/
http://www.pitchforkmedia.com/

oh and btw the RACONTEURS are out with a new cd. just fyi.

this week has been unbelievably stressful...so much to do. on my own, mostly. projects and stuff...
songs should be able to talk to you about it. or maybe kenny g. ah. one to add to the four. that's gotta be really nice. =)

get it out of my head. in the shower i kept telling myself to forgive and forget but it just sticks whenever i try to forget it. ah. must be my crappy cold and my crappy runny nose and my crappy mom. pissin me off.

ah fuck. so much still to do. nothing's really making any sense any more. bleahbleah.

on an afterthought, thank you so much for your presents everyone. i'm so grateful and touched. reallyreally. the rockin classy 07v13 for the earphones accessory they rock so much. annabel for the baby bottle which i've been using (sucking.) amanda for the star badge! janelzzz for the rocky pirate thing XD charissa for the chocolates!! geraldine for the famous amos cookies which i haven't been able to eat cuz i've been sicker and sicker =( yiwen for the phone battery when mine ran out.

went to watch the pillowman yesterday. not bad...worth a watch, didn't really get anything good out of it though except stories to scare little children with. maybe during camps or something.
met adub too...damn scary, their resemblance. especially from the side view. ah. this fucking cold is fucking screwing up my fucking typing, i'm so sick of making fucking typing mistakes already, i've had enough of them in my fucking lagging phone. fuck it, dad. your little mistake.

haha, i was spending so much time surfing blogs and reading other stuff...i forgot that i actually had a blog.

=) thank you everyone for wishing me. it's been great. i just hope my group doesn't get too noisy or we'll disband >.< style="font-style: italic;">

So if you wanna burn yourself, remember that I love you
And if you wanna cut yourself, remember that I love you
And if you wanna kill yourself, remember that I love you
Call me up before your dead, we can make some plans instead
Send me an IM, I'll be your friend

this post doesn't have many words, i don't feel like articulating right now. please look at the pictures, the emotions are all there.

thanks everyone, for the wishing and helping me eat the cake. =) sorry, no pictures, i didn't wanna cover my phone in chocolate as well. XD

my birthday is tomorrow. gwen's birthday is tomorrow as well.
looking forward to it...and the weekend and the rite of election to be over as well haha.

this has been...an interesting, different birthday. in many ways.

haha, how now brown cow?

my god, the price of my cds are getting higher and higher. i'm bidding for

Mew - Half The World Is Watching Me / A Triumph For Man
múm - Finally We Are No One / Yesterday Was Dramatic - Today Is OK

shit. some people are nuts. ah, my limited funding.
today was OK actually. got a new group...i'll miss my old one. ADEEB, HUIJUAN, LEONIE AND WILLIE (alphabetical order). thanks for an amazing 8 months with you guys. =)

hello to Ashley, Gabriel, Kevin and XianHui! haha we're like the best group with these new seats lah. hooray~ (oh shit got 2 SC pple)

AWE;JAWGJ I NEED TO CUT MY HAIR, FORGOT ABOUT IT AHHHHHHHHHH fuck.

i just finished watching Stranger Than Fiction starring Will Ferrel(l). it's quite a good show...i just wish the ending was slightly different though. i recommend this movie if you have time, after Sweeney Todd and Paprika and The Prestige and Pan's Labyrinth.

it's like, everytime i try to do something leisurely, i get this strong feeling that i'm wasting precious work time or something...even though i think really hard and there's nothing important for me to do...maybe i'm experiencing and consciously sensing the loss of my innocent bliss.
yeah.

Down from my... ceiling
Drips great noise.
It drips on my head through a hole in the roof.

Behind these two hills here...
There's a pool.

And when I'm swimming in
through a tunnel....
I shut my eyes.

Inside their cabin I make sounds
In through the tubes I send this noise.

Behind these two hills here...
fall asleep.
And when I flood in green grass of tunnel...
It floods back.

Down from my... ceiling
drips great noise.

It drips on my head through a hole in the roof.

Behind these two hills here..
there's a pool.
And when I'm swimming in
through a tunnel....
I shut my eyes.

"I'll give you five dollars if you let me throw a rock at you."

"I think you're sick, Joshua."
"I don't feel sick.
[experimental sniff]
Not at all."

