second day of the exams and i'm fucking pissed.
and it's not cuz of the exams.

stupid allocations.
i don't think it's fair.
it's extremely based on merit and not interest.
sick really.

i've never felt this disappointed before.

so half tired/k
but with mom indirectly looking at me on the com it's tension.
good luck everyone with the remainder of the exams.
it's like all my fighting spirit and confidence has been drawn out alr
so meaningless luh.

the first day of the exams have come and gone, i feel better now knowing all that pre-exam stress is gone. it's now just realistic, non-exaggerated stress. haha i have this terrible tendency to emo-fy everything eh.

Do, Do you got a first aid kit handy?

Are-are-are-are you?
Are you patient,
Understanding?

So how you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it?

hahahahahahahha it's fucking stuck in my head. it was playing all through the langarts exams hahaha. shittt.

Danity Kane - Damaged

DUDES
AND
DUDETTES.

GOSSIP GIRL SEASON 2 EP 1 IS OUTTTTT!!!!
it's so damn good.

Click here for the episode!
my life is finally back on track again.
damn i sound even worse than a fangirl.
NATE YOU'RE A SICK SONOFABITCH.
i guess that makes ashton kutcher a sicko too.

oh btw, joanna newsom's looking great here.

the two.



So You Think You Can Dance - Gev and Courtney - "Lost" by Anouk
it's so raw you can feel the emotion bleeding out of your speakers and screen.
thanks to ben who recommended the vid to me.

ah i have something to say.

but i can't not right now =)

so embarrassing.
but it's what i wanna try out.

oh btw my dream is to be a music video director.
ahhhh.

laugh all you want suckers bjork is funny and cute.
Bjork talking about her TV. there are cities and tiny screens in your tv which can hypnotise you. seriously, BEWARE.

it's finally over.

it's 12.53, the latest/earliest i've been up doing hard work. really. don't mock or look down on me for it. i'm proud of it. shows that with a little rest in the afternoon i can really go a long way. all i'm afraid of now is 1) sidetracking listening to music 2) the keyboard clicking too loud that'll wake my parents (especially my grumpy mom) up and they'll nag at me for staying awake too much 3) getting tired.

it's amazing how much you can accomplish with little or no music in the background.

well, see you guys soon in school =)

sounds that i like:
XH's watch ticking
OHP transparency
shaker pens
*** correction fluid bottle sounds

Jennifer Hudson - I Have Nothing



Whitney Houston - I Have Nothing

Share my life,
Take me for what I am.
'Cause I'll never change
All my colors for you.

Take my love,
I'll never ask for too much,
Just all that you are
And everything that you do.

I don't really need to look
Very much further/farther,
I don't wanna have to go
Where you don't follow.
I will hold it back again,
This passion inside.
Can't run from myself,
There's nowhere to hide.
(Your love I'll remember forever.)

Don't make me close one more door,
I don't wanna hurt anymore.
Stay in my arms if you dare,
Or must I imagine you there.
Don't walk away from me.
(No, don't walk awya from me. Don't you dare walk away from me.)
I have nothing, nothing, nothing
If I don't have you, you (you, you, you./If I don't have you, oh, oo.)

You see through,
Right to the heart of me.
You break down my walls
With the strength of your love.

I never knew
Love like I've known it with you.
Will a memory survive,
One I can hold on to?

listening to madonna while you're eating local food is quite very un-sexy.

anyway i'm so excited cuz
1. gossipgirl is coming out soon on SEPTEMBER 1st, and
2. Bjork's next single is gonna be "The Dull Flame Of Desire"!!!! with the video being done by THREE different people from three countries all over the world. omg.

lol maybe it's regret.
lol.

i need to forget about it.
and i can't express it correctly.

nobody likes cryptic posts.
so don't like this one but please just listen.

TITLE.

i don't get why people title their blogposts. it's not as if they're writing a piece of poetry or prose or anything. it's a blogpost. unless of course you're writing a blogpost in some poetic style or something.