I don't give a damn what you say to me
I don't really care what you think of me
Cause either way you're gona think what you believe
There's nothing you could say that would hurt me

I hate, you now
So go away from me
You're gone, so long
I can do better, i can do better
Hey! Hey you!
I found, myself again
That's why you're gone
I can do better, I can do better

You're so full of shit
I can't stand the way you act
I just can't comprehend
I don't think that you can handle it
I'm way over, over it

Get outta my face
Hey hey
You're not my taste
Hey hey
I am so
Sick of you
You're on my nerves
I want to puke
Get outta my face
Hey hey
You're not my taste
Hey hey
Hey hey
Hey hey!

go away.
i don't wanna feel you guys anymore.
not now.
stop.

can you just leave me alone.
you don't have to love me.
you don't have to mess up my dreams right now.

Dragging their Jesus hair.
Did I escape, I wonder?
My mind winds to you
Old barnacled umbilicus, Atlantic cable,
Keeping itself, it seems, in a state of miraculous
repair.

happy easter.

=)

haha TODAY WAS ARTS DAY and i thought there was nothing to blog about.

WOOT there wasn't anything special lah first endured maths and abit of chinese which totally demoralised me THEN arts day started and i watched a short film about a malay man who lost his slippers. i liked how they played with the camera angles...and there was another short film about a delusioned boy. i kept feeling that he would jump off the hdb ledge of his home. he was really weird. lol.

then pop guitar wasn't really anything to yell about, the three dudes were good. but i think they took the whole "arts" thing too seriously, they were like talking about the musicality of the songs that they were playing. XD then rudely rushed off to catch WEST GRAND BOULEVARD and CARACEL OMGGGZZZ.

THEY WERE FANTASTIC and they managed to get the crowd going even though VJ people ain't really the most party people. but still! haha. jumped really high and i bet everyone in the whole school saw me, no one wanted to do it with me anyway -.-'' being tall is a curse sometimes i tell you. there was a mini moshy at near the front of the stage and daryl (adriel's brother) was like STOP IT STOP IT STOP IT NOW!!! =D
DAMN YOU MYSPACE, I CAN'T VIEW THEIR PICS WTFFF.

but i ran down to the hall after the performance and THANK THE LORD just caught bryan in time. took a photo with him. it's abit blur though, the girl taking the photo was really pathetic. sorry, i'm a perfectionist when it comes to photos.

the two bands were great, managed to get better pics of bryan though haha...sorry for pangsehing people along the ways =) forgive me please.

SILENCE...i kill you!

hello world, i am free now. therefore i shall blog.

yanokami concert tonight, gonna get peektures and autographs and cds! =) and múm's CDS. at the same time.

hooray for the mosaic music festival. oh, did i mention i met ms ong and her bf again at the esplanade on thursday night? XD

there is so much FUCKED UP SHIT going on in these last few days of my fucking holiday it's just screwed up, holidays don't fucking feel like fucking holidays anymore! fuck, the concert was seriously the best part, now it's just fucked up work and WORK and those people doing their O s this year, SHUT UP cuz i don't think you have anything worth complaining about right now.

i seriously cannot stand this. someone give me a glass of iced water now.
i mean, what the fuck. there's just this limit to projects or assignments that you can't cross; now you've crossed it. i just want to STAY AT HOME and do work, with NOTHING ELSE in my life right now except the outings that i've PREPARED for.

ah, my parents, my parents, my parents. they don't fucking help either. come up to me a couple of days before and say "oh, we've taken off this friday, make sure your schedule's free that day so we can BRING YOU OUT WHAT THE FUCK FIRST YOU DON'T EVEN TELL ME THAT YOU'RE DOING THAT, NOW I HAVE TO CLEAR MY FUCKING SCHEDULE AND JUST SO THAT YOU CAN FUCKING WASTE MY TIME AND TAKE ME OUT? DUDE! ENOUGH ALREADY. I AM BUSY. AND AT LEAST HAVE THE FUCKING COURTESY to tell me more in advance!

my OWN com. that is what i need right now. something of my own. something where i can start organising and putting down stuff and that i can use whenever i want and no FUCKING 12 midnight limit cuz i've crossed it with work and i'm gonna do it again. and STOP FUCKING WAKING ME UP AT 9 just to have breakfast with you. i have a life. i don't wanna be dragged around. work and my own life. keep telling me to be independent? that's right, keep walking away. and don't turn back, except when you REALLY feel something.

it's not my parents' fault. but you get the general idea. WORK.

it's 10.38 on a monday the 10th of march 2008 and i have just realised the brilliance of sylvia plath in just one of her poems, which i think is definitely a god-send and a target of potentially inwardly destructive power.

i may not know much now, but heaven help me in opening up my mind and at the same time clenching it to channel as much as i can towards my dear Sara Bellum and hopefully, possibly, the world.

imsick
idontfeelwell
butimnotsick.

it's the fuckin hols, omg.

sorry to kitmeng,yiwen and kashish. XD

yellow, today was one of the coolest days in my life.

it's the LAST DAY OF FRIGGIN SCHOOL so we (adeeb, jingrong, tim, willie and me) went to watch a movie. i wanted to watch juno. but, apparently we were really too late...so we watched 10 000 BC on the BIG SCREEN instead. the graphics were so amazing, it didn't strike me as graphics until after the show when everyone talked about it...shows how good it was haha!

after that, adeeb and jingrong went home. family time and all that, you know? =)

timlim, willie and i were left, so we decided to walk on orchard road since we were already at orchard and it would be pointless to just go home, or we might as well have watched it at tampines mall or something. haha. yeah so we walked and a couple of minutes later we saw Mr James Koh and Ms Ong walking together too. so we waved hi. it was the first time i saw him in person that i remember! the interview was abit hazy to me haha. i can't say whether he was good looking or not, he was wearing this pair of sunglasses that covered his eyes (duh) and i think the eyes make or break a face.


guys aren't really made for shopping. so we visited topshop at wisma and walked to far east plaza as well. and i cracked the lucky plaza joke (thanks xh!) that made them laugh hard.
after that, i felt kinda mealy so we went to the coffee bean and tea leaf and i only had a chicken pie which costed 5 bucks OW my wallet. and i'm filling (feeling, geddit? XD) hungry now. -.-'' had a good long chat which consisted of reader response theories and religion and politics and BJORK and sociology and stuff. brilliant brilliant conversation that lasted most of the night. i really lost myself then. it's these amazing rare occasions that i live for, but i don't realise it until it's already past and i look back.

i intimidate people huh.

everyone, have a brilliant holiday, and hope you get some rest even though work is catching up to leisure. there are so many things planned for me and i need help remembering the dates =) really really hope i don't screw anything up!

*i'm happy that Charissa enjoyed the camp!* smilessmilessmilessmiles! =)))

holy fuck, this guy is - something else!! - fantastic song...and that ain't the only thing fantastic about it...



<3

it's 10.30pm i have a maths test and a full day of school tomorrow and late-night bowling (i don't think i'll go for dinner) and i'm staying up listening to Robyn and Lightspeed Champion WTF is coming over me omg.

i have to sleep for friday. planning my sleep in advance, what the hell. you know, i feel like REALLY going out then. like, anyone up for bringing clothes to change then going out and watching a movie and then go walking around orchard till late, then we go clubbing?

okay, kidding about the clubbing part. but still on the rest.

getting high just thinking about friday. holidays probably haven't struck me yet.

The Bird and The Bee - Again and Again

omg this one is good. ^^
cantstopcantstopcantstop watching these stupid videos!! hahaha!

AND


anybody? =)

múm
electronica
13th March, Thursday
7.30pm
Esplanade concert hall
tix @ $60

yanokami
jazz/electronica
15th March, Saturday
7.30pm
Esplanade recital studio
tix @ $25 (zomfg!!!)

i was just listening to this song and thought the lyrics were really good.

Robyn - Be Mine

It's a good thing, tears never show in the pouring rain
As if a good thing ever could make up for all the pain
There'll be no last chance to promise to never mess it up again
Just a sweet pain of watching your back as you walk
As I'm watching you walk away
And now you're gone it's like an echo in my head
And I remember every word you said

It's a cold thing you never know all the ways I tried
It's a hard thing faking a smile when I feel like I'm falling apart inside
And now you're gone it's like an echo in my head
And I remember every word you said

And you never were, and you never will be mine
No, you never were, and you never will be mine

For the first time, there's no mercy in your eyes
And the cold wind is hitting my face and you're gone
And you're walking awayAnd I'm helpless sometimes
Wishing's just no good
Cause you don't see me like I wish you would

Cause you never were, and you never will be mine
No, you never were, and you never will be mine

There's a moment to seize everytime that we meet
But you always kept passing me by
But you never were, and you never will be mine

(I saw you at the station, you had your arm around
Whats her name? She had on that scarf I gave you
you got down to tie her laces)

Cause you never were, and you never will be mine
(You looked happy and that's great)
No, you never were, and you never will be mine
(I just miss you, that's all)

Cause you never were, and you never will be mine
No, you never were, and you never will be mine

There's a moment to seize everytime that we meet
But you always kept passing me by
No, you never were, and you never will be mine