(i'm feeling restless and have to stir up some trouble and even though you're probably able to see huge ginormous holes in my very bitchy argument, just shut up and think about it.)


hahahaha anyway i'm getting addicted to watching tv AGAIN (oh shit not at this time please it's EXAMS.) but it's so irresistible with the new cable box set giving me like 50 more channels to watch INCLUDING MOVIES!!! in the daytime now there's the olympics and at night THERE ARE MOVIES. no more s-leaguing. THERE GOES MY STUDY PLAN. no i must stay strong. who am i kidding.



neeways GRACE'S PARTY organised by CALEB was awesome and it was supposed to be really pathetic at first (heh even the balloons were like half up spelling "GRACE" when there was supposed to be "HAPPY BIRTHDAY" in front) and only three people greeted her in the living room LOLLL. then had to go for church (missing out on the main part of the party) but yeah came back and ryan was there too and caught up with a couple of people including aaron and ashleen (okay maybe not that much cuz she was too busy getting drunk, or maybe she was already drunk probably) and caleb and jiawen. then the balloons decided to spell "appy brrthday gnoce" hahahaha. OH and the singapore tabletennis team got into the finals hooray.

and i find that i can't end conversations properly sometimes. it's super awkward for both parties and definitely not fun.



haha and i didn't know that Salvador Dali was a voyeur and a sex freak. =D

END OF CONVERSATION.


p.s. i've decided to start on a project (that may never actually have a proper start or end) that involves emotions and their personifications. the most interesting one that i have thought up is regret.

i've wasted tons of time here on the com. i can't afford it anymore.

here's James Morrison.
"The Pieces Don't Fit Anymore"
i really like his songwriting. especially
on this song. it speaks in a way
that nothing else would.
and it's true.

"I Feel It All"

I feel it all I feel it all
I feel it all I feel it all
The wings are wide the wings are wide
Wild card inside wild card inside

Oh I'll be the one who'll break my heart
I'll be the one to hold the gun

I know more than I knew before
I know more than I knew before
I didn't rest I didn't stop
Did we fight or did we talk

Oh I'll be the one who'll break my heart
I'll be the one to hold the gun

I love you more
I love you more
I don't know what I knew before
But now I know I wanna win the war

No one likes to take a test
Sometimes you know more is less
Put your weight against the door
Kick drum on the basement floor
Stranded in a fog of words
Loved him like a winter bird
On my head the water pours
Gulf stream through the open door
Fly away
Fly away to what you want to make

I feel it all, I feel it all
I feel it all I feel it all
The wings are wide, the wings are wide
Wild card inside, wild card inside

Oh I'll be the one to break my heart
I'll be the one who'll break my heart
I'll be the one who'll break my heart
I'll end it thought you started it

The truth lies
The truth lied
And lies divide
Lies divide

and now...the moment you've all been waiting for...

PHOTOS.

THE CROWD. damn they're a cheery lot..


the first talent: the amazingly bubbly STACIE ORRICO. this young woman came on and handled the stage by herself. and yes, she did work the crowd really well, owing to her hits. must say she did a good job warming up the stage.









ah yes...JAMIE SCOTT. this singer/songwriter is immensely hot and talented as well. this proves to show, don't believe whatever you SEE on wikipedia. yes, TAKE OFF YOUR SHIRT JAMIE. and also, MARRY ME JAMIE. heh asyraf.
"WE LOVE YOU JAMIE!!!" "yeah i love you too"






tsk tsk tsk-ka-chuck tsk-tsk-a-dum tsk tsk-ka-chuck. yes it's ONEREPUBLIC people. put your hands up and dance along to the marvellous melodious riffs that this band makes. thank you ryan for the closeups. =)



















CAUTION: HOTNESS AHEAD. like really hot. DAMN I WANNA NAME MY SON RYAN.





i swear, those weren't my hands. they just...appeared. wonder if they're from the same person XD ALL HAIL THE GUITAR GOD ROSS.


i'm taking photos of ryan! AT NIGHT. =) now i see why perle's in love with the band. they sure know how to put up a great show. hope perle enjoyed yesterday too!


JASONJASONJASONJASON pity i had to leave like after the first couple of songs cuz there was this lucky draw "Meet Mr Mraz" thing going on and i kinda won so gave up my FRONT ROW view to meet him. to those underserving bastards who took my place, screw you and hope you fall sick soon. nevermind eduardo and ariel have more pics GIVE ME I WANT. waiting for my one-on-one pics to be sent to me.
"hey dude what's your name?"
"timothy."
"great to meet you man."
*shakes hands*
*puts hand around my shoulder*
*turns me towards him and pecks me on cheek* - *CENSOREDCENSOREDCENSORED*



okay maybe that last two things didn't really happen. but it could've you know. i totally stopped him luh. XD

WAIT A MINUTE boy why you trippin' like that you think cuz you trickin' you'll get it just like that SO WAIT A MINUTE
their dancing was good. the really dark photo was taken backstage while i was with jason mraz.





ALICIA KEYS!

the following pictures are to raise awareness about the autistic kids in our school.
WARNING: not for the faint hearted. dangerously ugly.

RETARD PHOTOS TAKEN OUT BY REQUEST OF PHOTO SUBJECT.
heh. now you know her name.